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Had a couple of nights off, Marie and have to go back in tonight. Went to check in on my friend, Stuart. He is 19 and I enjoyed working with him. He gave me a bunch of computer parts and I was able to fix my resident friend's computer. So I got her a 17 inch flat screen and this last week a real nice computer from the parts I was given. She had a boat anchor that didn't have a dvd rom. She wanted to play a dvd and I told her first she needed a dvd rom on her computer since all she had was a cd rom. I thought I would be nice and put some more ram in her old computer. It was an old 1996 computer. I opted to use a newer computer I was given since her motherboard in her computer was barely mounted. One of the nurses asked me if I was doing side business at the nursing home. I said that I was because that resident is my seemstress and fixes my scrub tops free of charge when I tear them on wheelchairs; Residents grabbing the pockets or the door knobs that attack me.
 Finally after the frustration of trying to fix hers I just told the resident that I would in so many words 'pimp' her computer. the resident gave me her creative speakers since she didn't have enough plugins and I gave her a usb set that would play on the newer computer I gave her. She was real happy because she really loves to install a lot of pictures on her computer. But she had it so bogged down with her 64 megs of ram that with the 192 megs of ram she will be able to load to her heart's content. We all keep her busy with her sewing machine that she doesn't have that much time to get too depressed. Like me she has lost her spouse and I kind of got a soft place for her as do so many other aides that work there. We all call her momma. The cna supervisor keeps giving me thank you cards for coming in when others don't but just Wedsnesday told me the new aides she has want the overtime. Quite a switch and I am happy because I get burnt out after a while. I hope you having a good day.
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Depression is a disease that never seems to go away...I hate it...I have dysthymia Depression, the lowest form...as well as two other disorders...but that's my depression one...little zoloft and topomax pills...you ever wonder if the pills help? I've never gone off of them or anything, but, sometimes I just wonder...other times I notice I'm more depressed without them...depression hurts, not only yourself, but everyone around you (I know that's from the commercial, but it's true...I've lived it)...to all those who suffer I'm sorry you too have to endure it...   
I have dysthymia too, didn't get diagnosed until my 40s though, the meds don't work for me, I have pretty much every side effect in the book from them, so I try counseling and have learned to get along pretty well. I hope things work out for you. Welcome to our thread. It has been quiet in here for awhile, people have apparently been busy. Keep up your fight, you can conquer it or get control of it anyways. Take care. I take Topamax too, for my migraines. Good luck.
Wow, I'm sorry to hear you didn't get diagnosed until later on. That sucks. Oh I know how it is to get every side effect in the book from meds because when it comes to surgeries I can't take anything for pain (literally--not even morphine, penicillian, etc.). Topamax for migraines? Odd. I still get migraines and I've been on Topamax for a few years. Excedrin works for me. Nice to meet someone who knows what it's like. And thanks for the warm welcome to the thread.
I am only on 200 mg of Topamax a day, but without it I get auras for migraines, I actually get "retinal auras" where I get the auras but the headache doesn't happen, really bizarre. Scared me, I was having them daily, went to the ophthalmologist, was scared my vision was going bad, he said they wouldn't affect my vision, but I get them when I am stressed. The Topamax helps control them. I know you can take up to 600 a day of Topamax, I have been on 300, but do okay on 200, so have been on that for maybe 3 years now. I still get headaches but not like I was. Stress seems to dictate my headaches, when I am super stressed, I will get stuck in a headache cycle that can last for months. I have muscle relaxants that help some with the arthritis in my neck and slows the headaches down too. After all these years, guess I am finally finding a combination that works. Yeah, it does suck to walk around for 40+ years and wonder what the he1l is wrong with you, finally someone put some words to it, it was relief to finally know what it was. I do okay without meds, but have done a lot of counseling to work on my issues and have developing some coping skills so I do okay. I actually can't take aspirin or Tylenol, but do take some Vicodin or another pill for the major headaches, can take the Tylenol if there is some narcotic there to buffer it, I guess, but my stomach won't take the straight Tylenol after all these years. Welcome again, this is normally a really safe place to hang out, lots of good people here. Take care. Yeah I was relieved when I finally had names for my disorders, too. I am on 150 of Topomax and Zoloft and when either are increased I either get physically or mentally ill. I was in therapy for 3 years and it really helped, too. Wow, you can't take tylenol or aspirin? Aspirin itself never worked for me, but Excedrin always did, at least for my migraines. My mom (I'm adopted, so she's not technically related) had a hysterectomy when she was in her early 30's and ever since she hasn't been able to work because she gets severe migraines where all she does is sleep, feel like crap (everything bothers her--light, sounds, smells, etc.), and treats everyone around her like crap. When she's sick you learn to stay out of her way. But my entire life she was a stay-at-home mom and probably half of it she was sick. When I was really little it was worse and she used to throw up with the migraines. It sucks because her migraines predict the weather (SE wind means she will be sick and if there's going to be a storm coming she's sick). They've gotten worse since I moved out of the house, too. |
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I am happy to be a part of this little forum. You guys seem nice.
