There is There are

There is hope in every sunrise
There are tears in every sunset
There is love around every corner
There are disappointments through every door
There is beauty in every person
There are scars in every face
There is life in every heartbeat
There are reasons for every heartache
There is grace in every presence
There are faults in every person
There is fragrance in every flower
There are flowers on every casket
There is room in every heart
There are souls that are filled
There is freedom in every thought
There are bars on every cell
There is the longing to be in love
There are hearts on the line
There is curiosity in the air
There are questions in our mind
MAD 2008

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 12

I'M SO SORRY I JUST CAN"T STOP,, giggle, giggle,, SHOULDN"T YOUR NAME BE HOSS, OR BUCK, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT?
I THINK YOU INSULTED HIM RITA,
LIKE HE HAD A CHANCE ANYWAY JULIE,
OH THERE GOES HIS FRIEND, LOOKS LIKE WE HAVE TO BUY OUR OWN DRINKS DAWN, ha ha ha,
BESIDES DID YOU SEE THE NOSTRILS ON THAT GUY, I CAN PARK MY CAR UP THERE,,ha ha ha giggle snort, giggle, snort, snort,
ha ha ha ha ,
YOU LIKED THAT ED?
ITS THAT JULIE AND ME HAD A CONVERSATION ABOUT HIM EARLIER, ha ha
I DIDN"T RECONIZE HIM WITHOUT THE YANKEES CAP, ha ha ha
ME NEITHER JULIE, UNTILL RITA SAID SOMETHING, ha ha
Let's drink our kamikazes now that the band is taking a break,
Sounds like a plan Ed,
Look at her Dawn, I bet she tastes like strawberries and cream,
What? are you two,,
What, Lesbians, no Ed bi,,
I think she would taste like pink cotton candy, Rita.
Its a game they play Ed, what will she taste like,
Oh,, only girls,
Yea they never do it for guys..
Well you can be the first Ed, better yet,, tell us what you think you taste like,
Hmmmm, lets just say I drink a lot of pineapple juice,, ha ha , you know what they say about pineapple juice,,
I bet Julie's glad to hear that.. ha ha giggle,
Ed, don't listen to them,,
How do you girls determine if its boys night or girls night?
Well Ed, it's always girls night, the rest depends on if the batteries in our toys are still good,, ha ha giggle ha ha, am I right Dawn?
Hey maybe we should bring nostril guy home, we can stick our toys up his nose and he can lick us at the same time,, ha ha ha ha snort, ha ha
You guys are terrible, I am nothing like them Ed,
You are not like anyone but you, Julie,, and that's really nice..

