Thankyou, thankyou. I have been surviving. How are you?

I love that you heal me, but hate that you're broken
i wish i could help, you know that i am open
if you could have faith in me, you would see
i could heal you, like you've healed me
i just want one chance, that's all i need
but i wont beg and i wont plead
cause you're weak, kinda like me
can't let people control your emotions
love is just chemicals, just potions
i don't know a better way to express myself
than to write this down, and let it out
I just want you to be happy, without a doubt
but it's crazy, the way i feel
cause i don't know you, is it real?
but i want you to see
I am real, with real feelings
and everything i have said, i meant
i must sound like a lunatic
seriously, who is this bit*h?
but, you should have no doubt about me now
your'e my friend first, even if it hurts
this is the last i will say it
I, You, what's the word that is missin?

I know but it will be soon.

A/N: This is not a happy write


It's been 17 years dad.
17 years that you have been dead.
I can still hear the gunshot ring in my head.
How could you dad? Was it so fu*king hard to just be a man?
No one understands, why after 17 years it still bothers me this bad.
But dad you were a fu*ked up man.
How could you just leave me.
17 years and you still haunt my memory.
I will never find a way to deal with this tragedy.
I can still hear their voices screaming.
It's sickening.
Want to know why it hurts so bad dad?
I was the only one who saw you do that.
But im a mommy now to and im scared dad.
Walking down the same path that you had.
And every fu*king problem i have stems from your death.
I don't like to dwell in the past but it's real hard.
I am just as ****ed up in the head as you were.
But i will guarentee, to be
the very best i can be
for my daughter, you see
i'll give her everything you couldn't give me.
and much more
and all you'll ever be to me, is dead on that floor
nice memory of you, huh dad?
But be glad, i won't let the darkness reach me that bad.
17 years, what's one more?
one more nightmare with your blood on the floor.
just like i said, all you'll ever be
to me, is straight dead.

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Well if you've only been in one relationship i wouldn't worry too much about never being loved again. Keep your head up.

I wear that in which i can afford.

it is 70 here.

Why yes, yes i am.

but i have real time bills now! haha :p

I know.

hahaha

I know all of the bad reasons, i know him in person and know that he does have the money it would like a weekend thing, but i don't think i will, i know all of the risks as well. One more year of college for me and i might be able to make enough to start living, haha.

Oh okay then this:



Sorry for the bad word, just think it's hilarious!

Alright, so i have been seriously offered five grand a month from a man just to fulfill his "fantasies." I almost considered it, but i have some morals, do you think this is basically the same as being a prostitute? Except it's one man.

This massive headache =/

Im too lazy to go back and read anything so wtf is this thread?

I will always love this thread.

Nope, no love here :(

S i n g l e

Um, no and i'd prefer if they didn't either.