no worried DK only a dork would say that hahah...great write i enjoyed it

my suggestion " No Place That Far"

use somebody-kings of leon

thanks y'all...

You took a plane and left town
said you were going to see family
i'm not sure i believe that anymore
havent heard from you since you were in the airport

ive tried to ignore this feeling in the pit of my stomach
so i called just once and left a message, needed to know you were ok
you didnt return my call, guess you're to busy
who is she is what i really wanna know

i'll admit, thought you were different
thought what you said, really might be the truth
so much for thinking right
guess i should have known you were too good to be true

I wonder how many times i have crossed your mind
but then im not sure id like the answer
i wonder if she is everything you hoped for
because apparently i wasnt

you could have just told me the truth
sure it would have hurt
but this not knowing is even worse
what happened to common courtesy

do you share with her your thoughts
the ones you would tell me as we layed in bed
or was i just a body there to listen
to the dreams you hope will come true with her

stop playing me for a fool
quit leading me on to believe you feel more than you do
it you wanted a way out, all you had to do was say so
im letting you go now, goodbye...really says it all

very nice

Last night was ever changing,
or maybe thats what you had secretly hoped.
All my life you treated me different then my brother
I asked myself many times in life, what had I'd done to make you dislike me so much?

I'm not sure if it was the 2 bottles of wine or the 6 shots of vodka, that gave me the stregnth to outlash back at you for once and ask a question I had been wanting to ask for so many years, but never enough courage, or possibly just not quite prepared to hear the truth...

"Mom, what did I do to make you treat me the way you do?"

You mummbled under your breath, and I shot back at you in anger.." Speak up, Not woman enough to tell me?"

You snickered and rolled your eyes, but I was expecting that, you've always looked at me like I was something not quite good enough for you...

" Alright dear" sarcastic as you could have possibly made it sound.." You wanna know why I cant stand to look at you?"

Rage at this point boiling deep within.." Yea, actually I would"

She lowered her voice, stared deep into my eyes, and nothing shy of a whisper she said.." Everytime I look at you, I see you're father's eyes looking back at me..."

Confused as hell at this point I said " And..you dont like me for what?"

And then she said it, carefree as if a new found freedom in her was just found " He's not your father.."

At this point I'm lost..Is she drunk? " Who's not my father?, What's not my father?"

And then it hit me..the man I had always known, 28 yrs to be exact, the man who cared for me, encouraged me, stuck up for me, called me his little princess, tucked me in, butterfly kisses...the one man I have always trusted...not my father?

How could this be?...I wanted to ask, Well then who is? Why did you hide this from me?, Why am I being punished for something I could never change....



...But I didn't...I saw him standing in the doorway, and the shock upon his face..hurt...I couldn't hurt this man that way...I loved him..I cared for him..He was my....and then I had my response...I knew at that moment..she may hate me forever..but with pride, and with dignity I simply replied...


" You know you are right, He's not my father...That man, that man right there, with the tears in his eyes, and fear that I may hate him after this...That man..He's not my father...He's my dad"

I walked over an embraced this man before me..gave him a " buttefly kiss, and looked into his loving eyes..I silently mouthed to him.."I love you dad"...

I looked back at my mother, who looked somewhat in a state of shock.." You were right ya know..I do have his eyes...eyes that see ..I'll always be daddy's little girl"...

I think it's good...people may not know you are here...post more often in the forums, let people see your personality...

i dont have this happen often..so this is def a compliment I'M SPEECHLESS...hard to believe i know, but true...you're work is freaking awesome!

I Agree

"ALL OVER YOU"..by LIVE



LYRICS:

Our love is like water
Pinned down and abused for being strange
Our love is no other
Then me alone for me all day
Our love is like water
Pinned down and abused, he he hey!

All over you, all over me
The sun, the fields, the sky
I've often tried to hold the sea
The sun, the fields, the tide

Lay me now, lay me down, oh

Our love is like water
Pinned down and abused for being strange
Our love is no other
Then me alone, for me all day
Our love is like angels
Pinned down and abused, he, he, hey!

All over you, all over me
The sun, the fields, the sky
I've often tried to hold the sea
The sun, the fields, the tide

Pay me now, lay me down
Pay me now, pay me now
Lay me down, lay me down, lay me down

All over you, all over me
All over you , all over me, yeah

Pay me now, lay me down, down
Pay me now, pay me now
Lay me down, lay me down, lay...

Our love is like water
Pinned down and abused for being strange
Our love is no other
Then me alone, he, he, hey!

All over you, all over me
The sun, the fields, the sky
I've often tried to hold the sea
The sun, the fields, the tide

Pay me now, lay me down, down
Pay me now, pay me now
Lay me down, lay me down, lay...

He, heya, he, oh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh!
He, heya... oh

We call it our castle, it's more than just a home
dad's watching t.v., and momma's on the phone
come inside and take a closer look and you will see
there is something special about my family

The coffee is always brewing
in the kitchen where we gather
the place where many stories have been told
and filled with sounds of laughter

our living room is cozy
with plenty of seating for us all
my grandfather's coffee table is centered
where monopoly is played on cold days in fall

the walls are lined with portraits from many years ago
its the memories relived, when you walk down this hall
the carpets kinda worn from the pacing back and forth
when our parents were so worried, because we didnt call


back outside..standing on the deck you overlook the garden
not much of anything when its covered by the snow
but just like this family that i so dearly love
with patience, and nourishment, it too shall grow


** not the greatest i know..just not feeling well...

thanks

thanks doll

awww you know you have my

thank you

It been awhile since ive heard your voice
the one that takes me away from this place
the voice that soothes the hardness
and the pain you easily erase

i miss you

i didnt think it would hurt this bad
to have a break from loving you
didnt know hurt could cut so deep
didnt realize till i felt the truth

i miss you

Nothing seems the same
feels like everything has changed
My life seemed to be headed in the right direction
And now it's been rearranged

i miss you

the phone doesnt ring
no emails to be read
everything that made me feel alive
now only makes me feel dead

i miss you

if only you knew how my every thought
was consumed with thoughts of you
would it make a difference
would you miss me too

i miss you

---and many many more....i u

Didn't mean to hurt you
Only meant the best
Felt all of the emotions
Pure and honest love
Saw you as my future

Your name was sketched
In my planner
Like on a tree
In a heart shape
Our names
With the carving
Of FOREVER

We were going to plant that tree
Someday in the backyard
Of the house we would share
No idea where
That was just Geography though



Our kids were going to climb it
They would have had my dark skin
With your green eyes
We planned them too
I really envisioned our children
That too wasn't a lie

Maybe I didn't really know you
When I believed
You were my soul mate
I did believe it though

Then

You made me feel small
Lessened me in my mind
As all have done prior

Again I felt the frustration
Begging someone to see me
My goodness
True intentions
Pleading for them
To see my love as real
Defending actions
Not intended as perceived

The same series of events
Have plagued my relationships
Therefore my life
Too many times

I realized then
That as not all men
Could possibly make me feel this way
It must be in the choices

That I made in partners



Years of soul-searching
I've learned my pattern
So that I may never again
Follow the wrong path

I didn't mean to hurt you

However

I never intended you to follow my pattern either