Thank-you
That is something I will do.

Hello fellow writers, or at least all of us who think we are.
The real writers I appreicate all the knowledge, you would like to share.

I want to know flat out if my poems suck or not.
I have posted a few, even tried a short story, nobody seemed to be interested in that though.

I am told by people who are close to me they are very good, but they are biased, I would think. Some of you have left notes on my post's which is very encourging, Thanks,
They are simple poems, Like myself,I try not to make the reader think too hard, just want them to feel something after they read it, I feel that's all that matters.

Well. I thank you all in advance,
Michael

Standing Still

I hear the whispers of a hollow heart
They follow me as I sift through life
Ignoring them I cannot do
Fighting is a thing of the past

I taste the poison of a broken promise
It burns through my vault of hope
Memories fade into emptiness
Sorrow becomes the antidote

I saw the darkness fill the light
It turned the warmth very cold
Froze my body engulfed my soul
I could not see or feel the truth

My dreams were such a waste
They would never come true
I wish I saw this on my own
Nothing I could say nothing I could do

I passed my love from my heart
Keeping it strong it lived off lies
Weakness entered as I learned the truth
Its beats slowed as it began to die

I saw my life outside of me
What I saw was not a thrill
I slowed it down began to think
Here I am Standing still

MAD 2010

Thanks,,,,

Opening my never closed heart

I never understood how much I missed
Why was I lied to?
Why I didn’t see when I felt
Why I was touched and not held
I was trusted but not loved
Expected not appreciated
Lead on not let in
Told but not talked to
Happy when I was sad
Viewed but not seen
Always there always near never wanted
Pushed away sealed in my heart
Lead to believe drove to my knees
I wanted so much more
Tasting the resin of the past
Realizing there is so much more
Healing a broken heart
Seeing what’s important
Not fighting fate
Hearing what’s being said
Feeling the freedom of love
Trusting my inner self
Getting to know my spirit
Feeding on my pulse
Breathing in the air that calms me
It’s not what I miss it’s what I want
Opening my never closed heart

MAD 2010

It Keeps Me Young

I think back to the days I laughed
They really are not that long ago
Over and over my face smiled
The years passing taught you to grow

All the time in the world
The Friends you made along the way
Things you did things you said
The games the places you used to play

I tried this and did all that
Felt my strength met my match
Became myself had those dreams
Left the nest broke the latch

Felt the sun shine on my face
Hurried when I should of waited
Became one with someone else
Saw my plans are now outdated

Set my sights on new desires
Now my steps became very slow
Taking them one at a time
Not sure why or where they'll go

I cried enough wished for more
Always feeling I missed out
Then I take a short look back
Felling humble thinking stout

I see my reflection in my eyes
I hope to always see that smile
For if it should go away
My heart will be sad all the while

So I look back through the years
Climbed that ladder every rung
Those are the days I think about
It makes me smile it keeps me young

MAD 01/01/2010

My Happy New Year

It's in your eyes
All over your face
Flowing in your words

Your butter to my touch
My lips are your desire
Hugging we are one

Passion I feel
Your lust is honest
My heart is touched

My walls have been broken
The past erased
You've entered my mind

You feed my growth
Quench my thirst
You hunger for more

I am allowing it to happen
Slow but true
I will tell you one day

It's a new life
A time to enjoy
My happy new year

MAD 2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 16



Come sit next to me Ed, I want to show you some pictures,

Ok, Julie,, OH it’s a water bed,, ha ha ,, wasn’t expecting that,

I love taking pictures Ed, it has become my favorite hobby, it took my mind off of things when I was really in a bad way, and I just continued taking them,

What’s that noise?

Its Canada I think?

What’s she doing?

I better go check, be right back,

Dawn was passed out on Canada’s ball, and she was scratching trying to get it.

Dawn is passed out?

They both are, out like a light, giggle, they are my best friends, I really love them, where were we, well that’s not what we were doing Ed, but I like this better, you really are a good kisser Ed,

I love to kiss Julie, I can kiss for hours, and you I can kiss forever, you are very sweet Julie,

So are you Ed, and I can kiss you all night, Ed, I want to tell you something,

Ok Julie,

Other than a few dates, I have not been with anyone in a long time, but I feel very comfortable with you, almost like I have know you for a long time,

That makes me feel real good Julie, because I feel the same way, it’s nice,

Yes it is , Ed?

Yea ,

Ed, I want to be with you tonight,

You are Julie,

No, I want to make love, and have you sleep with me in my bed, and wake up next to you, and make love again,

I would like that very much Julie,

But, I am scared,

I understand Julie, and I promise you that it will be a beautiful night, and an even greater morning, and just the beginning of a great love story that only people who understand what it means to truly love another person can feel, there are a lot of mixed up, unhappy people out there, and when two people can feel this close in such a short time, it has to mean something, something that we have to let happen, it’s not made up, this is real, and I do not want it to ever end.

