Sox throw game 2 away. Literally. Cards win 4-2 and we head off to St. Louis knotted at one each in the best of seven.

Cards struck first in this one, scoring one on a sac fly in the 4th off our guy Lackey, but Papi deposited one into the Monster seats to give the BoSox the 2-1 edge. Unfortunately our pen couldn't hold the lead. Craig Breslow came in to induce a short pop fly to left with runners on and tagging up. Throw to the plate by Gomes ends up getting by Salti for the error and a tie game, but the real damage was done by Breslow backing him up. He threw a 95mph heater to third trying to get the runner there that ended up in the bleachers. St. Louis takes the 3-2 lead on some terrible defense! They added one more before Breslow left the mound and the boys couldn't solve the Cards pen in their half innings at the plate, with the Cardinals' closer whiffing all 3 of our guys in the 9th.

So off we go to St. Louis. There will be no sweep for either team this year as the best of the best fight these games out. Hopefully my boys come out on top in the end. I have faith.

Gotta love October baseball!!

The Bruins won again last night!

They beat the Sabres 5-2 and face the Sharks tonight. Season's started off strong for my boys in black and gold. Six wins, two losses.

We are SO taking The Cup this year! Go Bruins!!

Depends on the tone of the conversation and statements made by the woman. If she implies that she's romanticly involved with someone exclusively for a year, I wouldn't boldly ask her out. She's already told you the answer...she's with someone...and she would probably be offended and not flattered.

If she's ambiguous about the situation, you could comment that the dude is one lucky guy, you find her attractive and wish she was available, and then tell her you hope he makes her happy. This way if it's a committed relationship, she'll accept the compliment with grace and not take offense, you didn't actually hit on her but let her know your feelings. If the dating isn't serious and she's available and feels the mutual attraction, she's got the chance to tell you that.

Well I don't know what you should do, but when I can't sleep, I get up. Then I do stuff. Then I try to go to sleep later. If I still can't sleep, I get up again. And then I do more stuff. Repeat as needed.

Hope this helps. No need to thank me for the earth shattering insight. Today, just for you, free of charge!

Good luck getting some sleep. I too battle insomnia. That biotch is unrelenting!

I've fallen in love at first sight. Then the dude opened his mouth and I was like "Well, there goes that idea!".

Attraction can happen at first sight. That's not love. Love takes time.

"Hey, what are you doing man?"

"Oh ya know, just stuff."

"Stuff man? Like what kind of stuff man?"

"You know man. Like STUFF."

"Oh okay man. Enjoy your stuff."



Thanks for the laugh Journey. I love this place!!!

Agreed! Well said.

I have learned much from many of the fine people here. Even if I don't respond all that often, or I've never talked one on one with them, I still read the topics and can get a good sense of the type of people they are by their responses. The people that are consistently responsible and kind, thoughtful and intelligent, it just shows through in not just their words, but in their honesty and the way they present their ideas and experiences. I obviously don't agree with everyone on every subject, but I respect people for their opinions and sharing them with us.

Mingle is sorta like my shrink, except here I can get a really good laugh when I need it, and I get the benefit of advice from a variety of people, not just one. And ya can't beat the price!

One down, three to go!!

Sox take game 1 in fine fashion, defeating St. Louis soundly 8-1. Lester stymies the Cardinals through 7 2/3 shutout innings for the win, while the St. Louis defense throws game one away with three costly errors. Now that's not to the say the Boston bats didn't do their share making 'em pay for their mistakes. The boys came up big with Napoli posting the first 3 RBI on a bases clearing double in the first. The boys added a few more in the 2nd, although it could have been much worse for the Cards. Beltran made a spectacular catch over the bullpen wall to rob Big Papi of a grand slam, but David Ortiz would not be denied for the entire game, sending one yard in the later innings to add a few more runs to the total and seal the deal.