Thank-you

Little Pieces of Life

Torn and Tethered all apart
Mixed up and hoping
The pieces wet with tears

Some still razor sharp
Others dulled with time
Floating all alone

Looking for a path
Some place to mend
A cloud made of glue

Time passes quickly
Some start to gather
If only for awhile

They grab a hold of others
Try to hang on
Pieces just don't fit

The one next to them
is what they need
before the others can join

That piece is lost
May be gone forever
Can the others mend

A way to banish
The piece that's lost
Is not in sight

So the others join slowly
A passage inside them
Trying to close

Sometimes they get close
Knowing they will not touch
For them to mend as one

Close to drying
Tears wet them again
The passages grows larger

They learn their way
And they pass that void
Hanging on real tight

Without the missing piece
The others always feel
They will never be whole

Mind Body Spirit
Heart Soul and love
Little pieces of life

MAD 2008

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 11

Hey Julie, Come on lets go back inside, looks like Rita and Dawn have a couple of admirers
Ah,, a couple,, look at those guys, the girls are driving them crazy.
They're your friends Julie,
No, I mean the GIRLS, Rita's tank top looks like it was painted on, giggle
Yea, and she defiantly has her high beams on, ha ha ha
Oh you noticed did you Ed,
It's kinda hard not to,
Yea, I bet its hard,,, Giggle,
I was with Dawn when she bought that top, she tried it on and came out to show me, and this guy was waiting for his wife, and he tripped over a clothes rack when he walked by her, ha ha , then his wife caught him leering at her, and smacked him across the back of his head, giggle,, we laughed about it all night,, giggle,
That was you guys, my head still hurts from that, ha ha ha
You Brat, ha ha ha ,,,,,
WELCOME BACK, DID YOU HAVE A NICE TIME?
ED, ARE YOU WEARING LIP GLOSS? ha ha ha
JULIE, ARE YOU ALRIGHT ? YOU LOOK A LITTLE FLUSH,, ha ha ha
NOT AS FLUSH AS YOUR BUTTS GOING TO BE IF YOU KEEP IT UP.
I'M NOT THE ONE WHO HAS TO WORRY ABOUT KEEPING IT UP,,ha ha,, THAT WOULD BE ED"S DEPARTMENT,,ha ha,, ANY COMMENT ED? ha ha
I HAVE NO PROBLEM IN THAT DEPARTMENT,, IN FACT, I AM THE HEAD OF THAT DEPARTMENT.. ha ha ha,,,,
SO WHO'S YOUR FRIENDS?
DON'T KNOW THEIR NAMES,
HEY, COWBOY? WHATS YOUR NAME?
DONAVAN,
DONAVAN,, ha ha ha ,, sorry,,, ha ha ..
WHATS SO FUNNY?
I NEVER MEET A GUY NAMED DONAVAN, WHO WORE A COWBOY HAT,, ha ha ha snort, giggle,,ha ha ..snort, snort, giggle,,

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 10

Hey Julie can I ask you something?
Yes Ed,
Do you have any brothers or sisters, your parents are they,,
No they passed Ed, and I am an only child,, just me.
How about you Ed?
Two older sisters, dad passed, mom lives with my oldest sister,
Are you close?
Well I really don't see them all that much, kinda stopped seeing them often, the ex never wanted to go, but that's no one's fault but my own, for letting it happen.
Julie,
Yes Ed, you can ask,
Tell me about him Julie,
Well Ed, his name was Roy, he was the man I loved more than life itself, he was my world, I will always love him, I still feel him sometimes, and miss him so much, he went to pick up a pizza, and there was an accident, he died on the way to the hospital, the last thing I said to him was, make sure you get extra cheese, I heard the sirens and had a real bad feeling, and couldn't understand why, I never felt like that before, then after he was gone too long I started to cry, I knew something had happened, then I got the call on the house phone, I had left my crll phone in my car ,and when I went to go to the hospital there was a message, I was in such a panic to get to the hospital I never listened to the message until the next day, It was Roy, he said he was in an accident, and that he didn't feel too good, and that he was sorry about the pizza, and then he just said, Baby, I love you, and that was all, your the first guy that I ever talked to about him, I am so sorry,
It's fine Julie, I want to know everything about you, and the most important parts of your life, are important to me, never be afraid to tell me anything.
I think I am in like with you Ed.
You Think! I know I like you Julie,
I do Ed, I do like you.

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 9

Yea, whatever the Ladies are drinking, and some Kamikazes, and keep the Kamikazes flowing.
Ed are you trying to get us drunk? think you might be able to take advantage of us.
Well Rita I am trying to get you girls drunk, but not trying to take advantage of any of you, just having some fun. Hell it can't get much better than this, Me with three beautiful woman.
He could be a keeper Julie,
Here comes the band, Come on lets dance,
You girls go, I will join in later.
OK ED YOU KNOW WHERE WE WILL BE.
COME ON DAWN, JULIE, LETS DANCE.
HI, IS ANYONE SITTING HERE?
NO, BUT THEY WILL BE BACK.
OK, I AM JUST GETTING A DRINK.
MY NAME IS BETH,
HI BETH, ED.
HELLO ED, GREAT BAND, LOVE THEIR MUSIC.
YEA ME TOO BETH.
JULIE I THINK SOME ***** IS TRYING TO PICK UP ED.
ITS OK RITA, LET IT GO, WE ARE NOT DATING, HE CAN DO WHAT HE WANTS.
LOOK AT HER, SHES ALL OVER HIM, SHE MIGHT OF WORE SOME UNDERWARE WITH THAT OUTFIT. SLUT.
BETH IT WAS NICE METTING YOU, I AM GOING TO DANCE.
OH SURE ED, BY YOURSELF?
NO THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE I WANT TO DANCE WITH.
YOU SURE ED, I WAS THINKING ABOUT LEAVING, BUT I NEED A RIDE.
ANY OTHER NIGHT I WOULD JUMP AT THE CHANCE BETH, BUT TONIGHT I AM SURE, MAYBE YOU SHOULD CALL A CAB.
HEY GIRLS,
HI ED, GLAD YOU COULD JOIN US.
COME OVER HERE ED, WE WILL BE RIGHT BACK.
OK JULIE.
WHERE WE GOING NOW, I WANT TO GET SOME AIR, LETS GO ON THE PATIO.
OK JULIE.
Lets sit over here,
What's up Julie? are you ok?
Yes Ed, I am fine, I just wanted to be alone with you for a minute, I want you to kiss me like you did before.
I would like that Julie.
You really are a great kisser Ed, and I am very comfortable with you.
So are you Julie, and I like being with you a real lot.
LOOK RITA, THEIR MAKING OUT ON THE PATIO.
I THINK JULIE REALLY LIKES HIM DAWN, OR SHE IS REALLY HORNY, HA HA HA
NO RITA SHE LIKES HIM, I CAN TELL
YOUR RIGHT DAWN, I HAVEN"T SEEN THAT GLOW ON HER FACE IN A LONG, LONG TIME.
IT WOULD REALLY BE GOOD FOR HER TO LIKE SOMEONE AGAIN, ITS BEEN 5 YEARS SINCE ROY DIED, AND THE OTHER GUYS SHE DATED HERE AND THERE WERE ALL JERKS, GOOD LOOKING BUT NO SUBSTANCE.
I really like the way you kiss Ed, I love to kiss, and I could kiss you all night.
I love to kiss too Julie, and really like kissing you, it feels right.
Yes it does Ed, it does feel right.
Are you happy Julie?
Very Ed, and you?
Very,,,,,,

