I went to message last night, they wanted to charge me coins??? But not gave me any in long time, not messaged but maybe 5 people in a month, maybe 1 week since last message??? No clue, didnt message person, figure a scammer? But no point of wasting coins on a probably fake profile!!!!

the Jeep has proven to be pretty AWESOME! but has an electrical drain i havent took time to find, its a 1998, and belongs to female friend.

i want another Jeep, i once worked on a lot at shop i worked at, specialized in Jeeps, mine was crushed by tree few years ago, it was a 2 door, 5 speed, with 4 cylinder, but driving hers made me want 1. I do have a project 4wd, a 1988 GMC originally a V6, has a 350, was automatic, has a granny gear 4 speed, was 2wd, now 4wd, lol, but needs quite a bit fixed on it, and im too broke to fix, plus limited spare time.

99.999% correct. lol. usually if wanting marriage too soon, they want something. be very very VERY CAUTIOUS!

with that said, i sorta mentioned marriage to 1 person, not directly, but I have held her ring finger and told her to say the word and I would put a ring on it, HOWEVER, we are best friends, we known each other 40+ years, we grew up together, i know almost everything there is to know, as well as her knowing most about me. but wont date me, her health declining, and ex does work around her home and doesnt want to be a burden, nor lose free help. we had lunch yesterday, i ate at her house Christmas, so we see each other couple times a month, she also works same company and see each other 4-5 days a week there. when she needs something i am usually first to call, early this week, car wouldnt crank, call me 5am to jump it off. for emergency heat, uses a portable propane heater, when it runs out of propane, i get called to swap tanks, i have key to her house, so I may swap in morning while she is working. she pays me for all i do, but wont so much as kiss me. so i still have profile here, and actively asking women out, 99% rejection though.

with that said, there is no way in HELL I would consider marrying anyone else until dated probably 1 year, maybe more, you have to get to know, while the 1 person i mentioned, only thing not done was sleep together, but get along, and always have all our lives. but since im not wanted, i am actively seeing someone that does want to date, and see where it goes.

doesn’t sound like much of an invitation …. She may be using her ex but sounds like she is using you too ..

Only had 4 close friends since childhood, 3 are deceased, she is the other, but well over 40 year friendship, plus worked same company 39 years. Only have 1 other friend, about 15 year friendship. But not same.

Lady has health issues. So refuses to burden anyone, plus all free help, mowing is 6 hours with full size tractor. He mows 1 time a month,
.. you can do better than that .


Trust me I'm looking, asked over 1 dozen out for date. Been on a couple, but seems like I'm doomed to be alone.

Most recent rejection, was moderators local food group, got to talking, when sent current pic, she freaked out.my facebook is old pic, my beard is grey now. Plus beard was 4" on profile, she freaked when I said I cut over 1' off in last few months, still 8" or so long, demanded I cut beard to under 1" Before would go on a date. I told her judge not less to be judged, and hang phone up if she was that narrow minded. Oh well. I am not shaving. Last time i shaved was my moms funeral in 1999, i was shaved for 1 day. Lol. It would be since mid 1980's before i had tiny beard, or no beard.

TY, yep, another day. I have 1 offer for ham lunch. But only couple hour window, while her ex, and son are at his family. Then I'm not welcome, she terrified if he thinks she is dating, would stop helping her. Free labor is what wants. Refuses to burden anyone, and refuses to date me. So act like sneaking around for lunch? Or be by myself all day? She was asking I ffc I would go shopping for the lunch, I never gave straight answer, undecided if I want to then she calls me 30 min ago, says hope wasnt shopping, her son popped in unannounced, probably be there all day, so I cant come by. He is almost 30, her ex lives with his GF. But she only interested in him doing all work around home. That why I gave up, looking for someone that is serious. But no luck, other than jerks, female narcissist, or 1 hoarder, with animal crap all over floors.

So go out to eat alone? Cook frozen pizza? Stay home alone? Or go for company, to seem like sneaking around.

