taken... and it sucks.. he's a selfish stupid boy...

uh... I refuse to give you advice on how to stop it...

I wish I dated men who were addicted to making love to me...

sigh..

Good for you, Im glad you two will be able to work things out and I wish you the best of luck.

Its important to feel loved and appreciated, and to also do the loving and appreciating

Actually, in my experience... it is the men who hold on to their secrets for life's sake and the females who would give their hearts and secrets so easily

depends how much distance and the amount of time.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder.... but for a long period of time... it just pulls you apart.

agreed

Yeah, I understand that perezhilton isnt the most trustworthy of news sources, but there were other articles by other sources.

A seven year old boy in the Czech republic was found chained in the cellar of his home, where his family kept him and abused him in a very perverse way.

The child, Ondrej Mauerova, was kept confined as his family would EAT parts of him!!!!

Yes, eat.

The child had been partially skinned as his crazed 31 year old mother, Klara, caged him for months.

Relatives who were also in the cannibalistic cult would feast on the child's raw flesh.


You can read the rest of the article @ http://perezhilton.com/category/wacky/

ICK ICK ICK

I usually do it every day. I get one shiver.. and im prickly again.


However... Ive recently endured a shaving injury, so Im sasquatchy. I injured my left foot a few days ago.. my toes are pretty much broken.. and I tried to shave in the shower and since you need toes to balance.... I slipped a little and I gave myself a bad wound. Not just a little knick or cut... but an open flesh wound. I yelped and my boyfriend came out to stop the blood and wrap my leg.


so yeah... until it heals, im wearing pants... or leggings under my skits

ouch...lol

I cant love someone who doesnt love me back.

..but I think if I didnt love him, it wouldnt be so painful to think about.

Why doesnt he love me anymore?


I've never fallen out of love before

Rules are meant to be broken... or so they say.
I have many personal mantras I live by, including:

*Love is a two-way street. I dont believe in unrequited love... love is a very intimate connection between two people-and must be felt by both parties. I cannot love someone who doesnt love me back.

*No sex without love

Now I'm trying to figure out how many of my own rules I am breaking... and why its okay all of a sudden. If I love a man... and he tells me he loves me.. then things are fine. When the very same man I love says he "has feelings" for me... then that is not okay. How did I get bumped from love to feelings? Uggggggggggh feelings. If he doesnt love me anymore... then the connection is broken... it is no longer a 2-way street.

And to be honest? Im pretty lame in the sack. My bf and I had sex the other day... and with all these doubts in my head, I was just self conscious and anxious... and I was just painfully aware that it wasnt loving or passionate or pure... I have bitemarks on my legs, back and stomach.. and I hate it. I cant fake anything... Its so gut-wrenching when hes like "how does that feel?" and it feels like he doesnt care about me anymore... so I cant be like "oh yes, yessss it feels so GOOD!"... no.. Im more like "Its okay."

Im so used to loving, passionate sex. When I love the man, I go on auto-pilot.. and everything is just great, and better than great. When there is no love... well.. then its just work.. and that sucks.

What is it about being brutally honest that is so appealing, yet sickening? I feel like everyone is seeking out a truth, including myself... but personally... I am almost always disappointed when I stumble across it.

Truth hurts, plain and simple.
Needless to say, Im hurting

The answer is unique depending on the individual... but my opinion is yes. If I ask a date, point-blank... "have you cheated?" and they say yes... Im outta there.

http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g48/starryeyed346/n1057890239_30084932_5545.jpg

I didnt mean to literally commit vehicular manslaughter... not to actually hit a person while driving... I meant like.. punch them while driving. Its an american tradition... it makes no sense.. but we do it.

previet! welcome to the US! I have a love/hate relationship with you already! I dated a russian young man for almost 2 years. He was born in minsk... and we were in love.. until he dumped me. Annnywho.. I've held a grudge ever since. I cant even watch sex and the city anymore.. because she dates that russian. *grumble* his phone # is still in my contacts list under devotchka.... lol.

While you are in the usa... I hope you accomplish the following:
-hit someone, while driving, when you see a volkswagon beatle (yelling SLUG BUG!) or a PT cruiser (CRUISER BRUISER!)
-carve a pumpkin on halloween (I dont care what age you are)
-Go to church. (whether or not you believe, go just for the experience)
-Dont move to brooklyn


the end! :-)

oh.. and watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H02h0nGBryU

lol!
So... many... calories.... I... dont..care...

go for it... lord knows I have enough. creme brule, cookie dough.. one bite cheesecake.. i was eating the steve cobert ice cream earlier. tasty.

I've been really scatterbrained... I keep meaning to put away the leftovers... but theres still a huge pot of spirally spaghetti on the stove... I suppose just in case jon will want some when he gets home from work...

I changed into PJs and im playing mario kart on my wii. (if anyone has a wii and internet and wants to play, email me.. lol)

But I feel better now that ive noticed that my boyfriend filled our freezer with (literally) every ben & jerrys icecream flavor... all the little cartons! and I also just noticed the stock of chocolate in the cupboard. Atta boy.. he's covering all his bases.

Ill eat my blues away in creme brule ben & jerrys... the two men who have never let me down


*edit: I hide my emotions with humor. It only works some of the time.