..I got brave and took 2 wellburtion today....I was already suppose to be doing it....But got brave enough today.

Morning everyone


Looks like im gonna be losing my van, way behind in payments and dont have the money to catch it up. I was 'okay' with it all until I talked to a dear friend of mine, who has helped me keep my van, but now he can't do anything, not that I wanted him to, just was talkin to him about it. How I would have to rely on someone else to get my son to and from school 3 days a week, take me to the grocery store once a week, no more trips up to see my family, or be able to take my son to the doctor and his therapy appointments. Hit me real hard last night, I have failed myself, my son, and all those that have helped me along the way. I was feeling bad as it was, but now... sheesh.. I just don't know what to do. I can't feel anything and all my meds are doin it making me numb, knockin me on my arse.. I sleep most of the dang day away, or try to anyway, my son keeps me goin, always wakin' me up for something. all I know is this has to END, and SOON!!!! I can't keep goin' on like this

..I love ya Ruthie. Wish I could help ya..

I'm very depressed at the moment....I live with my parents, yes I still do and last night and tonight we've been arguing and my mom actually physically hurt me and I'm so upset and hurt and I want to leave but I have no place to go....and the only reason I haven't left before now is that I have a 12 brother that is my life and I don't want to break his heart by leaving...

Hon, I hate to say this BUT.......thats abuse and if she is doing it to you, she is doing it to your bro. Call the authorities and take your bro with you. You are old enough to take legal custody of him and they will find you a place to go.

I don't think it's really abuse..I mean, we were yelling and she went to grab me and I Struggled so she dug her nails in. I guess it hurt me emotionally more than anything--that and the way she treats me. But she would never hurt my brother, she'd rather die than even reprimand him verbally....they'd kill me before they let me take my brother. I can't provide for him.

Gosh that is hard. I tell ya if I didn't have my mom and dad supporting me when before I went on disability. I don't know what I would have done.

As for your situation. I think its in your best interest to get out and be out on your own. It will surely take a lot of weight off your shoulders as well as your mom's. I think that we sometimes get so annoyed with other people that we love. That we sometimes forget who they truly are.

Its time to move.when things start getting out of control in an argument and the respect is gone its time to find a place.i would set a time table for moving out and stick to it.your brother will have less stress with the tension that must be in the house and you will find that your relationship with mom will improve once you get out on your own.
i lived with my parents for one yr during my divorce and all i can say is two women who are related cannot share a house..
good Luck !!

sorry to hear this mommy but on the bright side no car payment.you can save that money towards a second hand car.I had it happen to me before so your not alone.Try looking on freecycle.org or com.i would google the one for your area.the idea is people have free things they want to get rid of and instead of throwing them out,they give them away..sometimes they have cars..worth a try..

thanks for the info devil, i'll check it out



Cindy, I love you too, and thanks

no problem..thats what this thread is all about..

This has been the best year of my life, and the worse year of my life. I hope and pray I will get off this rollercoaster, and on to better things next year!!

I want to wish you all a Happy New Year. I want to thank everyone for all your support and God Bless you!!

Ken

<<<<REPEATING MB, happy new year y'all and hopefully by this time next year i'll be slim and trim and hott! lmao feeling great today!

hiya MB. Glad to see ya again........and HNY to everyone.

Sorry about you losing your van. I remember when I was in Kentucky and they repossessed mine then sold it at auction. I owed 2000 on it and they got 500 for it at auction and wanted me to pay the remainder of the 2000. It has been over 5 years now I guess they are still expecting the same. I remember in treatment when they were talking about expectations and how they can be unreal.

(((Ken)))


good to see ya postin again.


This has been the aboslute worse year of my life!!


Last night i was thinking, I know, NOT a good thing to do, but I found myself sobbing uncontrolably from 1:30am till 6am. I havent slept at all today/last night.. my eyes hurt and I got the call today about them coming to get my van. i have excatly an hour an half to get them $300 or on the second they will call to make arrangements to get my van. I sooo want this life to end, and a new one begin. 2008 HAS to be better!!!!


Happy New Year to y'all

Mommy, I am sorry to hear about the problems you are having. Have you tried calling local churches to see if they will help you catch up on the payments? Sometimes they have funds to help, heck try the Salvation Army. I would call anybody and everybody, every little bit you can get from any agency/organization would help. Maybe if you could get them some money by Wednesday, they would back off and give you some more time. I wish I could help, but I don't have it either. Try all your family members too. Amazing how they do this during the holiday season too. Roy is right, they will turn around and sell it and then want you to make up the difference. I have given back a car in the past and they did that to me.

Take care of yourself and I hope we all have a better New Year, we sure do deserve it.

mommy things look bleak now but they will get better.if i had the money i would send it to you.happy better new year to all of us !!

I agree Jax, wish I could help too, but I am up the creek myself right now.

As I said, think we all deserve a much better and brighter new year.

Wishing you all the best for the coming new year. Hope it is the best year yet. Take care.

Good morning. I went out and pried the clothes off the line. Weather sure changed fast. I am wondering if I can put my underwear on delicate defrost in the microwave. Brrr. Had to let the car warm a bit before leaving for home. My new year's resolution is to get my dryer fixed.