Damn you beat me to it. I thought about this post while writing out
another reply and was going to say I am in love with 4. They are my
kids.

I can not stand people who are to thin or to heavy. What I am talking
about is unhealthy weights. Some small framed women are naturally
thinner but they do not need to be so thin you can count their ribs
though their tight fitting shirts. Then again I am not into 250+ pound
women of average height. Yes some big framed tall women can look great
at 250 pounds. I was most pleased when the ex which is 5' 4" weighed
right at 180 pounds which is over weight according to the docs. But this
weight fit her just right. I find women in size 9-14 to be the most
atractive to me. But frame and height still need to match the weight. A
girl I went to school with which I saw last week in town is short and
thin framed. She only weighs 95 pounds yet looks good. I think she is
the smallest person I have found mildly atractive.

Limewire is another good site for down loading such items. I found
quite a collection on the computer when the ex unlocked her account as I
got the computer. That one was one of the few that had a man in it.

PAINFUL but not nothing special to remember long term. I had short
notice to get a job done or not get any more work. So I got up at 6am
yesterday morning. I worked all day and nearly all night until my back
was hurting so bad I had tears slowly but steadly running down my face.
So finally around 2:30am I take a hot shower for atleast 30 minutes
trying to rub the knots out of my back(hard to give yourself a good back
rub). I got out of the tub and laid on the heating pad which was a big
mistake as I fell a sleep. When my daughters alarm went off at 5:45am I
jumped up got dressed and went back to work. Well I just got home and
checked my email here and came to the forums while I am eating supper at
10:00pm. Next is the shower and then finally bed. Then I have to be up
at 4:45am and start another very long day. I have to go pull vinca
minor(graveyard) vines with my ex mother in law(we get along it is the
ex father in law that is my problem). Then get home by noon clean up and
go to the horse show after a few stops to treat myself(inscent shop,
cigar shop(only smoking I still do and it is rare), diner).

To bad I did not get any takers on the offer for a good time at the
horse show. The daughter of mine that is into horses turned it down as
well because she wants to go with her BF to a mud bog. So it is just
going to be me.

In the morning has promise of being a good day. Heck I may even get a
nap(hope so). Just to be back in the stables checking out the horses
getting the free ball caps and pins and what ever they can think of to
put their horses name on. People who only go to the actual show miss out
on alot of thinks to do. I really need some good caps. Last time I went
my oldest daughter and I had 6 caps each and on hand towel each.

Since I do not sleep well at night my normal morning routine is to be
woke up by the youngest(3) rest of them are in school and the oldest
makes sure they get off to school before I wake up. I dress her for the
day. Give her a bowl of cereal. Pop in a movie and lock her in my
room(has its own bath) then lay back down but she rarely lets me fall a
sleep. But keeping her from having free roam of the house helps make
sure the house is not destroyed on the rare chance she lets me fall a
sleep.

Some of us failed spelling due to a mental disorder called
dislexia(hope I spelled it right been to long since I have seen it). I
do try to correct my spelling but my mind screws up writen words. I am a
slow reader because of it as well. But hey who needs proper spelling. It
is a proven fact that as long as the first letter and last letter are in
the right place you can scramble the letters in between and 90% of the
people can read it without making a mistake. It actually looks normal to
me LOL.

Steph, I like on of the others had a real hard time sleeping at night.
The solution was to get a 3rd shift job. I sleep like a baby during the
early morning hours normally without any help. But a first shift job
nearly killed me as I would work hard all day then do the farm work
shower and go to bed and lay there all night or until I got tired of
laying there long enough and got up and went to the living room to watch
tv. I have went 2 weeks without ANY sleep. My problem is I start falling
aslpeep as the sun come up and sleep best between 4am-12noon. Not all of
us are natural day shifters. Like I have been up all night this part
night working on getting this vine order out(just taking a break right
now). I was up at 6am yesterday. I did not even get sleepy until the
morning light started showing in the sky. Now I am having a hard time
fighting sleep as I took a hot shower to releave muscle spasms in my
lower back. My youngest daughter should be getting up any minute now and
it will be atleast 4pm before I can lay down. So try to get some good
quality sleep at different times of the day on the weekends and see if
you are just on the wrong shift for your natural sleep habits. Like
another said there are non habit forming sleeping pills now. I had to
try a couple before find one that would work.

