A constant is needed so that we may recognize a change when it does come a long, thus I am consistently constant

Simply to spit out my wise words of hard earned wisdom and prattle endlessly on and on in the poetry forum..as if any of this ever changed..cryptically muttering on and on

I am far from boring and far from being bored , the voices in my skull are so very entertaining tonight

Constant noises,screechings, mutterings
Babbling ceaselessly
Sqauwking rrrrrrreeeepppeeeaaaatttttteeeedddddlllllyyyyyyy
Over and over inside my head
Cannot shut it off will not shut it off
Mind control at its best
Now please let me rest
Constant whining of maladies
Constant pimping of native culture
Make a buck make a buck
Quick make a buck
Angst you say angst angst
You scream emo emo emo
Dressed in black and because I cry
Emo hahahahahah if you only knew
Cannot shut it of, will not shut it off
Constant flicking of the switch
While muttering to your self I am nothing but a biotch
Slam my head into the wall over and over just to shut me up
As if I could, as if I could
Dirty dirty dirty..spasm, eclipse of the mental faculties
Pills pills popping pilllssssss to cure all of your ills
Pusher man pusher man pull out your prescription pad
Give me a cure, find the switch,make me your pill popping biotch
One to cure me one to make me grow small one to make grow tall
Falling down the rabbits hole, Alice in Pharmaceutical Land
Prozac, Zantac, Xanax, Prilosec, Advil, Midol, Atavan
Until you're positive she is negative
Don't make no love, even with a glove
Creams to make your skin glow, creams to make your hair grow
Lick it before you stick it, bend it like beckham
Needle in the arm, needle in tha ass, dripping and itching
Pissing in pain and now and now and now mind seems to be collapsing
Alice in Pharmaceutical Land, falling down the rabbits hole
Falling over and over, can't tell bottom from top
Side to side, right from wrong. left from left
All it seems to be is a giant spiral and look now look now look now
Fade to black....mist swirls...final credits roll..the end

Eyes are windows to the soul
Or so they say
Yet my windows are clouded and dirty
I wish the world not to view
What I treasure and hold closely
So pardon me if I do not allow you to see
So laugh if you will, joke if you must
I don't give a damn you see
If I choose to keep it all to myself
Thats my prerogative
Only a blind man could see, for he has the true vision
Of that which I seek, I don't give a damn if your feelings are hurt
I have no time to give, no energy to expend
So my windows are clouded and dirty
Into my soul you will never see
I trust no one and let no one in
Despite what the general population thinks
So stand there and peek if you must
You won't see a damn thing but gray clouds and dust
An open book once I was, and now I slam the cover shut
Tuck myself away upon the shelf,a collection of self awareness
Wasted on the public venue,windows to the soul..
windows that are now empty...

Twitching, alternating between calm and spastic
Frantic and manic, violent and peaceful
Madness erupts, catastrophic annihilations
Shallow inhalations,let me fly free
Keeping me in jar, I am the fairy with broken wings
Government keeping us down, when my smile is nothing more than a frown
Beating my wings against the wall of the jar frantically, snapping them
Set me free I scream repeatedly over and over until I am hoarse
And yet no one hears a single word of my plea
Ohhhh set me free from these chains of self imposed slavery
You know not what is in my mind
Just simple reasons you seem to find
When it comes down to the wire
I am far more complex than you could deduce
And now you beg for a truce
I am not in a war with your mind
I cannot fight that which is unarmed
Twitching, alternating between calm and spastic
Frantic and manic, violent and peaceful
Madness erupts, power corrupts
Mind no longer mended, seemingly its bent and twisted
Shattered remains of humanity scattered across the screen
As my ears bleed
I make no sense and yet I make perfect sense
Nonsensical twisted now it becomes sensible
Open your mind, open your fukcing mind she silently screams
No pays her any attention , just another face in the crowd
Trapped in a jar, fairy with broken wings
Just put the crack pipe down, change your plastic smile
Its time for your self imposed frown, you know nothing of life
Just what you see on your sh*itty tee vee, click click bang bang boom
Informant to the man, paid for your mindless crack laced mutterings
Spiting out a rhyme as if its truth , when in fact you wouldn't know truth
If it bit you on the ass, cut of your nose to spite your face
Hollywood has become your saving grace, flashy preachers full of venomous hate
Fill your mind with proclamations of a shattered nation, while they pay for sex from a crack addicted whore
Twitching , alternating between calm and spastic, her tits made of plastic
And yet you pray to her as if she was a god, spastic , frantic, manic
inhalations of the poisoned air, filling your dreams with falsehoods and plastic body parts
Twitching indeed, shaking with greed, gotta have it gotta have it now
Madness erupts, power corrupts, and I just don't give a fukc

DKW my sister I do so love you!!

Thank you Momma, I love you too No worries all is well in my small universe

Always room for you Momma

Stop that you!! Naming me bunnies like that!! They are so not hassenpeffer!!

