yes you do so have someone to talk to. You just don't email me! Silly

Your always over loaded with people's problems tho, I ain't putting my baggage on you, Creation

what's up man? just feel like **** or do you have somethings to figure out?

((allen)))

sits in her corner and watches

I've been through the various stages of depression. from just 'feeling down', to 'how am I gonna end it all'
I'm going through one of these feelings at the moment.
One of MY best ways of getting out of depression is coming on th the threads here and joining in/starting threads. It's this sort of interaction with others that keep me sane.
I also talk with others here and elsewhere onlune. It can be therapeutic not only for one, but both people.

I do try to join in the threads, but its always over looked. There are so many cliques running about that its scary, and I don't belong in any of them. I get the feeling I don't belong here as well.

Allen, we all feel that way sometimes but I have told you if you need to talk, just like creationsfire said, email one of us...we will talk to you. And, I don't let you go unnoticed in the threads..,

Thnx Eileena, but when your not on, I'm just a ghost here.

allen i always respond to ya old friend so send a e-mail and i'll set ya straight..

well this last couple of days have been kinda sensory overload what with busy work,first day of school,dealing with my car,my moms health et al.i have been jumpier than a longtailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.to top it off i have pms.

I'm failing a class, my bank snatched 100 bucks from me, my SSI check was soaked for 100 bucks month before last and this month, someone hit my car today and didn't leave a ****ing note. I reach out and no one cares, my mom avoids me like the plague if I try to talk to her about my feelings, it always turns in to religion, my dad is a cranky old bastard and has been sending me wierd **** in my mail, my son hardly talks to me, my daughter loves me but rarely has time for me and only does out of a sense of obligation, my gramma is dying and I've only begun to get to know her, she is my last gramma, I can't sleep and all my hair is falling out and no one knows why. I went off one of my meds yesterday, started taking vitamins and stopped one of my hormone pills. Guess I have to give up my sex drive for my hair, if that's even the problem. I bought the rope a couple of weeks ago. WHen I came home today I was so pissed about my car that I kicked the gate and it broke. I'm afraid to move for fear of breaking something out of sheer anger. For some reason I can't cry. I can cry for anyone else but me. It just won't come out. One tear and they dry up. The man that says he loves me is drifting away and I never figured we would ever get together anyway. I only get 800 bucks a month to live on and they took most of that away. After I pay my bills, I go hungry which could also be a cause of my hair falling out. RIght now my life sucks. I know it is always supposed to get better, but I feel like a zombie walking around barely putting up with people. I'm gonna crack, I just know it.

Creations....I want to kick your gate too! *hugs for Devil and Creations*

everyone wants to kick my gate. Hit my car. Fail me. Not hear me. Lie to me. Freak me out. Live in fear. Always want sleep. Forever! Tired.

I need sleep too, I'm addicted to the kitties on www.icanhascheezburger.com tho, I loves em! I hope that site can cheer some up too

What the hell is cheer?

Its in the form of kitties asking for cheese burgers and not being able to spell two gud

At this point, I eat kitties as cheeseburgers. I'm always hungry, or was until I got used to not eating. Then it seems to go away

Food is the only thing besides cats that makes me happy. And sleep too, and women in thongs, and umm...thats about all I can think of right now, cause I'm sleepy lol. Anyway, you should rest too CF

yeah RIP