My Tethered Face

I sit here writing from the mind of a peaceful man
It's because the hour has come that forces my faith
Enlightenment seeps through my molded skin
What has come has long been gone, my life is my own
Knowing now we are all brothers and sisters, and part of the universe
I can no longer frown, only smiles abound my tethered face
Bringing myself to new sempiternity frees my mind
Peering into my soul, and actually fancying the view
Denouncing all the dread, my clouds do have a silver lining
My heart has opened, it is alive again, understanding a whole lot more
No barriers in my way, I have broken through them all
Bring them on I have no fear, in the bottom of my heart my strength is born
I store my love and it will always remain, unconditional, untouchable, irreversible
My soul mates look for me, as I look to them for the wisdom to tell them apart
I gather all my voids, the whole now very small, only a single tear is shed
Taking my time it's all downhill now, rolling into the remnant of my life
Adsorbing the special looks from the eyes of a friend,
Being able to see those looks when you need them most
My heart is of extraordinary size, it cannot beat without distress, this I have accepted
To smile, to love, to feel a feeling, to touch a heart, to have my heart touched, to live to love

MAD 2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 8

Julie I think your phone is ringing,
Yea it is, its my friend Rita, Hello, Hi Rita, yea I know, I had to give Canada her shot, be there in 10.
Come on Ed, my friends Rita, and Dawn are at the bar, I was suppose to meet them there.
Ok. Julie lets go,
They know how to party Ed, I hope you can keep up,, ha ha
I will be fine Julie, I can party too,
Great, you will like them, they are both really hot, especially Dawn,
They can't be as hot as you Julie,
Thanks Ed, you know your really sweet, and I'm not all that, but I'm glad you think I am.
Don't forget your keys,
Got them right here, why you didn't like my thong, ha ha giggle
I haven't found anything I don't like about you, and just so you know you have a great a**,
Are you an a** man Ed?
Since you asked, yes I am,
See you later Canada, be a good girl, It's raining, lets hurry,
Wow I'm soaked,
Me too,
There they are,
Hey girls,
Hi Julie, and who is this handsome guy?
Rita, Dawn, meet my new friend Ed,
Hi, Ed
Hello Rita, Dawn, pleased to meet you,
What happened to the band?
Taking a break.
Julie I am going to use the bathroom, be right back.
Ok Ed,
All right Julie, what's going on, who's the hottie,
Yea Julie where did you find him? He's really cute,
Ok, you guys, hands off, I met him here,
And you took him home already, was he any good? ha ha ha ,
He just went with me to give Canada her shot, lucky he did, you won't believe what happened,
What, he made you cumm, ha ha ha
Stop it, lets just say he had his head up my butt,
What's that mean Julie,
Later, here he comes,
What's everyone drinking?
Are you buying Ed?
Yes Dawn I am,
I like him already,

I hope everyone is enjoying the story,,its over 20 parts,,so watch for it..

