chronic mortars thrown by reality
push my troops back to the shore
many of my closes thoughts
have abandoned me in this hopeless war
a wave spills from the castle gates
lead by the arrows of all my wrongs
our shields can stop some accusations from striking
but esoteric shields can only last so long
so atop my fallen flag my enemies eulogize
all that i tried to defend
and like some tragic shakespearean play
i see it is time to die again

life seems to be enclosed
like a giant stadium beneath a great roofed dome
the open plains seem endless
this desert night i may call my final home
if past should catch me for all my crimes
it will kill me where i stand
i have given all my stolen gold to the future for help
though i know it can lend no hand
the horse of existence i ride kicks up the rock and dirt
yet i feel no wind
as i speed along the trails of the present
i see it is time to die again

i awaken on the stage of life
what part must i now play
my path and free will an illusion
given to me by time to show the way
dressing in my favorite mental governor
just one of a billions of souls
every care in the world as i move
only truly happy when there is no real control
and one of these fine days
when i am smashed to bits now and then
i will come to love and understand my necrology
i see it is time to die again

in her office she sits alone
monday morning in her second home
and another weekend fallen to the past
but her hopes and cares she still holds fast
nothing will stop her world
she sees
so she must become what she
believes

mid day her thought turns to heart
the mental movies of loves lost seem to start
still no matter what visions are in her mind
she always finds was wasted time
nothing will bring back the love
she needs
so she must become what she
believes

the ride home is never true relief
just a gap in time to practice her beliefs
till finally in her dreams at this days end
she hides alone waiting for tomorrow to begin again
nothing to do but pray to the future
she agrees
so she will become what she
believes

when i emerge from the subway
from the dank dark underground
i find the early evening sky painting the city
with bright pastels that rain down

through my ignorance through my arrogance
i allowed time that i had caged for you to escape
now i have only few apologies surrounded by roses
that i hope will ease your wait

between the crowds that flow like an angry river
through the noise of the urban metal masses
i see you outside defying the cool wet air
your gentle lips sipping from one of two wine glasses

and though i am rushing to you
your very vision causes me to stand still
your femininity as you sit and watch the world
blurs my mind on what is real

that dress you think is so plain
is now worth more to me than gold
as it clings to your form
a form that i long to hold

my spirit is quickly shaken though
because you have just caught my eye
smelling the flowers you ask the reason i stare
but i could never explain to you why

i wanted to love you as no one had before
to bring you pleasure not just of the physical
but pleasure to reach your core

so i bathed you and bathed me i wash us free of our cares
in the warm waters i bring your head to my chest
my fingers lost in your wet hair

staring into you i need to store you in my heart
i must protect you from yourself
for you are tearing yourself apart

and you must know what i have seen
past all your wounds and scars
standing dripping and naked before me
i know what you are

i was walking along path this morning
one i had not touched in years
one i help to make as a child

i paused as my mind filled with memory
of a woman i had never known
happily tending her garden
the morning sun had shown its strength
she was between me and light
i could see she wore only a dress
i could not move
unknown to her she held me fast
holding a tomato she raised it to her lips
and loved it
glittering juice raced along her fingers
down her hand
twisting and turning around her wrist
down
and at that time i saw her
the curve of her back the valley of her breast
her hair her eyes
at that time i had grown
the child ran deep inside me to play
leaving only hunger
she never knew i had watched her
she had never known my love

then the memory faded into my mind
the path once again
is clear

in a few moments i find my strength
hidden at the very end of me
letting down all my safe guards
i allow that essence to flow free

i explode through great buildings
that now support my weight
i am risen above rooftop and mountain
pass the clouds to meet my fate

i expand so far so quickly
that i have lost all form of cohesion
beyond atmospheres i once needed
beyond the solar regions

till i am no longer complete
my molecules light years apart
the fabric of time is now my blood
the great black holes now feed my heart

celestial bodies pass between my fingers
my thighs my shoulders my brain
the knowledge indescribable
the feeling some unknown pain

so massive i have now grown
that the universe pales in size
i am struck with the sudden notion
that a trillion more such lay outside

and they all are held together by me
i remake what once was torn
a billion trillion universes now make one atom
and from this i am born

i broke away from the thundering ranks of our army
just another soldier fighting just another war
having no real direction i followed a trail
i am sure it was not there before

and the world seem to sing to me
with each step of my horse through the grass
what i could not see far off in the distance
was clear as a stream in winter when it became past

and the sunlight that filtered through the trees
danced about and took the form of your face
i was not sure if i was dreaming
i would swear it was your kiss i could taste

the wound in my side from my battles
robbed me of whatever strength that remained
till i fell to where i would lay one last time
from somewhere deep inside i followed your name