Well I was happy in my mariage but she was not so I never met a person
for this type of relationship. But I have met about 10 people off the
net. Most of them have been beekeepers and aquarium/killifish hobbiest
like myself. So I have met more men than women(2). But meeting a guy to
go work honeybee hives or learn how to graft queen cells or even meeting
and seeing another guys fishroom was easier than meeting a woman for a
relationship.

Don't yah know god made people to live in the south, LOL.

Hi from TN where it was cool(84F when I went by a bank) and rainy off
and on today. I actually had to put my sock on where I am working
outside on the porch tonight. I need a snuggle bunny for winter as well
but that gives me about 1 1/2 months.

I have a play list called quiet times. Wild Horses by the Rolling
Stones is the first, 4th, and 9th/last song. Does that say how much I
like that song for quiet/reflection times.

I got work to do so yall want here much from me tonight. I will probly
be working when the sun comes up. I have a piece mill job that has to be
done by 2pm in the morning and I just like 1800 more of 3000 which was
started about 5pm today.

My mom, like me, speaks her mind. The ex has said I am to passive on
what my mother has said about a few things but I have stood up to her on
a few issues. Alot of the time for family harmany you just keep your
mouth shut and let it go but there is a cut off point.

My ex after she first left kept walking in the house going straight to
the freezer or pantry area and getting stuff. Some of it was stuff I
asked her to take earlier and other stuff was what I bought for the kids
and I to eat. I said something everytime but it did not get through her
head until I told her get the hell out of what is now my house. I just
hated it had to happen in front of the kids to get through to her.

My ex still walks right in instead of knocking. But that is our country
up bringing. You open the door and anounce your presence with a close
friend or family. I know I even do this to a lesser degree when I went
to her house as they have no kids around so they could be in bed at
anytime.

This is sort of weird as this topic got brought up by my oldest
daughter while we were alone on the porch rolling vines the other night.
Like Unsure said you have to live in the now but also keep in mind that
you are unlikely to die today. It is a hard concept to live in the now
and saving money for a day you may never see. You have to prepare for
your golden year now wether or not you make it to them. Focus on living
today.

If you have been following me in other post you would have heard how
hard I worked then lost it all to one slip. My only regret is I did not
take the chance I had to ride a bull and now I will never know. I know I
loved breaking horses but they had saddles and they buck differently. I
choose to break horses as a side job to the factory work because I got
paid to do something I love. When I had the chance to ride the bull I
had no health insurance so if something happened there was the thought
of me loosing it all and how would I support the kids. Well I ended up
in bad shape anyway at a young age. My home was sold to pay medical
bills. So I am glad I did the other things that pleased me like breaking
horses.

Life is to short to not enjoy it. By dwelling on the final result you
are not enjoying it. I think we all go through that phase but some dwell
on it much more than others. The end became close to me when I was 10yo.
My parents almost waited to long to take me to the doctor when my
appendix got inflamed. After the doctor opened me up he saw it burst
open. So they had to pull all my guts out and wash the infection out of
me. I was only given a 25% chance of making it. So I learned early how
special life was.

There are good ones like myself around as you can tell from our post in
the forums. I have made a friend but it seems like to me it is not
leading anywhere beyond that. That is Ok with me as it is a starting
point and I have been here less than 2 weeks. I need more friends
anyway. I really worry about those that do not use the forums or give
much of a bio.

I think your other post is in another section as I read it earlier
today.

King I took it that way and put a spin on it which is true. Small hand
women using this rule could turn my 7 1/2 into a 10 inch LOL.

Well I finially found one I have been looking for. I really did not
know the name but the chorus has been running through my mind since I
read this thread.

Long Haired Country Boy by Charlie Daniels fit about any of us simple
life younger country boys and many of the older ones.

Honeyrobber is from my beekeeping hobby. But I know of the honey oil
you speak. Like I said Copper head road fits my past. Grand daddy was a
moonshine, so was my father as a teenager. I went with another crop that
used to be TN number one cash crop but meth took over and the herb got
left behind.