My uncle isnt able to travel, he was visiting his daughter when fell and broke hip a few months ago. He is 85. They are 300 miles away. I could drive there. But. I got to drive right back, go to work on Monday. So 600 mile round trip, for a meal, and 1-2 movies. His home is 25 miles from me, but he cant travel.

no presents to wrap, no presents to give, nor receive, a boss gave me a switchblade, thats all i will get.

first year in my entire life, like this, always saw family on the 24th, had someone in my life on 25th, not this year.

wish i had not took this week for vacation, and could work everyday!

today I started doing shakedown on a Jeep Grand Cherokee i redid a huge amount of issues, put 120 miles on it, ill put another few hundred more in next few days, make sure all is good, retighten intake, exhaust manifolds, and valve cover, and then give it back until spring, when I will rebuild the air conditioning system. fun fun fun, at least it wasnt my money, but she has a steal in it, found it dirt cheap, neglected, but no rust, nor crash damage, just $800 in parts. but could easily sell for double what she has in it.

only 3 friends, 2 are doing things with their family, other friends deceased, the 1 i may go see, depends on if her ex, or her son comes over, if they do, in not welcome, if they dont, I can come for Lasagna, or if leave early I can, but who knows. she is afraid to lose her free help to be seen with a guy, and refuses to date me, but been friends 40+ years.

as for helping like nursing home, I have donated lots over the years, but im not welcome to volunteer as you have to be vacinated to be there in any capacity, unless visiting a family member or friend. so nope its out.

I will probably drive 65 miles away to eat at Waffle House, but i am already positive will be worst Christmas in my life.

extremely depressed.

biggie, for 50+ years always ate December 24 at relatives house, this year canceled, out of town, not able to travel to his home, so staying with his daughter, and Christmas, may have 1 friend invite me, maybe, i wont know until 24th or 25th, no family, so probably worst Christmas ever. come on January!

im on vacation week before Christmas, planned it in February, before my life went sideways, now i wish I could work to keep my mind occupied.

to see USA by Harley, SOBER! i saw much in my youth, in alcoholic haze, blasting 1000 mile days, day & night, sleeping at rest stops. didnt have a camera, no pics, just remember few things here or there.

there are a few bucket list places here. i was going to 1, a few months ago, started my vacation, but we was getting a hurricane, i drove maybe 100 miles, turned around and gave up, destination was 300 miles away, and even though was open, decided id rather be home than outside miserable in the bad weather

i cant even figure out if was a warning signs, trust me, i have analyzed it so much, she seemed happy, she asked me to take her on vacation in May to Tennesse I did, she had found place online, I tried to do everything to make her happy, we had a vacation to Myrtle beach planned for September, but left first week of July, and I didnt go alone.

we talked nearly every day and night, I always asked if was ok, how she felt, if needed anything, so I could help anytime, I thought i was pretty intune to her.

the only thing i know of was the fuss for me to buy that sorry Liberal kid a house, and during 1 fuss, she saw my eyes, started asking if I was going to kill her, i said NO! but she got spooked over look in my eyes. she knew in my younger days I enjoyed hurting people that crossed me, i never started, but I would beat person, even today, try hitting me, & that person will change from attacker into the victim, the only thing else, is she knows I refused to give her Liberal daughter anything, as well as her grandson, my will gave it to my deceased best friends son, that is respectful of people.

her grandson was around during TN trip, fussing because will lose his insurance when turns 18, he needs medicine, like Insulin, what is he going to do, i said GET A JOB! preferably one with insurance!, he was mad enough to fight, he did cuss me, but he wants all handed to him, he wasnt conceived when i met ex, 2 years ago, I tried to give him money, i had saved all my spare coins from time was 6 months old, to 15, several thousand dollars, so he could buy first car, he cussed me out, he only wanted electric car, or Hybrid, refused to roll money, demanded i take to bank, then I could put money in his account, and he could buy what he wanted, electronic games. needles to say I rolled coins up, we used, part was used on TN trip. my ex ended up buying her daughter a Camry Hybrid so could have transportation, and not rely on public transportation, yeah, so my ex made down payment, made monthly payments, paid insurance, gas, and all expenses. for someone that refuses to work. kid has done a few food deliveries if wanted something, like a game, but no, relied on my ex paying her way

