a big no no for me is a show of violence or love of it or love of sadistic movies and rudeness as well, even if some kindness is thrown in it is still a turn off, also nit pickiness griping

cool

I thought I was pregnant
only to find out I had hit menopause
it slipped in slowly
not noticing
they said to eat more meat and less carbs, and the gas in my stomache would go away
I was wondering why I was still thin, just a little bit of tummy rumbling like Winnie the POO
My stomache was rumbling and grumbling
as we age
sometimes we change like leaves veins
I have seen some people's hands
I have looked in the mirror praying to be still beautiful and seen old people hold hands and snuggle
and wanted to feel that still
and I have friends now to share the futire with liek a buffet to choose the best
starting and building as a friend
day by day a new beginning to love ans share with someone
let us grab every happy moment like a unfolded origami swan
or a sea turttle swimming gracefully on
let the parkiling water purge away all fear
I was so afraid in the ER
old memories and pains were close
but today hugging a friend and seeing the blue sky and sun
I am given another day
what will we do with the days we are given from the Lord of Heaven?

I found out that happiness beginns by loving a friend
letting someone in
and trusting
and letting go fo past pain
one can step by step
live and love again

Yes, when one opens one's heart to friendship and love a new beginning can occur.

yesterday walking and carrying some things kind of heavy
I started bleeding in my pregnancy
and was so scared and lonely feeling
upset and wishing to cry
I pray and save to fly away from here
to where my friends live
yesterday was friend day and I gave my best friend a call
and his words comforted me
when it is hard
when I feel alone
when things aggrivate me and I want to scream
I pray and keep going
sometimes God sends someone to help along the way
like yesterday I met a nice lady who lives by me and she was in town and gave me a ride and helped me carry things
she did not have to
she chose to help me
and I am not bleeding much now, and can feel the baby kicking
I read online and in some books today it is normal, just rest more and do not overdo things
so I pray and thank God for strength
for friends
for hope when those you hoped in
trashed the hope
when it seemed there was just no one at all
I know there is
one just has to believe and try and keep trying
and I do this
for ME and my Baby

welcome

to look at women as women is a good thing. My ex boyfriend got like young stallions used to doing themselves when a mare is ot be bred and they could do nothing, he got so used to doing himself that he could no longer have sex with a woman and enjoy it. Take time to get to know the women as women and a natural desire should come to you if you have the right one. maybe it is you are growing up now becoming more mature.

THE CALL and my ex came over to my ladyfriend's house and was rooting for the killer pscho

I bought a heart sucker for my best friend yesterday, even though he lives miles away. Hearing his laughter warm on the phone helped me not to feel so alone
I did not know it was some fancy best friend day
but my heart has been with him since we went away
my ex promised a love that was not true
and I was sad thinking no one will love me
then you called
and said call me
a lifeline of thoughts and being and meaning
now love and hope lives in my heart
and I know I can love again
and hope you will play a part
thank you for loving me my friend
and for helping my life to have a new beginning
for your warmth, your hugs when I was down
for holding my hand when I cried and saying it is ok
when my life fell apart all around me
like an old building being torn down
it all needed to happen
for me to be strong and rebuild again
thank you
my love
my friend

stinky socks, loud grunting smacking slurps when eating like a hog being slopped, rudeness and also loudly taking the rapist killer's side in a movie and acting all thrilled if the victim gets raped or killed and someone gets killed trying to rescue her

I dreamed
and believed
yet not daring to believe
when your arms were around me at night
promising me forever
all the right words to make me float around half dazed in a haze
let's make a baby
you said and let's set a date to marry
we're married already
I helped you pick out two witnesses and you said then
let's not include them, just pick anyone off the street and get it over already
I felt so down and alone when you turned away from me
when you yelled at me
you set me free
and every heartbeat
every kick in your *** of the child I carry that you reject
abandoned by you like your father abandoned you
and let your mother raise you alone
all the anger and pain you carry
will not now ever be a part of me
or MY BABY
and I will cherish every first step
and the first word
and tell the child LOVE CAN be TRUE
but sometimes people let you down
there ARE mountains to climb
but in God and friends and inner peace
you gain strength and do not have to climb alone
there may be cold and it may sometimes feel so hard you can't take another step
some days you may want to climb inside like a clam
when the clouds gather grey or dark and the rainy wind does blow
don't EVER give up BELIEVING
in RAINBOWS

and snuggle within your veins
hear your lifeblood pumping
your dreams and thoughts
if positive surround me like a cloud
i will float along in your bloodstream
under your skin
within
escape my own pain
listen
or be the moon full and bright dancing in the night
playing on you as you sleep
shadows dance
I am the sparkle on the water like a thousand thousand diamonds- the snow pictures
let me out of the snow globe
I can't be a picture perfect sameness of conformity
I am me
and I can be
or pretend to be
anything
but we take our masks off and put away our toys our DVDs and books and can we talk or listen or feel or be?
What and who
are we
really?

cats are so cool

reminds me of a wrecking ball headed for a messed up house

haven't found the right person yet, have one i like alot but he is far away

eats holes in the soul
and the cold rain gest in like flaps of a tent wore out from sun and green
kill the pain
by being a friend
showing love
not feeling so alone again
the sky is blue
but missing my friend
I awoke cold and alone
the sadness sapping my strength like standing against a storm
grey skies above if there is no love
no one to hold me here
to share a smile or hug
the ripped sky sweats tears
for a moment talking and listening to people
sharing the laughter
my memory clouded
I almost forgot my best friend
and left him standing
in the lonesome rain

sun breaks upon a winter landscape frozen and glittering thin sickles of ice crystal spirals spread like a bridal net veil
the warm sun upon my closed eyes
I hear the birds sing waiting for spring
seeds beneath the snow will grow again and there will be flowers to in their cycle make seeds to spread and blow on parachutes to new ground like hope
running rivelets to streams
all of our dreams
the fullmoon floats upon a nest of clouds and watching stars
see two lovers below
holding hands as they did in youth and now in age
carry the love with them wherever they go
like golden seeds asleep beneath the snow
waiting to bloom and grow

being treated kindly and also I like to show care to people-

any sweet man that is for real and knows how to be a gentleman