I write as if I cannot shut up
The words threatening to drown my very soul
And so I write as if I cannot shut up
My voice as always is silent, so few truly hear it
Yet my words, my simple words speak volumes
Reaching out from the screen and grabbing onto your very core
Every word emits a feeling, sometimes its raw, full of pain
Others its soft, gentle full of love
Always a message to impart, an urge to be heard
And so I write as if I cannot shut up
Yet nary a word slips past my lips
The silent poet, quietly she sits, writing as if she cannot shut up

Into the fire I now step
Will I get burned
Or am I made of asbestos
Fireproof, flame retardant
Will I get burned
As I reach out my hand
Plunging it deeply into the flame
Burning so brightly
Raging with desire
Flames leaping around my hand
And in the blink of an eye
They shoot through me
And I survive..not a singe mark
Not a burn, and I become the flame
As it now burns even more brightly
Into the fire you now step
Will you get burned
Or are you too made of asbestos
Fireproof, flame retardant
Will you get burned
As you reach out your hand
Plunging it deeply into my flames
Burning so brightly
Raging with desire
Flames now leap around your hand
And in the blink of an eye
They shoot through you
And you survive..not a singe mark
Not a burn, and you become a part of my flame
As we burn even more brightly

Somewhere over the rainbow...
Where I never thought I would know
Never thought I would see
Never thought it would happen to me
Longed for it
Desired it
Wanted, ached, needed it
Resigned myself to what it was
Never , never did I realize what it would be
Somewhere over the rainbow.....
Where the colors meld and merge
Becoming something new
From death rises life
And life sinks into death
The cycle never ending
The circle unbroken
It is what it will be
Now it has touched me
Somewhere over the rainbow...
Is where I am dancing through out the color strand
Vivid hues, brilliantly blinding
Wrapped around me now
I breathe because I am
I am simply me
Nothing more
Nothing less
A piece of the color strand, more than a mere grain of sand
Somewhere over the rainbow....

A sandwich grabbed quickly
Hardly even tasted as it is practically swallowed whole
Looking up, out the window
Sun shines brightly but the wind is touched with cold
Mind wanders from the task at hand
As time slips away like grains of sand
I rise now wandering about my room
Trailing my fingers softly over the piano keys
Fussing with this
Fussing with that
Never really settling, just wandering from thing to thing
Unrest is in my soul, wary now, looking, waiting
For the other shoe to drop, for the bomb to fall
Waiting ,looking..on edge
It will come as it always does
Something to mar the perfection of my soul
Just a ripple is all it will take
Old behavior this I know
But oh so hard to let go
Questioning every thing once again
Waiting for it to end
As it always does
Needing something, a word, a phrase
An action, a gesture..something to snap me from this state
Make me realize its simply just projection
This expectation..of failure
Just a word, a phrase, an action a simple gesture
Is all it will take..as I stand here now and wait

I'm just a girl
But even I can plainly see
You suffer from a broken heart
One not so easy to mend

Doctor cannot explain
Any of the pain
It manifests itself
In so many ways

I'm just a girl
But even I can plainly see
You suffer from a broken heart
One not so easy to mend

The heart can bend
But only for so long
Before it snaps in half
Laying on the ground tattered and torn

I'm just a girl
Nothing more, nothing less
But even I can plainly see
Your heart was left a mess

No matter what I say
No words can ease your pain
No actions I will do
Will mend your broken heart thats been torn in two


I'm just a girl
But even I can plainly see
Your hearts been broken
No words need to be spoken

I'm just a girl
Nothing more nothing less
But even I can plainly see
Your heart was left in a mess

Intense and so very real..no barefooted thoughts here just thoughts of floating

Momma I am so sorry

*slips in to feed the fishies, chickens and the bunnies I brought just now*

Much love Familia

Once I was riddled with the ugliest of scars
Hate, anger and pain
Once my heart was left shattered, scattered and useless
It is no more
I now carry the most beautiful scars
My heart is now mended, healed and whole
In between the beats of my own heart
His name is whispered
He is echoed within my soul
I am now simply his
As he is simply mine
Once I was riddled with the ugliest of scars
Hate, anger and pain
It is no more
I now carry the most beautiful of scars
His love

You point your finger and accuse
Crying out that I have done you wrong
Spitting your venom out,
Trying desperately to fill everyone with hate
You beg and plead to know what you have done
Filling my head with your venom and lies
Striking out at those you called friend
Slithered along the path of the one who was a snake
Claiming your lies to be truths
Seeping your self in her lies and treason
Playing her game, claiming that truth was your reason
Hurting others time and again, simply because they were not thin
Your written words oh how they did sting
Causing more than one pain
And still you beg and plead to know what you have done
Open your eyes blind man, open your ears deaf man
Your truths are lies covered in sugar to make them sweet
And you wonder why I chose to walk away
Sorry but your game I didn't want to play
Your gossip , lies and venom, more than I could bare
A friend you claim would have never walked away
When in reality you were never a friend to any you claim to be
A sick and twisted game is what you seek, vengeance is what you seek
Of wrongs done to you in the past, forcing everyone that you meet to pay your price
Friend, I think not, just a pawn in your twisted sick life
Truth you cannot speak, for it is unknown to you
Whispering of your every sexual conquest , playing your tapes of nothing but static
Begging me to hear something that just wasn't there
Smearing another's name to everyone you spoke to
Making her seem she was not what she appeared to be
When in truth it is you that is not what you appear to be
Truth you swear by, but sadly it is twisted to fit your game
Twisted to turn into a lie, filled with venom and hate
And because of all of this I chose to walk away
No longer able to bare your hate