Take Me Along

A woman I met years ago
I feel in love, what did I know
Had that family, had those dreams
Now just memories, is all it seems

I gathered my heart, took it on a trip
Drank from the fountain, took a real big sip
Looked at myself, many times
Humble I felt, there were no rhymes

A woman I meet, not so long ago
Lifted my spirit, taught me how to row
Feels my body, opens my heart
Embraces it slowly, this brand new start

Endures my passion, has her own
Gives me her heart, it's not on loan
Our life's fit, it's like a song
Live your life, take me along

MAD2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 7

Ok I'm in,,, woohoo..oh,, ****
What was that?
A lamp.. be right down,,
Well come on in Ed.. this is my beautiful collie Canada, She's diabetic,
Hi Canada, your a pretty dog,,, Canada? any special reason for the name?
Well since she was born, while I was on vacation in Canada, years ago,, My husband named her Canada, He had to stay home due to work,, and lucky he did because our Collie at the time Candy, had 3 pups while I was away. and that's how this cuttie got her name., come on Canada time for your meds,,,
What do you want to drink, beer, wine, water, ahhh,, Milk..?
I'll take a beer, save the milk for breakfast,,
You think you'll be here for breakfast Ed,,
I think so,
I think so too Ed...

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 6

Come on Ed, lets take a walk...
Ok, Julie,,
WHERE WE GOING?
JUST DOWN THE STREET.
I HAVE TO GIVE one of my dogs a shot,, he's diabetic,
So we're going to your office,
No, my house, I live down the street,
Oh,, ok
Are you ok with that Ed,
Sure,
You won't try anything will you,, lol
Hey Julie, stop a sec,
Wow Ed, that was a nice kiss, Lets go,, he has to have his shot by 10.
See that house over there,
The blue one?
Yea Ed, the blue on,, well the second blue one.
What about it,,
That's the house I was born in,
Nice house,, you must of been a beautiful baby,
Ah,, thanks Ed, I got a little buzz on, ok here we are, where's my key? I can't find my keys,, where the hell are my keys? ****,,,
What's the matter Julie?
I see my keys,, their on the kitchen table,
Yea, they are Julie, I see them,,
Ed, do you think you can boost me up to that window? its open, I can climb in it if I stand on your shoulders,
I think so Julie,, I'll pick you up under your arms, and lift you onto my shoulders, then all you have to do is stand up on them,
Sounds like a plan Ed,,,
I guess it's your lucky night Ed,
Why's that Julie,, I know I have been pretty lucky already, meeting you..
Ed, I have a skirt on,
Yea, you do,,, but do you have panties on? lol
Well, a thong,, your not going to look are you?
Probably,
Ok on three,, 1,,2,,3,,
Woooooooh...
Ok, Ed, but how do I stand up?
Put your hands on my head, and just stand up.
Ok,, here it goes,,
Green,,,
What's that Ed?
Green, your thong is green,,

Children

Bright eyes, tiny feet
looks a lot like you
baby smell no teeth
boys you dress in blue

two year olds are the worst
but still very cute
binky still in their mouth
as they ruin your favorite suit

first grade is here already
and another one is coming
I can't believe when I heard
this one just started running

diaper bags doctors office
are your essentials
you teach them this show them that
what are your credentials

ice cream cotton candy
mind so pure
sitting through the dance rehearsal
laughter is the cure

bringing hone their favorite toy
as they look you in the eye
for its the love they give
that makes you want to cry

high school is where they are
boy it came so quick
girl friends boy friends
I taught them how to drive a stick

college dorms credit cards
it sure cost a lot
I tried to teach them all I knew
I gave it my best shot

wedding bells fill the air
with a timeless memory
as I see myself in them now
and a new family

the phone rang late at night
to tell me of something new
its a little girl she shouted
glad I didn't buy blue MAD 2008

Parents


My life began without request
It was not up to me
I opened my eyes for the first time
You controlled what id see

No fear in me then
Too young to understand
I try to take my first step
Need to hold your hand

I am full of questions to ask of you
Not knowing what is right
Informing me of your ways
I never put up a fight

Different people different ways
How do I compare
Right for you wrong for me
Do I even dare

Break away from the mold
The difference fills my mind
I should of gathered all my fear
Never been so kind

When I realized I am my own
I did not see the time
Now I feel its passed me bye
My life's only crime

