She made my heart stop when I first met her. She was so relaxed, so looking in my face and eyes,,she was a stranger, yet I felt at home in her presents.
I have never had such a complete feeling of perfect in my life.

To you my little yard worker,my painter, my sculpture in your works. As you and the three cats and your doggies all run about...KNOW that when I met you, I NEVER WANTED TO SAY GOODBYE. On to the future of what will be,,on with us meeting again, you and me. LB

Sometimes I am amazed when I think about how much you love me. You are everything I've ever wanted, and I'm afraid that I might mess it up.

I think you are right that I can be insecure sometimes. Maybe not the way you were thinking... what girl doesn't put on makeup... but I don't ever think that I'm good enough. When I lose weight, I can't be happy, I have to worry about losing more. When someone tells me I'm beautiful, I secretly think about all the ways they are wrong.

I also have some trust issues. I don't know why, but when things start going really great for a while I start to think that I can't really be making the other person happy. When that doubt starts, I wonder about their every move. What are they doing online? Who are they hanging out with? Where are they going? I know it's ridiculous, so I hold it back as much as I can.

The worst thing about that is I create situations where there weren't any to begin with. My mind goes crazy and I do things that aren't fair or set myself up to get hurt. No matter how fantastic someone is, they are bound to mess up at some point. When you do, I take it as some type of confirmation that I'm not good enough or you aren't, and I blow it up way bigger than it needs to be because I stew on things. The craziest part of all of that is that you are the most faithful man I've ever known and I know you would never do anything to hurt me.

When you told me on New Year's Eve that you love me with every piece of yourself, there was so much honesty and raw emotion that I have no doubt that is exactly how you feel. I feel the same way about you, and I know you will help me see the wonderful person inside of me that you see.

I am determined not to screw this up. I don't have to continue my past patterns of behavior. I am so happy. Really. I know it's going to start to get tougher now that you have to go back to work. I will just really be looking forward to our time together.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

- e. e. cummings

I have seen you smile, for your sister and for friends. The way the tiny little lines around your eyes crinkle, and the way your voice changes.
But you have another smile, for someone special, the intimate friend. I see it play across the lips, the shift in your gaze. I did not recognise it before.
But I do now.

I can't wait for you to get home from work tonight. It was a long day and I missed you.

Why, oh why, must everything be complicated by other people??? You and me are great! We are amazing! Why can't everyone else just go away and leave us alone??? We have to figure this out. We have to get free of all of the negativity. We will be so happy. This I know. I wish you were home right now. I need you.

Well, I was wrong. Turns out you would do something to hurt me and you really aren't as faithful as I thought. I feel sick, I'm confused, and I really don't understand why you would do those things with her.

I've never seen a man sob the way you did this morning with me. You really mean it when you say you love me more than anything, but you still do things that are so f*cked up.

I want to get through this, but I don't know how.

All I need is right there within you,
Everything I could ever want is in front of me,
Happiness is part of your soul,
Joyful is what my heart is when I think of you,
The sea might separate us, but
No water can stop my burning love for you,
Time as stop ever since you spoke to me,
And life as begun to live within me once again.

I love it when you call me Big Poppa!!!!

I may be holding back the words, but I know you feel it the same way that I do. You want to be with me for good. You said that. I can see that. I'm just still so amazed that this has even happened. We're going to have an amazing life together. I love seeing you so happy.

I love every minute that we have to spend together. It doesn't matter what we're doing. We could be stirring the sauce, chopping vegetables, ironing the sheets, or using your cordless drill. Or maybe we're out shopping (with kids or without). Maybe we're home playing the Wii or cards or dance party. Maybe we're folding laundry together or working together in some other way to get the kitchen cleaned up or whatever. Even when we sleep, we are together. It desn't matter what we do. What matters to me is that we share in everything together. I'm just so relaxed with you. I can be myself. I just love being myself with you because you actually appreciate who that self is.

If I had someone kissing me like that, I could write love notes too!!

Yeah, it IS quite the motivator.

I don't want to be mad at you. I'm just so tired. I know you are too. And now your alarm went off and you have to get up and get ready to go to work AGAIN. You work too much. I miss you when you're not with me. We need more TIME!

I miss you so much already. I wish we could have just time alone together. I hate missing you. You rock. Everything is just amazing. You are just amazing.

Wow what an awesome love. I long for that and one day I hope God blesses me with it. Good for you..

Troublemaker7 I am so sorry. If you both love eachother the way it sounds like you do you can get through this.

I read a note my grandma wrote, when I was very young, it said.." If you get there before I do, promise me you will wait for me, I'll be there when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be, but between now and then, till I see you again....love me.

Ummm...


I read a note my grandma wrote, back in 1942. Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me. He said, "boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago. grandma's daddy didn't like me much, but i loved your grandma still." we had this crazy plan to meet and run away together. get married in the first town we came to and live forever. but nailed to a tree where we were supposed to meet instead, i found this letter and this is what it said.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through. I don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not going to let you down. Darling wait and see. And between now and then, until I see you again I'll be loving you. Love, Me.