Game 2 tomorrow night. Same time, same place, same teams. Different starting pitchers though of course. Sox will feature veteran hurler John Lackey, a guy with as much grit and energy out there on the mound as anyone, against a rookie pitcher for St. Louis. Kid must be decent though or he wouldn't be getting the nod so we'll see how that turns out. He's likely never faced a line-up like the Boston bats though, and pressure's on with his team already in a 1-0 hole.

We swept these guys in '04 to reverse the curse and bring home a championship after 86 years. One of the greatest moments for us Sox fans, truly. Perhaps we can do it again and cut that time between championships down to 6 yrs instead of 86!

You know I'll be watching. And updating after the game, or before, or both! Until then...Go Sox!!!

I've been saying that since day 1! Of course I say that day 1 of every year.

But I REALLY meant it this year! We had an outstanding starting rotation going in, a team that seemed to gel and have fun like the guys in '04 did, power up and down the line up, and of course the new manager (THANK GOD for that!). I knew it was gonna be a special year, and here we are, 27 hrs and 28 mins 'til game one of the World Series! But who's counting?!

Papi's slam...epic!! Victorino's...just as cool as he rarely gets the big hit and a trot around the bases. Both were clutch and I'm thrilled we were able to win that series. Detroit starters were phenomenal! St. Louis won't be any easier either, but I have faith!

Nice to see another Sox fan on here. As you can see, it's not exactly hopping in this joint. Well, except for me and the little hoppy dude... Go Sox!!!!

Absolutely! Without a doubt! For sure! No question about it! Yes!

And just to be clear, I most certainly do believe true love exists.

Here's why. It is like the wind. You can't see it but you can feel it, and you can see its effect on the things around it. A tree branch moves under the power of wind even though you don't see the wind pushing it. Love works in much the same way. When you see the smile on the face of the person you love when you touch them ever so gently, that is the power of love pushing up the corners of their mouth. It exists, and it's this world's greatest gift to bestow upon another or to receive if we are that blessed.

Funny. I sent the phone company and the truck insurance company a note with a big heart on it and an "I love you" but they still threatened to shut my **** off. Apparently they didn't get the memo!



Not true! I want a medium rare steak after sex. And a smoke. And a towel to soak up the puddle created by the sex. So many wants. You are lucky to have just the one!



How dare you suggest I have porn! I don't HAVE it. I watch it before I HAVE sex sometimes, ya know just to make sure I'm doing it right.



True dat bro! Next time I'm going at it with my man I shall scream at the height of passion "I'm Nancy Drew. You're Crocodile Dundee. Together we make sweet harmony!" Now that's how you bring some mystery and adventure into the 'sex routine'.



Boobs! Hey JT, where ya at buddy? Someone's paging you!

Thank my lucky stars!

Simultaneously while toweling off the puddle I deposited on my man and the sweet mess he left 'down there'. Can't be all drippy on the way to the garage for the mandatory after sex smoke.

Thanks for the moral support Rawr and Candi.

Mg...Let me first thank you for taking the time to write all that! On here you're lucky to get a one liner for a response so to actually spend the time to share your wise words...well I'm touched.

I value your advice highly. You've always seemed like an intelligent compassionate individual from your posts I've read, no matter the subject. Your contributions in the forums garner much respect, and not just from me either as I'm sure you've been told. We've both been around here for a long time so I kinda feel like I know many of you guys (and girls) even though we've never met. Having 'friends' like this, whether on-line or in real life, is truly one of my many blessings!

No matter how bad things seem, I try to concentrate on how lucky I am because there are so many out there who suffer much more than I. Soldiers get limbs blown off fighting for our country and they learn to overcome. People in third world countries struggle just to find enough food to survive and clean water to drink. Garage or not, I am living in the lap of luxury compared to so many on this planet. It doesn't make my physical pain any less, but it sure reminds me that even at my worst, life is good.

