@kmHI808

Thank you for the kind words. I think I'm actually ready for some sort of relationship, I feel that I am. I also know I won't put up with the BS I used to, when I was younger, I feel better then that. :)

Yes, kc0003, and s1owhand, I am back for the time being, and of course I've been writing. :)

Stop.
You were walking down the street,
and you paused,
because you saw no-one but me.
They think you're sick.
And I'm in your head,
and when you try to bleed me out
you'll regret all you've bled.
You tried to talk to me,
and you saw me in the mirror.
You tried to keep your eyes open,
but suddenly I wasn't clear.


Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I.
And I'm in your head,
and you want me gone.
So bleed, so bleed me out,
but I won't be gone for long.
Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I.


Stop.
You played dress me up,
because you wanted this,
even if you won't own up.
It's two in the morning,
we're walking down the street.
They can't see me walking with you,
but you can see me.
Gotta keep me a secret,
you can't tell a soul,
they'll put you in a jacket,
and you'll be so cold.


Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I.
And I'm in your head,
and you want me gone.
So bleed, so bleed me out,
but I won't be gone for long.
Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I


Shush.
I've been here all along,
in the back of your head,
but I'll never be gone for long.
And baby you know I love you so,
even if I'm just in your mind.
You and I, my love,
are one of a kind.
Keep me here,
warm in safe in your eyes,
because without you,
I'll surely die.


And now I've got to scream at you,
Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I.
And I'm in your head,
and you want me gone.
So bleed, so bleed me out,
but I won't be gone for long.
Baby I'm falling from the sky,
because I can't live,
without you and I
Baby, without you holding me up,
keeping me from the world,
you're the only one who loves me,
and I'll always be your girl.

Baby... You've lost me,
and I'm falling from the sky.
When I hit the ground,
I will surely die.
And I love you,
because you are my life.
But you've forgotten me now.
Now, feel me die.
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Now, let me explain, because I know some people might be confused.

A man has a mental illness, one were he starts seeing this woman, as referenced in the first part. He keeps seeing her, but when he turns around, no one is there. She nothing more then a hallucination and a figment of his own imagination.

But she's alive, really. She feels, she can see the world, even if she's only in his head. She loves him, because she was supposed to be that, his ideal woman.

He goes under intensive therapy, with medication. After a long, long time, he finally lets her go, shoves her in the past...

But, he can feel her die, screaming in the back of his mind, hearing her beg to come back into his life.

I seem to have a love for those who hurt, who bleed, who need to feel something.

Debating between baking cookies NOW, or to bake them at midnight, haha! I like baking later because I'm more focused on the sound of the oven going off.

Goodnight, it holds a note of bittersweet for me. There's the anticipation of the kiss, the longing for some sort of established nightly ritual with a person close to my heart.

Personally, more then goodnight, I like good morning. I don't know, when I say goodnight, I sort of push away, go inside and bake, or do something to keep my mind occupied.

Thank you both. I do love to write, and sometimes I actually like what I've written.

COOKIES, COOKIES EVERYWHERE. And another recipe, lemon bars!
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Chocolate crinkles:


Conversion: 1oz Chocolate = 3 Tbsp baking cocoa and 1tbsp fat


1/2 cup vegetable oil
4 oz unsweetened chocolate
(So, for this recipe the conversion is 3/4ths cup baking cocoa and 1/2 cup butter)
2 cups granulated sugar
4 eggs
2 tsp. vanilla
2 cups all purpose flour
2 tsp. Baking powder
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup powdered sugar


Basically, mix everything together. I'd start out with the baking cocoa, eggs, oil, butter, and vanilla. Stir up everything until it's nice and smooth. Note: Powdered sugar? Don't add that.


Oh, here's a little something important: You need to chill the dough before even considering baking. Chill it until it's firm, just trust me. A couple hours in the freezer and you are good to go.


Is it chilled? Okay, cool. Heat up the oven to 350 degrees, when it's all preheated, grab a bowl and put the powdered sugar in it. Roll the dough into little balls, and roll those in the powdered sugar, then bake for 10-12 minutes, though depending on your oven, check the cookies (TEST COOKIE) frequently.
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Ethel's sugar cookies:


Cool part about this one, is that you can cut it into little squares, add jam, fold it over, and BAM. Jam tarts. (Those recipes they give you for just jam tarts? Total BS.)


3/4 cup butter
1 cup sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp. Vanilla
2 1/2 cups all purpose flour
1 tsp. baking powder
1 tsp. salt


Mix butter, sugar, eggs, and vanilla. Then you stir in the flour, baking powder, and salt, mix well.


WHOOOO ANOTHER ONE TO CHILL IN THE FREEZER. Aww yeah. Metal bowls are also great for these, they'll cool the dough down a lot quicker then a plastic bowl.


