I just want to say thank you to everyone that is helping me through my difficult time. I'm glad I join this community, you guys are awesome. Hopefully I'll make some new friends and new memories here as well. Again I just wanna say Thanks.

I'm really trying to fix myself up and be a strong character, but its so hard. I really don't know what to do. How can I change myself... I'm really am lost in life. I just wanna focus on my job, foreal tho. I just can't keep a straight mind. My thoughts tend to shift to old memories that hurts. I need help. I barely can sleep. And I really feel bad because this isn't the right place for this kinda topic and I feel like writing a whole page. I dunno I think I need some kinda help.

I'm really not use to this kind of exposure, I never been on forums especially on a dating site. And you are right. So many things is in my head that I couldn't sleep, eat and think. I know I have low self esteem as well. But in real life, I always pretend like I'm confident and no one could tell how deeply wounded I am. The truth is I really want to focus on my job. But its so hard when I could only think of my BF...

Am I ugly? Please be honest.

I guess it was simply a one minded side thing and I was only believing things that wasn't there. I knew already from the start we weren't gonna be dating or anything, I was content with being friends that way if things go bad we can still have each other... but I guess there was more then that to it... I think I understand quite well now.

Thanks Totage.

I dunno... It gets me thinking that maybe she wanted me out of her life but she was feeling too guilty to tell me because of everything we gone through. And I understand what you mean, I have just return to my old circle of friends and they welcome me as if I was always there. But I sorta wanted to stay away from that crowd because it was a bit negative and I did got away with her help... but its not like she disappeared... she's ignoring me on purpose. Not responding to me at all. Text, Email, Facebook, and Phone Calls. Can anyone relate and tell me why she's doing this? Maybe she just needs to forget about me for her to truly be happy?

We were like a couple but wasn't. When we first met we always just liked each others company and I somehow moved myself in her house. She never complained about it and every night I would come by and sleep over. We truly weren't never lovers but we did do things like a real couple would done. She became my best friend. For 3 years we were living like this. Just the two of us. I really loved living like that. I didn't need anything else. She always kept me company, kept me laughing and motivated. But just about 2 weeks ago though... She found someone she likes. Someone that I know and trust as well. He is a good guy for her. I told her that too and supported her with it because I know she deserves it. I do love, and care for her so much and I want her to be happy. But now that she's with him I feel like I lost a big part of me.
She doesn't talk to me or text me. Worse of all she doesn't reply. Just like that... I lost my best friend. She was my only friend I had and only person that cared about me. I just don't understand why she stopped talking to me at all. And I know it wasn't her boyfriend that stops her. He even said it himself that he would want us to be friends still. Why would she change so suddenly like that? I supported her with her decision and I never objected once about it. I lost my best friend, without knowing why and it left me so lonely.