Neither do I Ed, that’s why I am scared,

Julie you have to trust your feelings, listen to what your heart is whispering in your ear,

I am Ed, un zip my skirt,

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 14

HEY JULIE,
HEY ED, GLAD YOU CAME OVER THIS IS PROBABLY THE LAST DANCE, LOOK AT RITA TEASING THE HELL OUT OF THAT GUY,
YEA, SHE SURE IS,
IS IT STILL RAINING?
NO, IT STOPPED,
GOOD, LETS GET DAWN, AND RITA AND GO TO MY PLACE,
You were right, that was the last song,
Rita, lets go, leave that poor guy alone, Dawn you coming?
Ok, ok, just a sec, yes I had fun dancing with you, maybe I will see you here again, yes you can give me your number,
He is cute Rita,
Yea, maybe I will call him, he was real nice too,,
He is really hot for you,
What guy isn't? ha ha
Do you want to ask him over to the house?
No, it's ok, then Dawn will feel out of place,
Ok, lets go then,
It's a little easier gettin in this time hey Ed, but not as much fun, giggle, giggle
Dawn see if there is anything good on tv,
Anyone hungry?
Julie can I eat these?
What do you want to watch?
What's that?
Real sex,
Lets watch that, it's about sex toys, ha ha
Oh, look at her,
Like that Ed?
Yea, every man likes watching two girls, wow that's a big vibrator,
Not as big as Julie's, ha ha giggle, right Dawn?
What are you saying?
Nothing Julie, giggle, giggle
Ed, how did you wind up here with three beautiful, and horny woman?
Just lucky I guess, ha ha
I wonder how lucky your going to get? ha ha
Would you guys stop that, put something else on,
Who's drinking what?
I'll have a beer,
Me too,
Dawn?
Beer is fine,
Look at that, its a fake p***y, you want to get that Ed? giggle,
Wow it looks real, Dawn check that out,,
Ed, can you give me a hand?
Sure Julie,
Come here Ed, I want to show you something,
Nice room Julie, that's a nice dresser, your wedding picture?
Yes, close the door,

Wonderland Morning

Ah, a peaceful stretch, a smile
Looking out the window of dreams
Thinking calming thoughts
Feeling the heat as it steams

Things are alright
Getting better each day
Hearing those playful voices
Not knowing what they say

No reason not to remember
Those days made you grow
A chuck el maybe a tear
Your eyes opened very slow

Feeling your skin
Getting used to it
Sometime it hurt's
It's starting to fit

Your heart is filling
Old and new memories
Drive your desire
They help you see

Letting it all in
You can feel yourself breath
It whispers through you
As your pores seethe

I felt my heart beat
My life is forming
I welcome this day
This wonderland morning


MAD 2009

Reasons

A thought, a dream, a day filled with hope
Family, friends, not enough rope
Rain, snow, wind in your face
Sunshine, rainbows, dying with grace
Talking, laughing, a smile or two
The beach, boardwalk,what will they think of you
Strawberries, peaches, a bottle of beer
Holidays, birthdays, knowing your fear
Comedy, romance, voids that you fill
Beauty, passion, the love you will kill
Cars, boats, all that you feel
A touch, smells, smiles you will steal
Music, memories, time alone
Sports, concerts, words on your headstone
Dancing, singing, a voice calls out your name
Fevers, sore throats, the plan that you frame
Diamonds, rubies, a friend from the past
Long drives, flowers, your willpower won't last
Children, pets, the family that you built
Parks, sunsets, not feeling the guilt
Living, dying you put up the fight
Tomorrow, next week, or will it be tonight

MAD 2007

Too Much Hope





I sit and stare as if I am going somewhere

I hope and I pray for a better day

It’s fresh in my mind, the love I did find

Feeling sad is my state of mind, being happy is a daily grind

Taking my new trail, well that’s just travail

Seeking new ways without changing, just doing some rearranging

Wondering what I will see, when I see, the inner being inside of me

Always felt your presence near, never this feeling, this feeling of fear

Asking myself all those questions, should have listened to your suggestions

Love has no reservation, as it looks for a lifelong celebration

Taking down the stairs you created, with the feeling that life has faded

Your friends tell you to believe to think positive; I dry my tears and want to live

Something is missing from my presence, replaced with emptiness of your essence

I want to take a deep breath, let the suppressed love out; I just don’t feel that stout

Hoping for it all to end, a new place for my love to send

How much hope am I suppose to have, should it be a cast, or just a suave

All the answers I am told I will find, I think they’re all just being kind

I am the only one who will know, Too much hope , time is slow

MAD 2007

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 14

Another beer?
Yea, thanks,
It's Ed right?
Yea,
So Ed how long have you know Julie?
Lets see, about 5 hours,
Why you know her too?
Lets see, about 30 years,
Wow, thats a lot of years, good friends?
Used to be, but that was a long time ago, now we barley say hi.
Old boyfriend?
No, I was the driver of the car that hit her husbands car,
Oh,,,,,,,,, don't know what to say,
Nothing to say, it was an accident, and after awhile we just stopped talking, not that she blamed me, it was just too hard for her, she's a great girl
Yea, I sort of noticed that,
Listen, she rarley let's herself like someone, and I think she has let her walls down with you, you understand what I am saying?
Well,, hum, what's your name?
Bruce,
Well Bruce, not that its any of your business, but I am not looking to hurt anyone, been there myself, just trying to get to know someone I find myself feeling good about,,,
Don't take it the wrong way Ed, it's just that I have know her since grammer school,
For someone who barley talks to her, you seem to be watching her pretty close, and me.
Ok. Ed, just don't be an *******,
Never, Bruce, I am just me, and Julie seems to like who I am, so thank's for the talk, keep the change, I think I will go join her,