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Depression is a disease that never seems to go away...I hate it...I have dysthymia Depression, the lowest form...as well as two other disorders...but that's my depression one...little zoloft and topomax pills...you ever wonder if the pills help? I've never gone off of them or anything, but, sometimes I just wonder...other times I notice I'm more depressed without them...depression hurts, not only yourself, but everyone around you (I know that's from the commercial, but it's true...I've lived it)...to all those who suffer I'm sorry you too have to endure it...
I have dysthymia too, didn't get diagnosed until my 40s though, the meds don't work for me, I have pretty much every side effect in the book from them, so I try counseling and have learned to get along pretty well. I hope things work out for you. Welcome to our thread. It has been quiet in here for awhile, people have apparently been busy. Keep up your fight, you can conquer it or get control of it anyways. Take care. I take Topamax too, for my migraines. Good luck.
Wow, I'm sorry to hear you didn't get diagnosed until later on. That sucks. Oh I know how it is to get every side effect in the book from meds because when it comes to surgeries I can't take anything for pain (literally--not even morphine, penicillian, etc.). Topamax for migraines? Odd. I still get migraines and I've been on Topamax for a few years. Excedrin works for me. Nice to meet someone who knows what it's like. And thanks for the warm welcome to the thread.
I am only on 200 mg of Topamax a day, but without it I get auras for migraines, I actually get "retinal auras" where I get the auras but the headache doesn't happen, really bizarre. Scared me, I was having them daily, went to the ophthalmologist, was scared my vision was going bad, he said they wouldn't affect my vision, but I get them when I am stressed. The Topamax helps control them. I know you can take up to 600 a day of Topamax, I have been on 300, but do okay on 200, so have been on that for maybe 3 years now. I still get headaches but not like I was. Stress seems to dictate my headaches, when I am super stressed, I will get stuck in a headache cycle that can last for months. I have muscle relaxants that help some with the arthritis in my neck and slows the headaches down too. After all these years, guess I am finally finding a combination that works. Yeah, it does suck to walk around for 40+ years and wonder what the he1l is wrong with you, finally someone put some words to it, it was relief to finally know what it was. I do okay without meds, but have done a lot of counseling to work on my issues and have developing some coping skills so I do okay. I actually can't take aspirin or Tylenol, but do take some Vicodin or another pill for the major headaches, can take the Tylenol if there is some narcotic there to buffer it, I guess, but my stomach won't take the straight Tylenol after all these years. Welcome again, this is normally a really safe place to hang out, lots of good people here. Take care. Yeah I was relieved when I finally had names for my disorders, too. I am on 150 of Topomax and Zoloft and when either are increased I either get physically or mentally ill. I was in therapy for 3 years and it really helped, too. Wow, you can't take tylenol or aspirin? Aspirin itself never worked for me, but Excedrin always did, at least for my migraines. My mom (I'm adopted, so she's not technically related) had a hysterectomy when she was in her early 30's and ever since she hasn't been able to work because she gets severe migraines where all she does is sleep, feel like crap (everything bothers her--light, sounds, smells, etc.), and treats everyone around her like crap. When she's sick you learn to stay out of her way. But my entire life she was a stay-at-home mom and probably half of it she was sick. When I was really little it was worse and she used to throw up with the migraines. It sucks because her migraines predict the weather (SE wind means she will be sick and if there's going to be a storm coming she's sick). They've gotten worse since I moved out of the house, too. Wonder if your adopted mom needed estrogen after her hysterectomy, lack of estrogen or too much can cause migraines, any type of hormone imbalance can cause them. Sorry you had to go through that nightmare with her. There are doctors out there that could likely have helped her regulate them some with medications, hormones, maybe some other type of preventative medications. At least you made it through and are out of there now it sounds. My mom was depressed, I am sure, was a yeller/screamer all my life and a major name-caller. There is something to be said about getting out on your own, that is for sure. Again, welcome to "our little home away from home."
