You have hurt me repeatedly. Sometimes it was my fault, but this last one is on you. You may not have lied, but you weren't forthcoming about everything either. I am hurt that you could trivialize what we had, what we shared, what we did together. Maybe this time YOU will see what you missed out on.

not crazy at all. i write frequently...especially when dealing with relationships and emotions. sometimes when i write, stuff comes out that i wasn't even aware of. i learn a lot from myself about myself through my writing. good luck.

I wish you luck with that, Wolf. I'd suggest you write a lot before he comes back, process it all. Sorry, not sure what else to suggest.

I think I'm going to up my age requirement. These really young ones are making me crazy.

How's everyone doing?

Continued from previous thread...


So here's a thread to write love notes. Secret or not so secret, it makes no difference. Express the love in your heart in here!

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I always loved this thread because it was pretty positive.

Who's on YOUR mind? What would you like to say to them right now? Share with us here. Let the love flow. Friends, family, romantic partners, companions, whoever. Share the love!

yup. nothing wrong with it so long as all parties are on the same page.

That's awesome! I found some guy on another site. He messaged me first and I responded. We had a week of back and forth messages, talked on the phone, talked about meeting. And I don't know, maybe he's just busy now but the last message I got was on Friday and it was short. So I guess I probably annoyed him away.

Thinking that I have only three hours of time alone left and I have too much to do, no idea where to start, so wasting time on the computer is a good idea. :eyeroll:

Why is everything so difficult and demanding my attention right now? Everything is crashing together. I know it's a good thing and that the greater good will come out of it. I don't know what that will be. I'm okay with that, but I wish it would slow down and let me process. It's too much all at once. Thank you, Universe.

so what's up peeps?

Okay. I think that I need to stop thinking. I think that by thinking about each individual thing that I may be subconsciously trying to exert my will against the Universe. I just can't think that I have any idea which way things are going to go because I have NO idea which way things are going to go. With regard to ANY situation.

I think I have some readings to do. Don Miguel Ruiz (his Four Agreements) and maybe a bit of Millman (his Laws of Spirit). And whatever else jumps out at me. I need to get back to paying attention to the world with my intuition rather than my senses.

And just like that...minutes, everything has changed once again. I really don't understand. But I'm okay with that. I have no choice if I want to remain sane.

It looks as though we may be having a late night meeting. To talk. And whatever else we want to do.

well alright. giggity.

We've had a few Mingle newcomers come in. Welcome to all. Welcome to everyone in fact. Respect is all that matters on this thread.

Peace to all and to all a good night. After I write my love note for the evening.

we were absolutely in love with each other right from the beginning. then the message started in his head that he shouldn't be with me because of the age difference. and so he fought it. he fought us. and he went back and forth because of it. i understood what he was going through. so when he came back, i accepted it. i understand why he felt the need to flee. and after he came back the second time, i knew that he would always come back.

in fact...after i began typing this, i sent him a text. and now we are communicating again. and i'll just see how it goes. so thank you.

Yeah, it's just this utter lack of communication out there. It pisses me off. If people would just say what they mean and mean what they say and be f#cking honest with each other, people would just be happier.

My last posting, however, isn't exactly about something like that either. I have been hurt by others in the past, but that's not where I'm at right now. I'm not hurting at all. I'm absolutely fine.

I just don't know what I want and I think I need to figure that out. I end up hurting people, probably more often than I am hurt by others. And I never want to hurt anyone ever. It's never my intention. And most of the time, I don't even realize why or how I'm doing it. I'm not oblivious to the feelings of others by a long shot. I think I just take everything, absolutely everything, at face value. So when others aren't shooting straight and I'm assuming they are and I react based on my assumption that what they have said/done is truth, they end up getting hurt. I do too most of the time. But I always get blamed for it too.

Too much thinking! I gotta go to bed.

I'm thinking that I'm pretty chill considering how overflowing my life is right now. Lots to do. Lots to do.

Thanks for that reality filled response. I know he doesn't know what he wants. He's been back and forth a few times, telling me that he couldn't see me anymore, that it wasn't right, then coming back. I tried to find out where he stood. He told me that I couldn't be his girlfriend, that I should find someone closer to my own age. I didn't go out and look. I never go out and look. It just happens. We meet who we meet when we are supposed to meet them, though we may not know why at the time, or ever for that matter. I wasn't afraid to continue, but I did pull back some emotionally after his departure just after New Years.

Thomas wasn't just a boytoy. He knew that. I never viewed him that way. The first night I didn't take him home to **** him. I thought he was cool and interesting and I wanted to talk to him and show him my wood because he was as into nature as I was. I honestly didn't think he'd have any interest in getting physical with me. But he did. And then I figured I'd never hear from him after that. But I did. And then it was up/down/back/forth for three months. When we finally reached what I thought was our agreement...IT IS WHAT IT IS...things were smooth until this. And now I wonder...maybe I don't really know what I want either.

I'm getting confused. But I refuse to get sad. It will all work out the way it's supposed to. I surrender to the Universe. What will be will be.

Ok cool. I'm not any of those things either so I'm still just me. Phew. Dig it.

I think maybe I was getting too confident thinking that everything was going to be the way it's supposed to be. I mean, I still believe that it will be. It is what it is. It will be what it will be. I believe that. I guess I was just thinking that it was going to come together and make sense sooner. I apparently have a lot more things undone than I had realized. It's strange though because I'm not confused with each thing individually. It's when I try to look at them all at once that they don't make sense, that I don't make sense, that I wonder when everything WILL make sense, when I WILL finally understand.

And I think this Note is disjointed enough that it won't make sense to anyone else either. Welcome to my brain. Welcome to my world. Aha!