I am not a gambler as such. I love to go to the casinos though and we
used to make the trip once or twice a year. Go in with $40-50 and expect
to loose it all. This way it is about having fun and not trying to win
that jack pot so you never have to work again, LOL. I love the cheap
roulette tables(quarter and half dollar with 2-5 dollar minuim bet on
the table so you can spread your money). Other than that it is the
nickle slots. In reality it is hard to loose all your money playing
these cheap games in a couple hours so we normally left with half our
money. It is hard to beat the excitement and fun for the amount of money
invested as long as you are not going for the big bucks. But I have not
lost money yet on roulette. We always seemed to loose the money gained
there on black jack as the ex hated roulette we had to move around.

The Ozarks would be a good place to live I believe. I have only passed
through that area once and I was like 6yo. I think it is far enough
south but I would consult a planting guide for zones. I know the middle
of the country has a dip of lower zones a bit deeper into the south so
it may get a bit to cold for me.

Sadly that is the truth of it. I learned by doing. I am truely a jack
of all trades and master of none(well I am a great gardner and even got
some college in this). How I learned so much in such a short time is I
have never worked just one job. When I was in college I had a full time
second shift job with some over time and had 19-22 class hours of
college. I was doing my school work during lunch and breaks. That is how
you go from nothing(as my parents are not well off enough to give head
starts) to having 40K equity in a home in 10 years after leaving
college. Also what ever job I had I tried to learn all I could about it.
Like the job while I was going to college was in a steel press shop. I
jumped in and helped tool and die guys replace punches and such which
was not my job and I could have done like most and goofed off during
this time. Then at the factory I worked when I broke my back, I also
helped tool and die work on the dies and some of them were surprised and
how much this uneducated person knew about how to make a die run. It was
listening to the T&D guys and a little common sense.

I have found out a person that my father taught to graft japaneese
maples is doing in home tissue culture. I am going to work it out so I
can go stay in my sister cabin in Seveirville(check spelling next to
Gatlinburg) and then drive up to his place for him to teach me how he is
doing it. He said he uses test tubes and fish tanks and all start up
cost are less than $2k. Our idea is to grow these newer tetraploid day
lillies which sell for $50-500 each. It would take 2 years from tissue
culture to get a grown plant but it only cost about $2 each to get them
that old. If I get this going the way we think it could be done I could
be back on top in about 3-4 years.

I maybe down right now but I am not out. I have a good head on my
shoulders and I just have to over come I worked for a living and now I
have to use my head and one good arm. I just have had no luck finding
that niche or job that I can do.

I would gladly relocate for the right person and if they lived in a
proper area for me. I am country and can not stand to hear cars driving
by the house. I end up staring out the window wondering if they are
pulling in the drive. My other big issue is with my injuries I can not
stand the cold. You would have to live in the south. I say southern KY
is about as far north as I would go. My kids would hate to move but I
did when I was 10 and they will adjust and make new friends. I would
prefer the south east over the south west as I like playing in
water(fishing, catching native small fish for tanks, ect).

It could even be a mutual move. Like we both pack up and move to a
different location. I have thought about going to Biloxi and see if I
could find work in a casino as I have worked with vending machines some
and I have seen the inside of those slot machines and think I could do
the work with a small amount of training. Biloxi area inland 30 miles
was not to terribly tore up and this or even farther inland is where I
would like to live. So If there was something like this where both
parties could move it may even be better.

The way I used to ride horses through the mountains if the horse does
not fall down atleast once you did not go for a ride. Ofcourse my night
time rides on green horses was never a rough ride. I was in a group
called the Rough Riders. One of our test for joining was you had to jump
your horse off a bluff into the river about 20 feet below. I took my
horses swimming with me most of the time as our swimming hole had a
small bluff about 7 feet into a deep hole of about 12 feet of water.
There was also a rope hanging from a tree on that bluff.

Well maybe my country side is showing through now. But being disabled
like I am I can no longer ride, well maybe ride a smooth horse is a
pasture but no more breaking horses or rough riding.