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Well my adoptive mom was better than my biological mom. True we had our issues, but I know I inherited my Borderline Personality disorder from my biological mother and I know she has polio so she definitely was not physically or mentally capable of taking care of me. Plus my biological dad is sort of slow, so it wouldn't have been a good combination. Quite frankly, I'm surprised I turned out as well as I did considering all of the genetics and environmental factors against me. And yeah, my adoptive mom has been on estrogen and they're having her cut down as she gets older. She went through menopause overnight after her hysterectomy which must have been a nightmare for her. During my teen years she and I were like sisters and fought constantly (mind you I was an only child). It's nice to visit with her and not have to live with her anymore.
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haven't been on here much, but i needed to post in here today......ken and i broke up AGAIN......this time he blames his work schedule.......
so yeah, no self-harm ideations tho.. |
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sorry to hear that amber.hi guys.
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Depression is a disease that never seems to go away...I hate it...I have dysthymia Depression, the lowest form...as well as two other disorders...but that's my depression one...little zoloft and topomax pills...you ever wonder if the pills help? I've never gone off of them or anything, but, sometimes I just wonder...other times I notice I'm more depressed without them...depression hurts, not only yourself, but everyone around you (I know that's from the commercial, but it's true...I've lived it)...to all those who suffer I'm sorry you too have to endure it...
I have dysthymia too, didn't get diagnosed until my 40s though, the meds don't work for me, I have pretty much every side effect in the book from them, so I try counseling and have learned to get along pretty well. I hope things work out for you. Welcome to our thread. It has been quiet in here for awhile, people have apparently been busy. Keep up your fight, you can conquer it or get control of it anyways. Take care. I take Topamax too, for my migraines. Good luck.
Wow, I'm sorry to hear you didn't get diagnosed until later on. That sucks. Oh I know how it is to get every side effect in the book from meds because when it comes to surgeries I can't take anything for pain (literally--not even morphine, penicillian, etc.). Topamax for migraines? Odd. I still get migraines and I've been on Topamax for a few years. Excedrin works for me. Nice to meet someone who knows what it's like. And thanks for the warm welcome to the thread.
I am only on 200 mg of Topamax a day, but without it I get auras for migraines, I actually get "retinal auras" where I get the auras but the headache doesn't happen, really bizarre. Scared me, I was having them daily, went to the ophthalmologist, was scared my vision was going bad, he said they wouldn't affect my vision, but I get them when I am stressed. The Topamax helps control them. I know you can take up to 600 a day of Topamax, I have been on 300, but do okay on 200, so have been on that for maybe 3 years now. I still get headaches but not like I was. Stress seems to dictate my headaches, when I am super stressed, I will get stuck in a headache cycle that can last for months. I have muscle relaxants that help some with the arthritis in my neck and slows the headaches down too. After all these years, guess I am finally finding a combination that works. Yeah, it does **** to walk around for 40+ years and wonder what the he1l is wrong with you, finally someone put some words to it, it was relief to finally know what it was. I do okay without meds, but have done a lot of counseling to work on my issues and have developing some coping skills so I do okay. I actually can't take aspirin or Tylenol, but do take some Vicodin or another pill for the major headaches, can take the Tylenol if there is some narcotic there to buffer it, I guess, but my stomach won't take the straight Tylenol after all these years. Welcome again, this is normally a really safe place to hang out, lots of good people here. Take care. Yeah I was relieved when I finally had names for my disorders, too. I am on 150 of Topomax and Zoloft and when either are increased I either get physically or mentally ill. I was in therapy for 3 years and it really helped, too. Wow, you can't take tylenol or aspirin? Aspirin itself never worked for me, but Excedrin always did, at least for my migraines. My mom (I'm adopted, so she's not technically related) had a hysterectomy when she was in her early 30's and ever since she hasn't been able to work because she gets severe migraines where all she does is sleep, feel like crap (everything bothers her--light, sounds, smells, etc.), and treats everyone around her like crap. When she's sick you learn to stay out of her way. But my entire life she was a stay-at-home mom and probably half of it she was sick. When I was really little it was worse and she used to throw up with the migraines. It sucks because her migraines predict the weather (SE wind means she will be sick and if there's going to be a storm coming she's sick). They've gotten worse since I moved out of the house, too. Wonder if your adopted mom needed estrogen after her hysterectomy, lack of estrogen or too much can cause migraines, any type of hormone imbalance can cause them. Sorry you had to go through that nightmare with her. There are doctors out there that could likely have helped her regulate them some with medications, hormones, maybe some other type of preventative medications. At least you made it through and are out of there now it sounds. My mom was depressed, I am sure, was a yeller/screamer all my life and a major name-caller. There is something to be said about getting out on your own, that is for sure. Again, welcome to "our little home away from home."
