ty marie....i am trying to hang on until monday. i have no one to come with me to the ER and i just dont have the energy to drive, the nights are horribly lonely and that is when this depression really hits. Reading the threads keep me going and the things that are written to help my situation.

I right now feel like crying a river because the pain is so deep. You are right it was a very emotionally abusive realtionship. i sit and wonder how did i let this happen and for so long.

Please keep the advice coming, please just until monday when i can get some help. the weekends aren't easy because it gives me too much time to think...

(((marie))) thank you for your support, and confidence in me. You always know how to make me feel at the very least better and make me think alot. I get on my pitypot, and sometimes we just need to hear, "you're doing great".........

I was so depressed today that I skipped a class and we were supposed to take a test. I don't know if he will let me make it up or not.

As for the purse, it was strange since they only took my bank card (hahaha, I'm overdrawn $100 in the hole), they don't have ID and here they are very strict about those kinds of things. I had the card cancelled anyway.

And they took my SSI card. That scared me a lot, but I have had my identity stolen once already so I think I cut them off at the pass when I had the SSI card redflagged, so if someone tried to use it, they are in deep doo doo.........they left my DL??? They must have been young stupid criminals. And they just left it sitting right where someone could find it by the planter.

I mean if a black person came into a store and they looked at the name and they didn't have ID, boom. They take the card and don't give it back to the person......after they call the bank of course. I'm not ragging on any race at all, but these black kids dressed in gang attire are always out side the door of the class.

Anyway, I think I convered my ass, and if they try to use it online, they won't have the secret questions, and or I will not be held resposible for any charges made to my account since I made the report with in 24 hours. So far they haven't used it. But we should see in a few days.

I also filed a police report at the school when I went to pick it up. He then took a statement from my instructor cuz she was the one who found it and turned it in. The campus police are not rent a cops....they are the real police deptment...so I hope they can get these hoolums out of the way so we can walk through to get to class without harrassment.

The cop who took the report informed me that these kids are thier special project this semester, and they are trying to keep them broke up, of find a more open place to congregate.

There was only on person who came into the studio, and he wasn't a student and was a part of this little group, so I hope they can get rid of them.......enough about me....

FU(KING lil bastards who took my purse, have been using it to get gas! And there was one trnasaction where they only got a dollar which to me means they just bought something small and got cashback. I haev the addresses of the two stations that my card was used at. I'm going to go in there and ask if they had anyone use a card like mine! GRRRRRRRRRR

Like I don't have troubles already!

Cicey - did you try calling an Al-Anon number in a phone book and seeing if they had anyone to talk to you or any advice or the domestic violence people?? I really think they may have some support for you, maybe even offer to drive you to the ER if you want to go. That is what the DV people do, they help people through the hard times. Just a thought.

I definitely would look into some med to help you through this hard time. Try not to beat yourself up over the relationship. A lot of us have been in the same boat, it is so easy to get sucked into an abusive relationship, they seem to sneak up on you when you are not looking, say all the right words at the right moment and "bam" you are hooked. These people are the best, men and women, they are skilled at using their words and worming their way into your life. Don't beat yourself up though, turn it around to be grateful that you got out when you did. It would have been much worse had it gone on for another year or more. Even worse had you had a child with him. So try to look at it in the positive, it is hard, but try to find some positives. I know it hurts right now and you need to release that pain. Try to do something nice for yourself. A warm bath, with bubbles if you have them, a funny movie, something to distract you for a bit. If you have a friend you can call and talk to. Make sure you eat something, some people don't eat when they are depressed, but you need to eat something, it will help calm your nerves some and help you sleep tonight. I will be on and off tonight and keep checking in, but try hard not to beat yourself up, try to concentrate on feeling better about yourself, congratulate yourself for getting out, try to find some positives to concentrate on. Maybe make a call to a DV hotline and see what they say or an Al-Anon number and see if someone will talk to you, always nice to have a real person on the end of the phone. Take care.

(creations) im sorry someone took your purse. remember those who do bad will have it turned back to them in time... sometimes i think the world is full of shady people

Karen, if you reported it stolen, you are not supposed to be held responsible for the charges and why would the bank not have frozen it, it shouldn't have worked at all. They should have the people using it on tape. Call the police and have them contact the station and get a copy of the tape. Sorry about this Karen, sounds like your bank screwed up on this one. Hang in there and have the police go after them.

Karen,
If I had a real lightsaber, I'd go after them!! (*B~L}

dont people suck?robbing poor folks ..the bank should not have allowed the transactions unless they are trying to trace the card..if it is a visa or mastercard check card you should notify them also..

I notified them as soon as I knew for sure that it was gone. The bank cut off the card but not b4 they used it to get gas.......they said they would see if the station had tapes for the investigation. They are being pretty strict about since they also took my SSI card too. It is redflagged. I had my identity stolen once b4 so i knew what to do. Just didn't catch the lil turds fast enough. They can't used the card as of 4pm of the 19th.

Thanks for all the support you guys! Love ya too!!!!

I think I'm going to check out.

everyone is in my prayers tonight
kinda down
see a lot of girls at work and its like how can i get them to see me when im behind this register

Well, as sort of a "follow up" to whats going on in my life lately...I got accepted into ITT Technical Institute tonight, and going to major in Electronic Technology(aka, building awesome robots).

SO BRING IT ON!

Hey, that is great news, Allen. Glad to hear it. Way to go.

ALLEN! WHoot Whooot! Good for you! Great to see some good news! COngrats. I'm sure that you will be great at it too.....

Annnnnnd now I'm backing out of it...I looked up past students and they pretty much hated it and lost 30,000 in tuition. I going back to planning stages now.

Cloudy man,

I was gonna say that I didn't think them type schools were all they were hyped up to be. I was gonna try Vatterot, but at the last change to a CC. I gragiminated, and have working with a 2 year daygree. Let tell you what dem ITT tech type schools won't do. You can't transfer many of the credits to say a 4 year university to continue your education. Go for the real stuff, you'll get more out of it, and you won't regret it.

Don't stop thinin' about tomorrow!!

BearsMon

Thats what I was hearing about Bearsman, so I'm looking into a Community College right now and hoping something comes from that. I need a better future than being a maid lol

Let me tell ya Cloudy Man, as you know I suffer from depression and for a long time, at that. I studied my Fenass off, but when I made the deans list, it seemed as thought the depression lighten up a bit. I guess it got that serotonin going. Everytime I think about that accomplishment, I get a good feelin' about myself. I did it at the age of 45. Quit my job and took it on.

Go for it!!

it just gets worse and worse.. every day it hurts more... every time... just worse... why isnt it getting better?!?!?! why hasnt the pain stoped by now??!!!!!?????

why do i still feel like im torn in little bittie bits!?!?!?!
why?

ok im done now... sorry.. just found out that his new girlfriend is preg... and he doesnt even take care of his kids he has now... its not fair!!!


ok done now..