Heat oven up to 400 degrees, roll out dough and cute adorable shapes, try and keep the shapes roughly the same size per sheet, it'll make life a lot easier. I learned that tidbit the hard way. Grease the sheet up, and stick them in the oven for around 7-9 minutes depending on your oven. Check frequently. Trick to these is looking at the edges, make sure they are a nice golden brown
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Giant Toffe - Chocolate chip cookies:


1 cup packed brown sugar
1/2 cup butter
1/2 cup shortening
1/4 cup honey
1 egg
2 cups all purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 package of semi-sweet chocolate chips
6 oz almond brickle chips


Heat oven to 350 degrees. Mix brown sugar, butter, shortening, honey and egg in a large bowl. Stir in flour, baking soda, baking powder, and salt. Stir in chocolate chips and brickle chips.


Drop 1/4 CUP of dough around 2 inches apart on a greased cookie sheat. Bake 12-14 minutes (depending on the oven) until edges are golden brown.


FOR REGULAR SIZED cookies: Drop cookie dough (rounded tablespoons) two inches apart on a greased cookie sheet, bake 10 - 12 minutes depending on your oven.
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Inside-out Chocolate chip cookies


1 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
3/4 cup butter
1/2 cup shortening
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla
2 1/2 cups all purpose flour
1/2 cup cocoa
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 1/2 cups white chocolate chips
1 cup nuts (optional)


Heat oven up to 350 degees. Mix sugars, butter, shortening, eggs, and vanilla into a large bowl. Stir in four, cocoa, baking soda and salt. Stir in chips and nuts.


Chilling the dough might help. You don't need to go all out and stick it in the freezer for a couple hours. Mild refrigeration is fine.


Drop dough onto a greased cookie sheet, bake 10-12 minutes until cookies set. (Depending on size of them, and your oven, of course.
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Sugar cookie tarts:


2 cups sugar
1 cup shortening
3/4 cup butter
2 teaspoons vanilla
1 egg
3 1/2 cups all purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt


Heat oven to 375 degrees. Mix sugar, shortening, butter, vanilla and egg in a large bowl. Stir in flour, baking powder and salt. Roll dough on a lightly floured surface (Chill it before!), and cut into 3 inch rounds. Place two inches apart on a greased cookie sheet. Bake 10-12 minutes (depending on oven and size), until light brown. COOL completely.



Cream cheese spread:


1/2 cup sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
8oz package of cream cheese, softened.


Miz ingredients until smooth. Once cookies are COMPLETELY chilled, spread this on. You can add several different toppings, but I find that fruit works best.
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Magic window cookies:


1 cup sugar
3/4 cup butter
2 eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla
2 1/2 cups all purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
5 ounces of fruit flavored hard candy, chopped


Mix sugar, eggs, and vanilla in a large bowl. Stir in flour, baking powder, and salt. This is one you chill, so at this point you know what to do.


Heat oven at 375 degrees. LINE COOKIE SHEET WITH ALUMINUM FOIL (You are so screwed if you forget this.)


Cut into desired shapes with cookie cutters and cut out small designs in the cookie. Place pieces of hard candy in the cut outs, mixing colors as desired.


Bake 7 - 9 minutes, or until very light brown, and candy is melted. If candy isn't melted spread it RIGHT away with a knife. Cool completely on cookie sheet, then remove cookies.
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Lemon Squares:


1 cup all purpose flour
1/2 cup butter
1/4 cups powdered sugar
2 eggs
1 cup granulagted sugar
1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
2 tablespoons lemon juice


Heat up oven to 350 degrees. Blend flour, butter, and powdered sugar. Press evenly in a square pan (8x8x2) (wax paper on the bottom is a God send). Bake twenty minutes. Then beat rest of ingredients together, pour over the crust and bake 25 minutes. The trick for this one is you press in the middle, and when it doesn't leave an indent after being lightly touched they should be good to go.
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Snickerdoodles:


1 cup shortening (part butter)
1 1/2 cups sugar
2 eggs
2 3/4 cups all purpose flour
2 tsp cream of tartar
1 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
2 tablespoons sugar
2 tablespoons cinnamon


Heat up oven to 400 degrees. Mix shortening, 1 1/2 cups sugar, and eggs. Blend in flour, cream of tartar, baking soda, and salt, stir in.


Let this dough chill for a couple hours in a metal bowl.


When chilled mix the 2 tablespoons sugar, and cinnamon in a small bowl


Roll chilled dough into balls and roll into the sugar cinnamon mix, then place on a greased cookie cheat, bake from 10-12 minutes depending on the oven and the size of the dough balls.
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Now, I'd have to say I don't agree with this statement, because honestly, I'm one of those Christians that are okay with whatever belief someone has. I have Wiccan, Muslim, and even a friend who practices to the satanic beliefs. (The last one rarely what people think they do.)

Personally, it's just that as long as people don't shove their religion, or lack of beliefs in my face, I'm fine. I'm just one of those people who really believe not to judge the person on their beliefs, but perhaps on their actions.

But that's my two cents.