I actually am on estrogen now because of my severe PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder)...my adoptive mom is definitely on a hormone that she keeps cutting down due to the fact that she is aging....the estrogen is making me feel better than I was with minor side effects (most of which appear and then go away...lol). |
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Marie, I havent been here in some time and was reading through this. Im sorry about your dad but Im glad that he passed easily. It's wonderful that the staff there know you and took good care of not only your father but you too. I think you needed that and Im glad you got it. You are a dear person.
I miss this damned place but nothing ever happenes to me anymore and Ive become a chain smoking hermit since the temp is going up into the high 100's. I have found someone. So far Im happy, but I dont know if he can handle me. Im too exausting to be loved. Ok enough of my whining. Hiya everyone else.......have missed you all. Dont forget to write. HUGS, Karen |
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Haven't been in here for a long time, things are goin good, finally got those rotten teeth OUT......that was nearly 3 weeks ago.....miss you guys a ton
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Hey all you crazy people. Don't know if you remember me (Jax does....lol) but I just dropped by to say hello.
This is a great thread and I hope everyone gets the benefit of advice and love from the terrific people who post here. Just a quick update for the old-timers...I am still bipolar....lol. This past 7 months. I was diagnosed with diabetes in February, along with high blood pressure. I gained alot of weight before and after I was diagnosed. April, me and my parents almost burned to death in a raging wildfire in our area. Our house was damaged but it was still standing when we were allowed back in the neighborhood. 85 houses were completely destroyed within a mile or so radius of our home, and over 100 other houses were damaged, like ours. We were displace for 2 months until all the repairs were done. 2 weeks after our house burned, my sister's house burned also...she lives 500 miles away. In June, I was diagnosed with a hiatal hernia....lol. And I thought I found someone but it didn't work out. So that is the woe is me part of my update. I am now dieting and exercising and it is going very well. I am on track to lose all the weight I gained and I am feeling better. The diabetes is under control, the hernia still bothers me once in a while, but that is better, the high blood pressure is in check. So things are looking better. Keep your heads up everyone...just keep moving forward is my new motto. Good to see some familiar faces!! |
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself.
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself. Hi Marie!!! Nice to see you. Hope all is going well with you.... I came back to say hi to old friends and I may not stick around for too long. But it was nice seeing you and others in here.
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself. Hi Marie!!! Nice to see you. Hope all is going well with you.... I came back to say hi to old friends and I may not stick around for too long. But it was nice seeing you and others in here.
hello Ken!!!!!!!
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself. Hi Marie!!! Nice to see you. Hope all is going well with you.... I came back to say hi to old friends and I may not stick around for too long. But it was nice seeing you and others in here.
hello Ken!!!!!!!
Hi L....
Missed you guys so much from the other place, thought I come here for a bit. Just not the same without you crazies there!! |
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself. Hi Marie!!! Nice to see you. Hope all is going well with you.... I came back to say hi to old friends and I may not stick around for too long. But it was nice seeing you and others in here.
hello Ken!!!!!!!
Hi L....
