Ps You're totally not an idiot. I'm a frantic mess myself, lol

I have spring break too! Do something fun
(I'm being a zombie on thursday for the Resident Evil 5 release at GameStop. It's thise whole midnight release zombie attack simulation. And I'm going to New York Saturday cause my friend is going to be an extra in the new angelina jolie film, Salt

BUMP

Yeah. Just want to talk to people while I work on my paper for Modern Philosophy

Cool

Do you have AIM or MSN?

People should me my online friends.

Mail me if you want to chat on AIM or MSN

(this is a piece on my experience walking from the bus station to my job as a receptionist)

The bus screeched to a halt. I didn’t bother to get up right away and run to the exit. The clamor to hurry off was too dangerous, and I didn't want to get trampled. I was one of the last off.

On my way to the curb, a man yelled “hey, red coat!” and I didn’t bother to turn around to give him the satisfaction that I heard him so he could make fun of me or say something obscene. (What is it with men yelling the names of the items of clothing I’m wearing at me?) Instead, I walked casually to the intersection and though I stepped in nothing, I felt some cold liquid splash against my exposed ankle and then drip into my heels. I looked down. It didn’t appear to be anything deadly, my skin was still on, the same color. Though it could have been something vial, like urine. I hoped it was water.

At the intersection, for the first time, a man in an SUV stopped to let me cross.

I passed the same building, the same construction, and the same God-damned truck parked in the middle of the same God-damned sidewalk. I had to walk around, back into the street.

Another intersection, and the Italian man who sells hamburgers, hot dogs, and fries from his ice cream-esque truck asked me, for the third time now, “Are you hungry yet?” But this time when I said, “No thanks,” he replied with “Are you sure?”

The walk is long, but that isn’t the biggest problem. Trying to dodge traffic while crossing a four lane main road is the biggest problem. But I succeeded, as always.

I passed RISD, and wished I had applied.

I come to another difficult intersection, but I am put at ease. The cross seems treacherous. Cars are stopped around the crosswalk, and considerably not on it. However, the road has two lanes, in which cars go opposite ways, and there was a large truck that prevented me from seeing if anyone was coming from the other side. Luckily, a very short, almost midget-like, bold man stepped in front of me and walked across without looking either way. I followed close behind him, using him like a shield. I was grateful that I didn’t have to risk the danger of crossing halfway and leaning into the road to peer around the truck to make sure no cars were coming. I should have told him what a favor that was.

A man in a station looked exactly like Gunn. Ironically, he was in the road right across from the statue made of guns around which five middle-aged woman were chatting on benches. I wondered if they were married, had boyfriends, or were happy.

I passed a couple of long-necked women and I wished my neck was long.

Several older men and woman smiled at me as we walked past each other. And all the while I’ve been checking my skirt every two minutes because the zipper continually unzips and the skirt has become too big for my waist. I feel as though it will slip off as I walk.

Luckily, David spotted me from across the street. He yelled “Hey beautiful” and we walked the longest stretch of walk to the office together. We talked about the weekend, the weather, the guy that apparently was looking at me and walked into a meter. And then he talked to a police officer about the woman on the side of the road with two flat tires. And I was glad I didn’t have to walk the whole way alone.

It wasn't.

I actually get hit on by older guys all the time.

I just want someone closer to my age. Like between 18-30.

We broke up. Long story.

I have tons of homework to do but the loneliness is getting to me ><

I'm just, not tired.

What is everyone else doing?

Thank you everyone for the support and advice.

I really appreciate it *hugs all around*

I was/ am his best friend. We're staying friends.

His closest guy friend? I've been going out drinking with him.

It hurts so so much. He told me he wanted to be with me forever, that he wanted to get married. But now he says that he hasn't been happy the past couple of months, which I don't understand because I've been doing so much for him. I don't think it was me that made him unhappy, I think it's the uncertainty of his life right now.

He says theres a possibility that we'll get back together, but that he needs to be his own person for a while, to be alone. He wants space.

It hurts, because he's always seemed to be the one who loved me more than I loved him. And now this.

Could I have some advice on how to cope? I'm really hurting right now. I don't think I'll find anyone else who would be interested in me. I'm so scared I'm going to spend the rest of my life alone ><

Come on people. It's an opportunity to discuss things with people, see what you have in common, if you don't know what to talk about.

Sorry, typo. It's fixed.

Sheesh guys, no one can be perfect

If you would like people to get to know you, and strike up conversations, fill this out in a reply to this post. It's also fun if you're bored:

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

02) What was your dream growing up?

03) What talent do you wish you had?

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

05) Favorite vegetable?

06) What was the last book you read?

07) What zodiac sign are you?

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

09) Worst Habit?

10) What is your favorite sport?

11) Do you have a Pessemistic or Optimistic attitude?

12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with the person above you?

13) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

14) Tell us one weird fact about you.

15) Do you have any pets?

16) What is your first impression of the person above you?

17) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

18) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

19) Would you be the crime partner or conscience of the person above you?

20) What color eyes do you have?

21) Ever been arrested?

22) Bottle or can soda?

23) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

24) What's your favorite place to hang at?

25) Do you believe in ghosts?

26) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

27) Do you swear a lot?

28) Biggest pet peeve?

29) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

30) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

31) Do you believe in God?

Thank GOD it's Friday.

He does. A co-worker told him.

It's weird because I'm 20, and he's like 40. I should have mentioned that.