Here's mine, Kerry.

Yes, Deb. We are good. Struggling with normal relationship crap, but working together to work through everything. I'm happier than I can ever remember being.

Well, I'm happy. That's new! I'm in a cohabitational, functional, happy relationship!

How are you?

hi Kerry!

Cody! Long time no see!

Everyone else, hi too! Still busy. Still happy.

So last night was a mess and I dumped it all on you. You responded by writing me a two page note where you actually expressed your thoughts and feelings. I was afraid to read it this morning. I was afraid that my four pages would have pushed you away and made you run. But, no. Instead, I think you understood more and responded with affirmation. Thank you.

Thank you for trying to understand me. Thank you for caring for me. Thank you for wanting to be with me. Thank you for wanting it to work. Thank you for wanting to do the work that it requires to have a real, healthy, loving relationship.

I want to be with you. I still don't know how it happened, but I want to be with you now. Always. I think we can do this.

We live in the suburbs of Philly...40 miles or so outside. I don't know if the northeast is just more progressive that way or what.

I don't know. It doesn't seem to be a big deal around here. I see interracial couples everywhere. I'm sure some people still judge, but who cares? I'm happy. He's happy. We like each other. No one around us (who matters anyway) has ever said anything negative. Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter.

The human race, agreed. I would also agree with the person who said it was more about cultural differences than color. If two people share similar cultural backgrounds or can merge their cultural backgrounds respectfully, color is absolutely not an issue. This is my only serious "interracial" relationship. Color doesn't even come into the equation. We're just who we are and we dig it.

I feel good about us. Really good. I miss you as always. I'm thrilled that you remembered to come see me after school today though. That meant so much to me. I just figured you would forget. And I would not have been mad. The fact that you showed up though...yes, very happy. And yeah, I think we'll be great. I think we already are.

Is everything better now? Do you understand? Stress plus me is a bad combo apparently. Will you let it go? It's going to happen again. It just will. It's the nature of my life. Everything cycles. It may be a lot to deal with, but am I not worth it? Last night was good, right? We understood each other. I still have fear. You said you wouldn't be apprehensive now. I guess that means you understand. I miss you. Six more hours.

I'm glad you're starting to talk, even if it's stuff that I don't really want to hear. I need to hear it because you need to say it. I am a lot of work, but I told you that from the beginning. At least you're not giving up on me. But perhaps I should be feeling apprehensive now? Perhaps I should be nervous? I'm sure we'll talk about it more, though I know you don't want to talk about it. You just want to chill. Chilling is good too. I just want us to be happy.

Yeah, you're right. I want my hands on you all night.

Yep, Princess. Everything is just dandy!

Yeah, ok. This will be interesting.

Sexy, sexy...can't wait to get you alone tonight.

I really need you right now. I hope you can help me through this.

Megastupendous. Yes. I forget the other word, but yes. Yes, yes, yes. Always, yes. And I love the CD.

I slept 17 hours yesterday and just had a three hour nap. Now I'm going to do some work to be ready for tomorrow. And I look forward to seeing you in a few hours.

I just want to be with you. Always. Forever. Yes.

Thank you. Just for being there and listening. That's all you really do.