Having said that, I know all too well that depression is a vicious monster that drains the life out of you if you let it. I am lucky to have gained much knowledge on matters of the mind through both my education (BS in biobehavioral psychology) and my work experience (10 yrs as a 911 operator). Unfortunately understanding the intricacies of the brain doesn't help in trying to figure out how to fix disc problems in my back, but it sure does help coping with the mental issues that have resulted due to the physical ailment. Knowledge is power, so I'm a leg up in that department at least.

Ya know I truly believe that stuff happens for a reason. Perhaps this experience has a purpose in that I've worked hard my whole life, never been taken care of by anyone (other than my parents as a child but of course or I wouldn't be here today!), and maybe this is my time to just enjoy life and do things I couldn't do when I was working all the time. I raised my son as a single mom. I supported us best I could and contributed much to society, saving lives and helping people for ten years at 911. I put my dreams aside for the benefit of others and I thought that was the right thing to do, that it was enough. Maybe this is my time, maybe this injury is fate's way of making me see that I deserve a break and to teach me to accept help instead of giving it.

I love to write, (as y'all can plainly see! ) so I've been thinking that maybe this is the path to my dream of becoming an author. I have all this free time and why shouldn't I pursue my dream of writing? Maybe it's time to see the writing on the wall, so to speak, pun intended!

I don't know. I shall figure this out or die trying. Until then, I shall remain grateful for my many blessings and try to take your advice and focus on the moment. So thank you again MG for sharing your thoughts and reading mine. You never know the people you touch by your words or actions. I am ever so grateful to you, and the others, for the support.

I shall wrap this up (finally!! ) with one of my favorite quotes, this one by Ralph Waldo Emerson... one that perhaps you can use in your life too.

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

Wow! Thank you all for the responses and suggestions! It is truly appreciated.

First let me clarify that I would NEVER commit suicide! EVER! I think about it every damn day, yes, but only because I can't stand living like this, but I would never go to that extreme. Suicide is nothing but a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I would never do that to the people that care about me. Plus I have too much to offer this world!

Secondly I have applied for medicaid and disability. Denied for both. Apparently I shoulda been a crack addict, an illegal alien, or a baby's momma with 5 kids by 6 different baby's daddies to qualify for medicaid. As for govt disability, no go because I don't have medical documentation to prove the injury. I explained I didn't have insurance or money to get medical help, that's why I was applying (DUH!) and they sent me to their doc. I was psyched, thought I'd be getting treatment, would get fixed and return to work before needing to actually be on disability. Trouble was that their doc did nothing for my injury, just made sure I was breathing which apparently disqualifies you for disability!

The not working and being dependent on my man is what has me in a tizzy. If I could work, I absolutely would! I'm not above working at Taco Bell but how do I go to an employer and say I would be a valuable, dependable employee when I can barely walk or pick up my arms much of the time? Take care of others? I can hardly take care of myself! You have no idea how hard it is to ask somebody to pull up your underwear for you after you shower because you can't bend over! Or maybe you do and I'm just the only one that feels like a total loser for it! I've never been so physically helpless. Mentally I am bull! but when the body can't/won't do what I want it to, my mind starts getting all funky on me. Fast forward through 10 months of funkiness and here I sit, typing my crap for y'all to see 'cause I just don't know what else to do.

Finally, yes, I am blessed to have found this man that takes care of me. I am blessed that I have the garage, and that I have my dog still, and that people here try to help others who need it. I thank you all, seriously THANK YOU! for listening and offering suggestions. I will do my best to make the best of a bad situation. I will overcome this or learn to live with it better, but I just wish the tides would hurry up and shift. I do what I can around here, I try to cope with the pain (no meds John...I wish I had them! I'd be able to do stuff at least, like pull up my underwear! And do NOT tell me to go commando young man! ) but it doesn't seem like that's enough. I don't want to exist. I want to live, to live like I used to live, to do what I used to do, and to really enjoy life again. Seems so far away right now.

But hey, how about them Red Sox?!

Got hurt this past year and it's been a swift spiral downwards since then. I went from being a happy, healthy, energetic, independent working woman to this...