Do I request a life
To put on display
Watching all things unfold
Hearing what I say

Will you be proud of me
When you understand
You did not ask for life
It was not what you planned

MAD 2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 5

SO ED WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
OLD BRIDGE,,, YOU?
LITTLE SILVER,,
WOW, THATS A REAL PRETTY TOWN.
HEY! WATCH IT BUDDY,, THAT GUY JUST GRABED MY ***,,
I DON'T THINK HE DID IT ON PURPOSE, ITS JUST REALLY CROWED.
HEY ED, LETS GO OVER THERE IT WON'T BE AS LOUD.
SOUNDS GOOD JULIE,
That's better, not that I want to. but I can here myself think now, lol
Julie, what's your all time favorite song?
Hmmmmmm, lets see, I have to go with, Free Bird, how about you Ed?
Warren Zevon,,, Lawyers Guns and Money,
Tell me Ed, why no girlfriend, or wife,, or maybe you have both,,lol,,
Well I had both, but people change,, and you?
Widowed,,,,,, can I have another, he's drinking Coors light, and a couple shots of Jack..
Sorry to hear that Julie,
It's ok, we had a great life together,
Cheers,,
Cheers,,,

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 4



Hey Ed look at that guy over there,

Which one,

The one on the left, with the Yankees cap on.

Yea, what about him?

Look at his nose, he has the biggest nostril holes I ever saw, he must use a table cloth to blow his nose,,,lol,,,,lol

That’s an observation I never heard before.

Come on Ed he could suck the little pubic hairs I have left right off, with those nostrils, lol….I need another drink..

Malibu Rum on the rocks,,,yea,, Coors light, give me a shot of Jack too,, Julie you want one?

You think you will be able to handle me if I start doing shots?

Baby, I’ll do my best,,,

Make that two, here’s to us Julie, may we have a night as beautiful as you are…

Keep that up Ed, and it may get you laid,,

Here’s the band,,woooohoooo, woooohoooo,

Come on Ed lets dance,,,,I love this song,,,,,,

I can’t here you,,

I SAID, I LOVE THIS SONG, I REMEMBER BUYIN THIS ALBUM WHEN I WAS LIKE SIXTEEN,

ME TOO. I SAW THEM AT THE PALLADIUM IN THE CITY, WHEN I WAS SEVENTEEN, ITS NOT THERE ANYMORE,

WHAT”S NOT?

THE PALLADIUM, THEY TORE IT DOWN.

Julie and Ed a Love Story part 3

Hey Ed I hate to interrupt but I have to get going,
Oh, ok Russ, This is Julie Russ,,
Hi Julie nice to meet you,
Well hello Russ, its nice to meet you too,
Be gentle with Ed, Julie, he is a upstanding guy,
Not to worry Russ, I can tell he is a nice guy, and I am sure there are parts of him that are up standing,, lol
See you Monday Ed,
Ok Russ, say Hi to Bonnie for me,
Will do,, bye Julie,
Bye Russ,
Its starting to get packed in here,
Yea Ed it is, that's because the band will be on soon,,
Who's playing?
Yasgar's farm, they come on around 9,
Wow they're still around, I used to see them like 20 years ago,
Showing your age Ed, but yea they are, still have the same lead singer too,
Really, that skinny guy with the long hair,
Yup, that's him,
Ed, do you dance,
Love too, not very good, but its a lot of fun, especially with a pretty girl like you,, well that's if your asking,
That's great Ed, and yes I am asking, after a few more drinks though, you may have to keep me off the tables,, lol,,
Oh boy, I may have my hands full,
That you do Ed,,

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 2

So Julie, what do you do for a living?
I work with animals,, I am a Vet.
Really, wow, that's great, I love dogs,,,
What do you do Ed?
I'm a pharmacist,
No kidding, can you get me some Vicodin, lol,,,
Just kidding Ed, I take animal tranquilizers, no just kidding,
Do you need them? are you in pain?
Nothing that this Malibu rum can't kill, lol,,
Julie can I ask how old you are?
Sure Ed,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Well how old are you?
47, and you ED?
49, I'll be 50 in November...
Milestone, having a party?
Only if your coming Julie,
Well I'm not cumming now if that's what your asking,,,lol,,,
You sure have a spunk about you Julie,
Just trying to keep you on your toes.
Well you are, that's for sure...

Thank-you