Heartfelt and hugs

Cold, cold air tense within her chest...
The rock, unsteady, beneath her feet.
Hold it, keep it in...a tingling sensation...
Now leap with no regrets.

Falling...falling...frigid wind against the face...
And the ears...but not the eyes...they are sealed with iced-over tears.
Arms take feathery stations...a graceful pose...of desperation.

Let go...below...almost there...
that watery destination...
that final peace...
where body and blackened depths collide...
then co-mingle effervescently...
and time slows down and cradles the two...
in tragic harmony.

Nice :)...liked this one...

...it's far better to let go and just be...nobody ever intends to cause harm...and it's usually a misunderstanding from the start...

hard to be that part of the storm that is calm...

beautiful

Hunted intensively
the prey
most defenselessly
cornered, afraid...
stead stunning
gaze piercing
skin crawling
fear thrashing
mind blazing
heart galloping
jaw clenching
stomach twisting
muscles shearing
bones breaking
blood flowing
heart slowing
eyes drifting
breath sputtering
tension giving
life leaving
soul searching

It's almost embarrassing, the simple joys that bring tears of joy to my eyes these days and these times...

I just need an honest hug, heartfelt true and deep. And I need them to keep coming...not to ever go away, to soothe my soul.

Let me look into eyes that will engulf me and protect me, eyes that love me, without hesitation or worry. I am pathetic right now, mop me up off the floor already.

I need love...in all it's forms...laughter, smiles, touch...I keep waiting, I keep looking, keep my chin up, I do. But right this very moment, I feel defeated...and tired of putting on a cheerful face, and reminding myself...of that "someday". I don't do that to mask me from people, I do it to continue existing.

I saw that vision yesterday...yesterday I saw something I didn't think existed...and allowed myself to open up to the possibility of that ideal. It was all in my head...oh I did taste of it...and allowed my beautiful mind to imagine me there forever...it's a beautiful place...it was almost real. I needed it too much.

It's not fair...the child within cries. You cannot make someone love you. You never have been able to. You've played the disappointment game with yourself one too many times...preparing for the worst that may be coming, pushing those rejection pains deep down and away from sight. You're just not good enough...or, they're just not worthy enough for you... or broken themselves. Either way...the end is the same...you're alone...again.

Where's the grace in all this? I'm more graceful than this, but I'm seething too. These two states cannot co-mingle in me right now. See...a purge, simple, heartfelt...angry, sad, lonely...all now mostly excised from my mind and my heart. Tomorrow, you would be surprised to know...I will feel much better...and will continue on my search for that "someone" and that "someday", as I always do. Adieu.

That write is more difficult than it looks to be...
I loved it.

Aching!

To look at your face while you sleep,
and feel a warmth come over me...
and nestle so restfully into your shoulder,
all the while, tracing you by fingertip...
re-painting your portrait,
burning this very image into my mind.
I shall not forget...a single brush,
a single breath,
the softness of your skin,
the fuzzy fine hair on your arms,
the clench of your jaw as you dream,
the way your leg intertwines with mine...
in lazy, lucid response as I drape it over yours.
These moments are mine to behold...
to archive, to retrieve..
on a lonely day...on a dreary day.
I steal them...they are mine.
And yet..they, my own private library of memories...
cause a longing in me,
I cannot describe...even here...even now.
Not for what once was...
but for what I imagine the future can hold,
and I whisper a little prayer...
maybe...one day...I'll feel that again.

Conveyed very well...

Many thanks dc and cy...always gracious with your comments...

Good stuff! I like reading it many times over...an exciting and thrilling ride...

You're so sweet Kelli...I see we're up at the same time...and I read yours too. I like that it's a bit wild...feels very right...I will post there too!

Thank you!

Whisper a trident…fly, fly, fly…on the breath of the wind…barely there…

This flooded instant…I could dance and twirl and glow and smile eyes a-twinkle.

A single crumb of that could feed me, a glimmer of it could sustain me…

‘till next time…when I just can’t resurrect my dead-beaten body again…to face this world alone.

To be found nowhere hiding behind a magnificent tree…

Gentility…caress my heart and bind it in strength…

Allow me this tangibility…to feather-trace my face…revealing a softness in it’s place…

Remind me over and again…while tossing random thoughts on a pillow of clouds…against your steady weight…

How you will be there…how you will keep here…and always breathe me into you…

...I had a dream one night...
or so I thought it was...

Floating in a bubble of gray haze...
Time...went away for awhile...
The haze masked my eyes...
Eyes blinded...voice muted...
I could only sense...only feel...
A palpable energy...so familiar...
Another soul?...in it's purest form?...
One that I knew...once...when?
This feeling of familiarity..security...safety...
Found again?...A visit from another place?...another time?
In a moment...recognition...ecstatic joy...
Home again...found again...
I know this soul somehow...I know you...
I didn't know until this moment...I've missed you...
Two souls...existing in a timeless bubble...in a dream state.
Healing deep-seated sorrows...
Softly intertwining...ebbing and flowing...
Merging...rejoicing...
This energy complementing me...completing me...

I awoke from this dream state with a start...
More happy than sad...
This gift...the feelings...
Have not been forgotten...
And I'm glad to have remembered them again today.

beautifully done!

...I'm there too, sweetheart , nice job!

wisdom is acquired knowledge...over time...