hehe its all good =) thanks again, and have a good night

thanks for the kind words only problem im a guy hehe but i know what ya
mean none the less =P

i hate to say it but my father would fall into the list. i love em but
its true. personally, im glad i had gone through the **** that i did
when i young , always wondering why he never bothered to call on my
birthday, and then ***** to me when i was little about how my mother was
a lazy leech due to the child support he had to pay. ( which by the way
was only 70 dollars a month.) b/c i know with every ounce of my being I
WILL NEVER come close to reaching the level he was at. If i had a child
if it be planed or an unplaned happening i will do everything and
anything for that child. im proud to say i learned through his mistake.
so i guess you could say there can be some good out of it, came with a
price, but was well worth it to me.

i was the hottest guy...till i was run over...sigh... i just couldnt
make up my mind, should i run to the left? oh maybe the right? left?
right? Hey check out the spinning tire, yep i bet thats a safe spot to
run too...
Note to self... spinning tires do not make a safe place to hide, you
will get splattered...sigh....
well it seemed like a good idea at the time. how was i to know it was
going to have this effect?

lol guess in the end its golf after all

LOL, yea
well there is always street hockey

wouldnt hockey be better therapy? not only do you get to slap shot the
puck but you also get to slam people around. who could ask for a better
sport to vent out your agression?

heh and while im at it =P
antoehr thing to keep in mind is how the 'names" and views of "gods"
change over time as they become adapted into more and more cultures.
Take the goddess Artemis
also know as diana, cynthia, isis and many others. goddess of birth,
magic, hunt, woods,moon
each culture has taken this goddess and adapted her into a version of
their own
the same thing with Satan
( in no real order.)
Azazel ( brought cosmetics to women and meatal working to man said by
some.)
Pan
the Horned God
Satan

these are just a way of showing how the concept of satan was formed.
each of these can be seen as a "source" from the satan theme, many
sharing some quailities in common. but remember each one was adapted
into a another or "new" culture to best fit their views. Does that make
each and everyone of these deites evil..? not at all. any evil that is
placed on to them is what a person interprets evil to be. one must also
keep in mind that religion WAS used as a source of control. so an
effective way to convert others is to "shame" or to prove foul of the
deites followed by the competing religion.

depends on what you "claim" to be evil. good and evil is a concept
created by man. in truth there is no such thing as good or evil. the
meaning of evil to one can easily differ from the what it means to be
evil to another.
Just look at it in the terms of the weather. destructive fire while at
first look may seem "bad/ chaotic" but could bring much benifits to the
area later down the road. just as a much needed rain fall can have
postive or negitive affects on the landscape.
i dont know a alot in terms of bible lore, but i think in older versions
satan was not evil, in fact he could have been seen as good for he
tested man. that was his job. any harm that he had done was an order
given by god, but in all honestly i dont know how to answer your
question, i think its more based on ones own veiw or concept of the
thing rather then a soild answer . it seems in modern day christian
views satan is pure evil, since god is pure good.
but i dunno, im not a christian nor do i ever plan to be lol. it always
seemed to me to be very unbalanced. but thats my thoughts on the matter.

somethign i was going to add in the other tread relating to this but
never got to it ( had to go to work.)
if i recall correctly satanism falls in two divisons.
one in which the "satan" from the bible is worshipped. and the other is
a "satan" in which the "ideal" is worshipped. its more about self
worship rather then of a actual "god". They calim the name statan for
what it repersants. well thats from what i read of it anyway.

Christian
because it uses the same concepts from that system.
satanism only came to be in tie with the christian faith.
Satanism is its "other half" since they belive in the "pure good / pure
evil thing.
Where as the "pagan" system is nature bound and in most cases sees no
greater evil or good but the balance such as order to chaos. there is
the "left hand" however which is a pagan path of "chaos" just as there
is the pagan path of pure "light" but this is more the result of us
beign bredd into the idea that one "must " ether be good or evil. where
as its human nature and in nature itself to be both. good and evil is
something created by people, defined by our own definitions. where in
truth there is no good or evil only that of choas and harmony.
but back to the left hand thing, sometiems people place the satanism
faith within the "left hand" path. although to "overall" pagan belif
there is no greater evil so in theory it shouldn't be added in there,
but there are some whom think it should. but that in its own, the "left
hand" is not the same as the "right hand" even though they are one.

bathroom-piss stained floor
( had to clean the bathrooms at work recently lol. )

stick it to the punk, let his ugly actions follow him where ever he
goes. press charges !

i get paid bi-weekly =(
the check looks awsome when i get it, but by the next day....not much
left.... lol

Woot that means its payday!!!
if only there was no such thing as bills

...sigh...

i just had the honor to witness an amazaing moment in time at work
between two co-workers...( one just a reg guy other an asst. manager.)
first might i add, the reg guy looks umm ...guess you could say
"red-neckish" or atleast as good as it gets for cali. the asst manager,
reminds me of bruce cambell, i dunno must be the facial expressions.
both act very "down...n...hip." always tring to show each other up with
their toys and their wangster ehm i mean gangsta ( notice the a ? )
-wayz ( notice the z? )
but all their front'n crumbled when they had a disccusion/argument over
who is able to get some crazy ass "in/fad" phone since if they both had
the same style as i quote..it would be "gehy"... it was something one
just had to see
....i love Cali... i think im gunna stay for awhile =)

another day, another thing to say...

lol you know what i miss from back up NE?
i miss seeing the homeless park themselves outside the bagle shops at
5-6ish in the morning. its funny cuz by the time 3 rolls around they are
no where to be seen! everyday same thing ... lol... is this like a new
job or something? i wonder if they take their 45min break? "sorry billy
daddy needs to go to bed so he can wake up bright n early to get change
from the people with jobs." >_< it makes no sense, your homeless and
without a job! If ya want a 9-5 then go get one! othe wise you should be
SLEEPING in your condo of a cardboard box in the early morning! what the
hell! thats what i would be doing! but i guess... from their point of
view... it would be the best time to "hit" people up. but still....damn

still got some energy left here
anyway its these hours that bring out the best in creativity

i think i was in the bottom three , we aqua peeps are to busy
daydreaming to be concered with things like red lights and speed limits
, heh who needs them, all that matters is that i have atleast somewhat
of a decent idea of which way im looking to go.

lol your on a roll with this stuff huh? lol