when the daughter started asking for a way out from her BF, that got into porn, i offered to help rent her an appartment, let her move here to 1 of my homes, or pull in trailer and put in well septic at a 1 acre piece of land i own, that wasnt acceptable, only her own home, in 1 of 3 nearby cities to her, everything I was shown was $50k to $100k i told her to get a job, i would help if needed a hand, but i wasnt going to pay for it.

so at age 67, my ex was going to retire October or November, this year, now has to work many more years, starting over. i been told has been posting anti-liberal stuff on facebook now, i was blocked, but we had over 100 mutual friends, so i hear of what is posted, and sometimes get screen shots. before she left, she never posted political stuff. I never said I dont believe in helping, i dont believe in giving to someone that refuses to work. I want a $30K car, sure... i want a $100K house.... go work for it, if fall short 1-2 months ask, but get a job and work, try.

and here I am... no regrets on not buying a home, & I was going to buy my ex a home at lake 2 years ago, realtor jerked us around during height of COVID, refused to accept deposit, depending on bank financing, only accepting cash offers, i applied at bank, but place was sold within a few days. i was still working second job then, making decent money.

she only said sometimes she felt like my mom, instead of my GF, thats all she has said. will not elaborate? i assume cooking and laundry? while worked part time, while i worked 2 jobs for decades to afford a good life. even 1 of my homes, that belonged to best friend, after he died, she asked me to buy it for her retirement, so i did, killed myself working and paid it off in 4 1/2 years.

as for my metal achievements, i am also a mechanic, i can do anything automotive related, including paint,then i can do butchering, plus normal welding fabrication, then household wiring, i took in college, i also do light carpentry, and plumbing, plus floral work, usually artificial pieces for graves, but i can work with any medium, and then light refrigeration work, it took a lifetime to get like this.

as for bad thought, for example egging someone on to street race, he finally did, not for money, he crashed and died, however he was winning, he had wife and kid in car, i still see kid waving at me bye bye, as i was loosing, but all 3 died in that wreck, trust me, i paid my way through college street racing, quite a few deaths from people loosing control, i never stopped, so all looked like single car wrecks at high speed. but thats example of things that haunt me, seeing childs face every day and night in my head seeing other wrecks, but they pushed above abilities, and lost control, but i was guy to beat, and i usually raced 10 miles flat out, not 1/4 mile stuff. i built car specifically for high speed road racing, i stopped all racing when family crashed

but i just meant after 18 1/2 years, person walks away over a couple week fuss, over demanding me buy a house, i have 3 homes, but to walk out over money, plus my exhaustion, i have worked 2 jobs 30 years, im tired, i made great money, but its not in me to hustle 5+ more years, just work primary job until retirement.

i lived a lonely life for years long ago, but had friends, now all are deceased, car wreck, heart attack, complication of diabetes,

i cant do some things, its depressing to go places i had fun at when i wasnt alone, 1 place i got so choked up, i requested meal to go, left, ate it at home, not been back there, im returning to my past, going places i went long ago, when i was a loner.

at present i cant afford to travel, bills, if i take second job, i could, but wouldnt have time to, had 4 serious offers for jobs in last few months. 1 thing im known about, I do metal fabrication on classic cars, i can do what you see in tv shows. but not currently working professionally in that field.

i am doing my best to make best of every day, but no enjoyment, but holidays coming up, once had big family get togethers, all died in 1990's. had friends, now gone, so 2 holidays coming up, would be sitting home, at least will go out few hours to eat. only her dad is deceased, but all turned against her, her kids prefer their dads new GF, yep, and her mom doesnt want her over, she was a daddys girl, i knew her dad all my life. her mom will call, thats it.