Lost it all. Health insurance went first, and then the job after 30 days and no recovery. Savings depleted. Credit cards maxed and credit score in the toilet now. Totally broke. Lost the home when I couldn't pay rent. Stuff went in storage and the dog and I ended up in the truck. Had to give up my two cats eventually which just killed me. Friend of a friend felt sorry for me and let the dog and I chill in his garage until I got back on my feet. Been here ever since (10 flippin' months!). So now I am completely dependent on him for everything, from food to smokes to toilet paper to wipe my arse. Humiliated beyond words to say the least. NEVER in my life imagined things could get this bad.

I don't blame anyone but myself. And I know I'm the only one that can fix it, but I have no idea where to start. I live in physical pain constantly, and I've become severely depressed, almost to the point of suicide honestly. I just see no way out, no remedy, no hope that I'm ever going to get back to the me I used to be.

So what would you do? Learn to live like this somehow? Accept that I'm not going to get better and figure out how to cope with being in pain all the time and dependent on a man for everything? What kind of quality of life is that?

My man keeps telling me to not worry, that he's got this, and that I should just try to be happy but I'm really struggling. I'm not contributing anything and just feel worthless as a human being now. How do I fix this????

No, it can't actually buy love, but it sure puts you in a better position to find it if you can afford the search.

and may I just add...



Guess who are the reigning American League Champions and headed to the World Series?!

Shane Victorino smacks a game winning grand slam in the 7th, the perfect redemption for the blown sac bunt earlier in the game, and the boys wrap up the series with another exciting win!! The fans go wild, this one more so than most, and the champagne's flowing in the Sox locker room right now. Way to go Red Sox!!

And we live to play another day. Plus y'all get to hear my rantings for at least four more games. And listen... it's Kool and the Gang..."We gonna have a good time tonight. Let's celebrate! It's alright!" Woo Hoo!

Permission granted. I shutter to imagine how that's gonna go over in other than a baseball situation but have at it if the perfect situation arises.

Sorry for your loss.

They had a good run though. Looks like the Sox will be playing St. Louis again. We shall beat them (again!) to avenge your pain! So you must root for the Sox now!.

Just one minor detail first. Gotta take one more from the Tigers. Game time in t-minus 5 hrs.

Go Sox!!

Why compare apples to oranges for an analogy? Wouldn't it have been better to compare apples to apples? Say the high price hooker making $1000 per hour vs the crack whore making $500 for 40 hrs of the same kind of work. Did the high price hooker get more blessings from society 'cause guys see more value in her or did society shaft the crack whore 'cause she's not making as much as her counterpart?

I'm thinking the only difference between them is how much they value themselves and what they choose to do with their earnings. High cost hooker charges an arm and a leg and spends her hard earned dough on a new sexy dress and a bottle of expensive perfume so she looks and smells good for her clients, and socks the rest away to pay for college so in 5 yrs she won't have to do this anymore. Crack whore practically gives it away and spends her meager earnings buying more crack so she can be high and forget that she's spreading her legs for barely enough money to buy more crack. In 5 yrs she also won't be doing this anymore because she'll overdose and die.

Now explain to me how society has made these two woman so different. Both started out as attractive young girls and both chose to make money through prostitution, and society did their share by providing the men to sleep with them. Both started off with the same values, that it's okay to make money providing sex, but they clearly differ in their opinion of themselves and thus charge differently and spend differently now. One used the job as a way to better herself. The other just did the job. One ends up a self made success and the other is a self made failure. Did society fail the crack whore? Or did the crack whore make bad choices? They were both given the same thing from society, money for sex, and they both had the same opportunity to succeed or fail. The individuals are responsible for how they turned out.

Blaming society for what you have or don't have is a cop out. You wanna know why you got what you got, look in the mirror.

Disclaimer: You in the general sense. Not you personally. And no offense to any crack whores who might be reading this.