on the discussion of religion
and what reality is
divisions of consciousness
and all the pains and pleasures they can give
my gods are more than legend
at the birth of reality they were designed
my gods are within and without
my gods are truth and time

your deities speak their plans
though impossible to explain
they answer prayers never ask
and their wills always change
my gods are still greater
the only forces that are easily defined
my gods are neither good nor evil
my gods are truth and time

know the world beneath you is real
the air you breathe exist
atoms thought and life move from here to there
it is inevitable you cannot resist
and my gods will always be forever
yet the past is there only sign
and my gods will never care if you believe or not
my gods are truth and time

on the discussion of religion
and what reality is
divisions of consciousness
and all the pains and pleasures they can give
my gods are more than legend
at the birth of reality they were designed
my gods are within and without
my gods are truth and time

your deities speak their plans
though impossible to explain
they answer prayers never ask
and their wills always change
my gods are still greater
the only forces that are easily defined
my gods are neither good nor evil
my gods are truth and time

know the world beneath you is real
the air you breathe exist
atoms thought and life move from here to there
it is inevitable you cannot resist
and my gods will always be forever
yet the past is there only sign
and my gods will never care if you believe or not
my gods are truth and time

why, thank you for the invite my lupine angel... perhaps i shall.

merci cher

you take me out
to show me off to your friends
but as we sit side by side you can see
i will never be like them

i casually rip them apart over dinner
as the wine is spilt blood red
my salivation burns like acid
rendering their conversations dead
and you look to me in anger
there is hatred in your stare
your friends have all grown silent
they regard me now in fear
see i am anti social
and i am untamed
if you thought you could somehow change me
then you too must be insane

pain and pleasure
are one and the same
so i will melt you
till you breath my name

my attack is endless
i eat you whole
i reach into your spirit
and come down on your soul
churning together
like a sea of liquid fire
claws dig into flesh
and leave trails of desire
i never sleep in the night
but i allow you to rest
as moisture drips from my mouth
at the thought of our decaying sex

for every bit of you
that is corrupted by my bite
is a little bit of me
that is dragged into the light

i am that voice
you hear in your head
the whisper on your lips
after everything you have said
and you smile
because my poison is good for you
like a drug
my passions will always seem new
when i take you
you will know that i am infinite
no matter who you love
i am present
let me into your life
let me into your world
and heaven help you girl

the first person to think and realize there self existence.

within your sphere
that is your center
that is your universe
in which i live
where i stand
with open hand
to receive the feeling
that you give

you shine forever
to merge with night
returning my sight
till all is clear
to where you live
within my universe
within my center
that is my sphere

so many spirits
so many worlds
so many creatures must live as one
we can ponder the wonders of the future
but in the end it is the present that must be done

take your net cast it out over the lake
draw it in and except your fate


through all the forest
through all the oceans
through every city that lay in between
we can travel to the ends of the earth
but it is of what is beyond that we always dream

draw back your bow let it fly
what can you catch if you do not try


have faith in yourself
have faith in the past
have faith in the child that you set free
we can make our lives complete with hope
but remember the only thing stronger is what we can see

turn the ground sow your seeds
you can harvest whatever you believe

thank you venusrose... nice name by the way

thank you

exhibit a

walking with the scientist that lives inside my heart
and the priest inside my mind
i find again we are all locked in debate
on how my reality should be defined

suddenly a frog appeared in the grass
i thought to myself how is it that it is alive
at only one hundredth of my perception
does it still exist when i close my eyes

i smiled as the mystery deepened
i reached for the frog but came up with a stone
whatever destiny the frog held
i would not know since i held the rock alone


exhibit b

i hefted this weight
this solid piece of earth
and i pondered if it had a life too
i wondered of its spiritual worth

but as i turned lost in my thoughts
i fell to the side and sort of took a spill
i was pitched down a steep embankment
and came to rest in a sun soaked cornfield

i then remembered the rock i dropped
that fell from my grasp and into the air
whatever destiny the stone held
i would not know because i landed here


exhibit c

at the centered of this field
was the corpse of an old scarecrow
it lay in a shallow pond
that was made from the seasons ebb and flow

its tattered rags served as a net
some tiny fish were within confined
their entire reality existed here
in a microscopic world so unlike mine

i lifted their veiled barrier for a better look
and watched them leave to my dismay
whatever destiny the fish held
i would not know since they swam away


furthermore

after my day of musing
about this and about that
after a bath and warm slippers by the fire
i sifted through the facts

i thought about the frog the stone the fish
and about what each had shown
but whatever destiny i held
to them it would never be known


in closing

my reality is defined by me
whether i open or close my eyes
surly your reality would cease to be
if by chance one day i died

we are all single universes
and every universe can effect
but whatever destiny you hold
i would never know if we had not met