Missed you guys so much from the other place, thought I come here for a bit. Just not the same without you crazies there!! I do hope you hang around for awhile Ken. It has been quiet for awhile. Even our poor thread has suffered. We seem to have drifted off into our different directions. I am working a part-time 2nd job and pop in and out when I can but am working nights now too, so don't spend as much time on here. My dad died in November, still cleaning up some of the paperwork and giving away his stuff, amazing how long that takes when you don't want to deal with something, hum??? I need to get it done, but then think about the typing and sit down and type instead. Welcome back, I do hope you hang around for awhile. Take care.
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Wow, MB, welcome back. I have been thinking about you off and on and hoping you were okay. Sorry things went so sour for you. But I am glad you came back, hope you stay around for awhile. Take care of yourself. Hi Marie!!! Nice to see you. Hope all is going well with you.... I came back to say hi to old friends and I may not stick around for too long. But it was nice seeing you and others in here.
hello Ken!!!!!!!
Hi L....
Missed you guys so much from the other place, thought I come here for a bit. Just not the same without you crazies there!! I do hope you hang around for awhile Ken. It has been quiet for awhile. Even our poor thread has suffered. We seem to have drifted off into our different directions. I am working a part-time 2nd job and pop in and out when I can but am working nights now too, so don't spend as much time on here. My dad died in November, still cleaning up some of the paperwork and giving away his stuff, amazing how long that takes when you don't want to deal with something, hum??? I need to get it done, but then think about the typing and sit down and type instead. Welcome back, I do hope you hang around for awhile. Take care.
I am so sorry Marie about your dad. My prayers are with you and him. I have talked to a few people who lost loved ones and they were resonsible for getting final things in order. It is a very hard task and it does take a long time to do. Not because of the work itself, but the emotional pain it brings...so people do avoid getting things done. The people I talked to all said they wished they got it done sooner and not put it off. Sounds like you are very busy working 2 jobs now. I hope you are getting enough rest for yourself. Take care.... |
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This thread is not crowded at all....did everyone get better???
Maybe the old-timers found happiness, or content. That's what I am looking for...to be content. Just so hard to even find that though. I put on my profile that I am bipolar. I believe in total honesty and with honesty comes a price. This disorder got such a bad reputation. I guess alot of people believe whoever is bipolar, they are nutty, or they are somehow dangerous. That is the Hollywood version of it, and sensational news stories. I hope this thread can enlighten others that we are as normal as anyone else...we can be loving, and caring, faithful, etc. We also can be moody, irritable, sad, but so is every other human being on this planet...
I even think bipolars are more sensitive and caring than the norm because we find it difficult to find someone, and we want to show the person who gives us a chance we are worthy of that chance. There must be a day when the stereotypes and negativity associated with this disorder are eradicated from mainstream thinking. Until then the struggle continues to try and allow others into our personal space through these forums to see we are ok. There can be happiness found, and a wonderful life lived with someone who is bipolar, or has depression or other mental disorders. I pray for that day to be sooner rather than later.
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I have fought depression most of my life so understand life is a battle.
I care about people too and am on here to make friends more than anything else. Seems the people I run into are pretty much all users and looking for someone to walk on, and I get tired of their shoeprints on my forehead. I am getting smarter with age, but they seem to get smarter too. Almost a game with them, I guess, can't ever let your guard down it seems. Karen has met someone and is happy from what I hear, and I am really glad for her. The others drift in and out. I have been super busy with this other job so have been remiss myself in posting in here. It is good to see you back. Take care. |
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I have fought depression most of my life so understand life is a battle. I care about people too and am on here to make friends more than anything else. Seems the people I run into are pretty much all users and looking for someone to walk on, and I get tired of their shoeprints on my forehead. I am getting smarter with age, but they seem to get smarter too. Almost a game with them, I guess, can't ever let your guard down it seems. Karen has met someone and is happy from what I hear, and I am really glad for her. The others drift in and out. I have been super busy with this other job so have been remiss myself in posting in here. It is good to see you back. Take care. You are a very caring and thoughtful person Marie. It's hard to say no to people sometimes. You try to get to know them and when their true colors come out, it is too late to avoid the pain. It's sad how people can just use you and wlk all over you like you are their personal doormat. I am so happy Karen found someone. That is great news!!
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