as for trying not to be depressed, the more alone i am, the less active i am, the more i think of my bad past, and let it haunt me. i cant change it, but it bothers me. thats 1 reason i ended up working so much, to keep my mind active. then enjoyed the money, ans was able to buy 3 homes, plus other toys, classic cars. tractors, but a lonely life.

dont bet money!

mine walked out after 18 1/2 years, no warning, goodbye, nothing, i was clueless. only issue was for a few weeks was demanding I buy and give her lazy liberal daughter a house, me pay all bills, and expenses, me take a second job to afford, so daughter could sit on her butt and play games all day, & I told her the door was over there, and yep she walked out while I was at work. & I have no regrets, about refusing to buy a $100K house to give to someone too sorry to work, the daughter is 40 years old.... wants everything handed to her, and even her car, my ex paid 100% for, insurance, fuel, upkeep.

want to talk about lonely? all close family is deceased, all but 2 "friends" are deceased, just me, i have made arrangements for Thanksgiving, with lady i am friends with, but wouldnt date me, but going out to eat, better than sitting home 100% alone, with no one to call. we may do same on CHristmas, but not official date. and cant find any decent lady.

she absolutely refuses to date, due to her health issues, and huge property, her ex still maintains for her, doesnt want to burden anyone, it takes him 8 hours on tractor to mow yard, 4-6 to weedeat, plus any other misc, he also was a narcissist, and she was with for 38 years, she still numb... he left her for another woman.

so everytime i get a date, i barely make it through date, so far everyone has been jerks, or hateful, and 1 hoarder.

building some aspect of a hotrod / muscle car, whether building engine, transmission, or welding in new replacement metal, all that is super relaxing to me, i get in a "ZONE" of peace relaxing doing that kind of work, without any disturbances, a good ride can be good, BUT have to be alert to other drivers and people, this I can relax and not think about anything, and yes I been building cars over 40 years, and its natural and comes easy, so no thought process to build

not been fishing in many years, would love to get another boat,

but i always liked to use raw bacon. that worked well from childhood to adult. if I went now, I would go to store, ask for a pack of marked down leaker bacon, means it has a vacuum leak, may be turning brown, but will be dirt cheap, and bait hooks with that, & since women like to cook normally, there shouldnt be an issue handling raw bacon to bait hook? lol

i deal with hundreds of customers a day, work got busier with Covid, company cut huge amount of hours, and now 4-5 days I work entire dept by myself without help, so customers find empty shelves, as impossible to keep up as a 1 man show, before Covid we had 2 full time people and a part time every night. so increase number of customers, then cut a lot of hours, perfect sense.

thats my biggest change. work without help, dealing with irate customers, with both hands tied, 1 person at a time, with people buying product faster than can be stocked. it gets filled in mornings, but lots get ignored, and its changed day by day what product is ignored, as not enough man hours to stock and wait on customers. no customer complaints wont help, as long as big bosses are making million dollar bonuses, they will keep on under-staffing

so true, nothing like it. my dream was to build a kit & fly, never made my mind up over around 5 that caught my fancy. Whitman Buttercup was my favorite, lol,

my last doctor visit was for a physical to make sure I could pursue flight training, yes, roughly 23 years ago. today I suspect I have some medical issues that would prohibit me from flying, including headaches & dizziness, so unless sneak in on drivers license, or ultralight, my chances would be very slim, i still sometimes pull off the road to watch small single engine aircraft, so just a dream now. & since my ex walked out and cleaned me out, I live paycheck to paycheck. so no finances to try at present. but cant stop dreams.

to love or hate me, I would use a Corvair engine, not sure if you follow that, but I have followed for 25 years. there are plenty of Corvair engine haters, William Wynne has been produced them for 30? years

nope, but I started training, 23? or so years ago,
then had a death in family, reality set in and i had to pay bills, and never tried again, 1 of my few regrets.

I have 7 black cats! Only 2 are pure solid black. So I see black cat every day. Lol