Thank you (((s1ow)))

And (((LA))), I'm unbelievably flattered. Thank you so much for your kind words.

More unsure than I’ve ever been
I take a walk to think. I haven’t had enough
Sleep but way too much to drink. My
Eyes meet yours, sidewalk to street. You
Roll down the window and call out my name, take me for a ride down misery lane.
You tell me you have something you’ve been needing to say. We drive
Like teenagers, in circles, just because...there are people
All around only aware of what was.
Now I watch you suddenly vulnerable
Explaining how you’ve been confused. And my heart’s
Racing is just intolerable, but at this point, there’s nothing to lose. And
Every line you say falls like spilled wine.
A mess and a down right shame
Little do you know I’ve known all this time and I’ve just
Let you continue playing this game.
You’ve been privately stepping over every line
And publicly keeping me far at bay, well,
I’m sorry if I seem bothered, but what else can i say? I’m
Not here to be a replacement while she’s gone, I’m not
Talking to you if you can only lead me on...on up
‘Til the point when it’s time to do or die
Here is where you choose to finally decide...and now I wait.
Anxiously for you tell me that you need to know I feel the same
Then you disappear the moment you see my face, we step
Back into this denying phase
And back into the uncertainty that seems to always lead the way. I
Dare you to ever again call out my name.

Very nice, J

he’s awake now, creeping i can see his
face, now he’s sleeping
god release me from this beast
these fruitless trees that do not cease
i cannot stop for shade before peace
i heard you say love is free
and you lied.
your idealistic dreams are separate from this moment
and you don’t even wanna feel it
you just wanna own it
and i just wanna steal it
before you encircle and stone it
i cannot stop for shade before peace
i heard you say speech is free
and you lied.
i carry myself well
quiet and unannounced
i never ever tell
secrets yet pronounced
you are scared to see the sky
but i am scared to die
choice less in these woods
i’m leaving now for good.
i cannot stop for shade before peace
and you sang of harmony in a melody
typical of you, coward
and when wisdom finally fell to me
our time became soured
now i need to leave
nothing in this world is free
but perhaps where i’m going
perhaps something will be

Thank you (((mirror , s1ow & Heaven )))

Thank you all

s1ow
pkd
dawn
bigblue

Thank you

MsKim
Jason
mteagle
Txs
s1ow

You are such an amazing writer, Angel.
This is beautiful.

Very nice
(and welcome!)

Very nice (((H)))

Wow...I'm truly flattered by all your responses. Thank you all for taking the time to read.

Mirror
mteagle
Wizard
Jason ()
Tetsuo

We are an entity
Harnessed to my fantasies
Yielding, waiting eternally for the
Dusk to fade and turn on me and
Orphan my soul into the night
Insecure and scared, I shake. I’ll
Finally admit you were right, there’s only so much
Each heart can take, but I won’t
Ever back down, I’m not selfish enough. This is masochism at the hand of
Love and
I did not lose your respect tonight-it has no
Value to me. I just didn’t waste time trying to
Earn it, I declined it, courteously
Cause I need nothin’ from you-not your
Reason nor you rhyme
On my own, I walk through, the valley of
Shadows this time
So save your heroic words, quixotic and
Error free
Dispose them onto someone else
Your empty promises have no place with me
Only the scared girls cry and I ain’t
unraveling this time. Only the
Weak girls whine and I
Have got more than
Enough strength to get me by
Not a single word can speak to me
I am simply too far away, besides, I
Hate everything you ever have to say
All I know is love doesn’t cut it cause this
Voyage is too trying, I’d rather
End the bloodshed before it
Neutralizes itself into crying
Oh, my lover, you are not real. You’re just
The fabrication of all I dreamed I’d one day feel

When you leave my house
And walk down the street
Finally checking your phone
Cause you’re away from me
Do you ever stop to tell yourself
“She is the finest lady I’ll ever meet”?
Cause I am.
I’m a looker and I’m smart
And I’ve got person-al-ity
I’m patient and I’ve got heart
And lots of boys want me.
I’ve got class, I’ve got style
And I’m terribly funny
So don’t you dare ever not want me.
Don’t you dare ever not want me.
I pull the blanket tightly over my face
Cause I’m pissed off that the door is cracked
Boasting that you’ve left now
And you’re probably not coming back
But I’m okay on my own.
I have my records, candles, and wine
And I’m the messiest person I’m sure you know
But so what, all of this stuff is mine
And if you don’t adore me
Then go away
Cause my insecurities don’t afford me
Any severance pay
For when my heart breaks
And my castle crumbles
I know what you’re about to say:
I should be more humble
And you’re saying it sarcastically
Cause for once, I’m telling the truth
And if history repeats itself
That will scare the **** out of you
And you’ll leave my ghostly room
You’ll find some random excuse
You’ll have something important to do
Your tongue will be tied and mine will be loose
So let me put mine in your mouth
See if I can’t help sort you out
So you can speak clearer, repeating what you just said
I’m the finest lady you’ve ever met

Very nice, J

This is...amazing, J

Winter shows up like an ex
Holds you accountable to your own breath
Entices you to abandon the rest and surrender to the
Nonstop
Interrogation before
The rooftop conversation and although you
Fell from such a steep height, we
All know too well to
License your wings flight, to
Lend your judgment faith, to
See what you can save when you believe
All seasons are the same, all
Passions can be tamed, and
All the gray is to blame for your
Radical change. So
This is how it falls apart, this
Is how breakdowns start
This is when you know you need to draw the line, but you
Can’t see past the shrine
Ornamented with images of your own face, scraps of your
Memories held in perfect place and
Each time you wake, you neglect to take a moment to
See the unique beauty in silence, don’t
Try to deny this.
On a day like today, birthed all in
Gray, will you stop and say NO to that
Ex or
To your frosted breath and
Head toward the rest or do you
Encourage your own death? Before the
Rain arrives

Thank you (((ahuha , mirror , s1ow & mt )))

Nice, J

Your breath. Its smell. Its sound.
Your chest – heaving against my breasts.
Your face – scattered with my hair.
Your smile as you pull yourself away
Never letting me go.

Your body as it touches my soul.
Your sweetest, silken dream – my skin.
Your touch, the cool sea breeze.
Your fingers as you clasp, caress.
Never let me go.

Your eyes. Their warm amber depths.
Your tears — on my face as you rest.
Your lips, quivering against mine.
Your silent sobs as you push away,
Pulling me closer to you.

You. Your love. My pain.
Our hands — and our fingers entwined.
One life, as two lives cease.
Your thoughts. Sheer happiness.
Pull me close.