Hair: Black, bond, red... Well there's not a color I don't really not like!
Eyes: Sucker for blue, or green eyes, but it doesn't matter.
Complexion: Not really too much of an issue, but I don't dig greasy complexions.
Piercings on face or body: Oh yes, I love them.
Tattoos: Doesn't matter.
Height & Weight: I like a bit on the lean side, but a little extra doesn't bother me in the least.
Age (does it matter): No, age doesn't matter. Unless, however, it's someone under 18, just not going to happen.
Miscellaneous: A nice smile. I like someone who just, when they smile, it make their features light up.


Part Two: Quality- aka their personality traits

What kind of temperament: Easy going, funny.
Type of personality: Um, I'd have to say a mix of introvert and extrovert, because I have times I just want to do my own thing, and sometimes I do like hanging out with friends. A good, healthy balance is a must.
Name three things you'd love for them to have in common with you:
1. Can make fun of themselves.
2. Likes animals.
3. Provides feedback when I ask for it.
Do you subscribe to "opposites attract" or "like attracts like"?: No, not really. I don't know what kind of person my heart loves.
Would it matter what type of job he/she had?: Nope. Well, preferably not a porn star.
Does it matter what they make financially?: Yes, as I'd like to live a comfortable life, as I'll be working, myself.
Would you prefer a homebody or a party animal?: A mix. Someone who can party, but doesn't mind spending time at home.
A tender lover or an animal?: Eh, depends?


Your "Requirements"- aka Musts and Deal breakers
Name up to five things/traits your ideal mate must have/subscribe to:
1. Acceptance of different religions
2. Can't pick at my driving unless I can pick back.
3. Laugh at themselves, because I can laugh at myself.
4. Doesn't mind my music too much.
5. Accept my boundries.
Name up to five things that you would consider "deal breakers" in a relationship:
1. Cheaters
2. Jerks
3. Drugs
4. Alcoholics
5. Controlling
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DERP. Figured I might as well.

The naked and famous - Young Blood

(One of many.)

So, right now I'm thinking I'm looking pretty funny. I'm singing along with music and dancing along~ Haha.

@luv2roknroll - Of course, he's handsome and funny and blah blah. The whole package.

-Squeal- I just got some lovely sterling silver wire! I'm so excited! :) I love working with wire, I wonder what kind of designs I'm going to come up with, once it gets here.

I'm probably going to take some advanced classes in a place in Eugene. They've got fabulous people, and beads, and supplies.

I'm just one of those people who just LOVE beads, I could live in a bead store, and happily, at that.

Yes, I actually do have an online store, haha.

People comment on my personal jewelry that I make myself, sometimes I'm just standing in line for like, ordering something to eat and someone will ask me where I bought it, and when I tell them I made it, I'm not sure they actually believe it. But, I love making jewelry, more then I ever thought I would.

Hi! Welcome to mingle2

You aren't the only one who likes food, I love to cook, though. xD

And I am not teasing you, I'd totally make you soup if I ever came over when you were sick.

Haha, trust me, it takes a lot to scare me off. ;) I live on a farm, and I have friends from all sorts of backgrounds. I mean, if they chase me around the house with a knife, THEN I'll probably be a bit scared. That or if someone wouldn't play video games with me. :(

Mmm. Spaghetti for dinner night. I'll be making some garlic toast.

I actually have two facebook pages, a personal one, and then my professional facebook page. I figured I might as well, because honestly, I'd rather give off a good impression more then anything.

I'm actually bi-polar. I'm a type 2, basically a pretty level one. So, 90% I'm happy, the other 10% is pretty bad, like, really bad.

I currently take one medication for everything, and my doctor is a great person, as he has a lot of experience with bi-polar.

Being bi-polar isn't anything anyone can cure, or shake off. The best you can do, is learn to try and control your emotions to some degree, or try a medication. I also used to go to some very intense therapy because of a suicide attempt I tried last year.

But, I'm in control of myself, for the most part. When I have a bad day, a down day, I can do something as simple as make a few bracelets, write a couple poems, a lot of different things to blow off the depression and anger that comes with it. I'm a lot better then I was, as I was dominated by emotion.

I was diagnosed when I was 18, so yeah, I've known about my problem for... 4, almost 5 years. It was hard to get through, but with help, support, and good friends I've managed to shake off the worst of it, for the most part. I have no need for self abuse, the idea of suicide doesn't appeal, and I can actually dish out my own medication after becoming heavily addicted to a sleep aid.

It takes time, and effort. A hobby which helps you blow off negative emotion is a must, because it'll help shake of a bad day, and perhaps turn it into a good day. It's all a matter of finding what it is. :)

Haha, you guys are too funny. The dough is chilling in a freezer for right now. Had to hide it from my father. :P But milk chocolate chip cookies. Mmmm.

Flawless: Naw, I'll make you some soup, or perhaps something to help out the stomach.

I'm thinking about wandering into the kitchen and making cookies...