Thanks so much, wish I could play,,

A Life Of My Own

Why should I wonder
What should I fear
When I grow older
Will I be here

Times are changing
As they have for years
I am always growing
Hearing those cheers

Innocent I am not
Though I wish I was
Breaking down boundaries
Is what it does

Age happens upon me
My dreams are not there
I need fresh ones
I need to stare

As I re-think this
And look again
It burns like fire
As my eyes descend

I play the hand that's dealt
Hoping for that ace
A deck that never runs out
Will I win the race

Twilight is upon me
My life was on loan
This heart never changed
A life of my own

MAD 2009

Julie and Ed a Love Story Part 13

Why thank-you Ed, that was sweet, and you know something,, I am feeling like myself again, haven't in a long time,,
And how does that feel Julie?
It feels good Ed, it really feels good,
Listen you guys, they're probably only playing one more set, after that my house,,,
Great, we can have a sleep over, ha ha
Well nobody is driving,, Just so you know,,
Ok Julie,, we know you love us,,
Hey we're going out for air, come on Dawn,,
Now Ed it's your turn,, Tell me about you,,
It's simple, just took a long time to realize,,,,,
Realize what Ed?
That my wife was not in love with me,,,
And how does that feel Ed,
It feels like it happened, because their is someone better for me, and I am real sure I have meet her, here, tonight,,,,
Good subject change Ed,,
Nothing to change Julie, its all about you,,,
Hmmm,, I like that Ed,,
Hey,, we're back..
The cowboy, and nostril guy are out there, we threw them a bone,,ha ha
Yea, those nostrils were flaring,, ha ha ,,,
Here Comes the band,,
Let's do these shot's and DANCE,,
COME"ON JULIE,,
SEE YOU LATER,
HAVE FUN,
YOUR SHOES?
NO THEY"RE A LITTLE SMALL. AND I STILL HAVE MINE ON,
GIRLFRIENDS?
WELL, FRIENDS
WHAT"S YOUR NAME?
ED,,
BUY ME A DRINK ED?
WELL, SURE, BUT I AM WITH SOMEONE
OK, THEN F**K YOU ED
HOLY S**T!! WHAT WAS THAT ALL ABOUT, DID YOU HERE THAT?
NO BUDDY I MISSED IT,

I'm Not Going To Hollywood


I'm Not Going To Hollywood
I won't be a star
No diamonds no gold
Never a fancy car

I won't have a fan club
No super modle for me
Won't see my name in lights
No city will give me their key

Can't see those bright lights
Red carpet's not there
Won't live my fantasy
No people will stare

Fountains are dried up
My eyes see clear
I am what I am
That's what I fear

Its time to embrace this
My fortune was spent
Lost my direction
It came and went

I will go out slowly
Its the way I lived
No one to turn too
Only burden to give

I pray for one thing
A smile on my face
When I finally lay down
To die with grace

MAD 2008

It's Not Too Late

Sitting here wondering, and not knowing why,
I changed my mind, as I started to cry,

Feelings of reason, and a timeless deed,
Engulfs my horizon, and writes my creed

Disunite the life, I thought I'd live
Only having memories, and love to give

Eventful chances, I have seemed to miss
Keeps me grounded, feeling no bliss

Looking for a niche, to feel delightful
Trying to fit in, and not feel so trifle

Knowing now, what I could of became
Tears at me, and fuels my shame

Hoping for another chance, I cannot do
Too much fear, of failing that one too

So I sit back, and ride my fate
Telling myself, it's not too late

MAD 2009

A Spectacular Change

Bright eyes abloom me now
My lungs breath with ease
No longer in a shell
Feeling love and not a tease

Friends is what we became
Lovers goes without saying
Yours is mine, and mine is yours
Now I can stop all that praying

My heart opens more each day
You made me see all I was missing
A spectacular change has come over me
I feel it every time we are kissing

I wait for no one now
Life is fun and relaxing too
I dream in color and smile a lot
Knowing you feel like I do

The future brings our past to pasture
Going forward not looking back
Time and passion are on our side
Substance and compassion we do not lack

My heart is big and full
It beats with flavor, it tastes like you
It's on my sleeve, I like it there
Healing those tears is what you do

Open minds and lots of hope
Time will tell and nothing more
The sky is bright to show our way
Our path is set it's an open door

I look ahead and see no end
Tomorrow, next week, years ahead
Why would I want to it's beautiful here
A spectacular change is what I said

MAD 2009

Sad poem,,
it seems to sum up somebodys memories, who was looking for more.
Michael