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Sat 07/26/08 08:18 PM


i've already polished off a pound of barbecue, half a medium pizza, cheese......making a pb and j now

Don't do it!!

Put down the knife!

Step away from the jar.

It doesn't have to be like this.



better this than going off on my stepmom before i leave here.

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Sat 07/26/08 08:13 PM
i've already polished off a pound of barbecue, half a medium pizza, cheese......making a pb and j now

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Sat 07/26/08 07:58 PM
i've already gone through a whole six pack of oodles of noodles.

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Sat 07/26/08 07:55 PM
anyone else dealing with it?

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Sat 07/26/08 07:27 PM


should have mentioned that i'm unusual as far as bipolar patients......

i don't show outward signs of the rage or depressions, and i haven't had a mania stage in nearly seven years.......


and the medication doens't slowly quit working for me, IT STOPS SUDDENLY, landing me in the hospital.....

so far i've, since age 9, been on tegretol, mellaril, lithium, klonopin, topamax, prozac, wellbutrin, abilify, and trileptal...........

i'm currently taking lamictal and effexor XR
how is that working out? My daughter is on lamictal - she has taken prozaz, lexapro, abilify, risperdal and trazodone...


well i've been on lamictal since november and iit's by far the best mood stabilizer i've ever been placed on....just make your daughter watches out for the rash.

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Sat 07/26/08 07:18 PM
Edited by Amberdee29045 on Sat 07/26/08 07:20 PM
should have mentioned that i'm unusual as far as bipolar patients......

i don't show outward signs of the rage or depressions, and i haven't had a mania stage in nearly seven years.......


and the medication doens't slowly quit working for me, IT STOPS SUDDENLY, landing me in the hospital.....

so far i've, since age 9, been on tegretol, mellaril, lithium, klonopin, topamax, prozac, wellbutrin, abilify, and trileptal...........

i'm currently taking lamictal and effexor XR


if these quit working on me i'm seriously thinking about the ECT....might not have a choice....

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Sat 07/26/08 06:37 PM

Don't walk, Amber, run. The sooner you get it over with the sooner you will be happy. Just got back from helping a friend move. Six pickup loads of stuff and moving in this heat. I met her boyfriend and he didn't say hi. She gave him the finger as he walked out the door. It made me wonder if I was the nice guy for helping her move or if I was the bad guy for helping them split up. Maybe I am just a nice bad guy.laugh She helped move her stuff by carry her can of beer around and he helped by leaving before the moving began. laugh Heck, if it wasn't for the friend who brought the truck and the son-in-law who got conned into helping move they might still be together arguing and drinking. Such a beautiful relationship. It reminded me of the hell I grew up into. Yup. Don't walk, run. If you get away with your life consider yourself fortunate. :smile:



wow roy...maybe you're reading the meaning behind what i'm writing in here.

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Sat 07/26/08 12:20 PM
i tell ya, when it rains it pours here.....i go through the hassle of hanging clothes on the line...AND THEN IT RAINS CATS AND DOGS....

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Sat 07/26/08 11:46 AM

I put a little bit of puddy hair stuff in my hair, but it's evidently too much as I look like a freaking coiffed greaser!!!! frustrated frustrated frustrated frustrated


greasers aren't so bad....read The Outsider's.....great book.

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Sat 07/26/08 11:44 AM
every day is a bad day here.....i'll probably be leaving here sooner than i thought

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Sat 07/26/08 11:37 AM


I was going through the bumper stickers (myspace app) and i came across this.....i'll have to "censor" it though..........i printed it out and might frame it and put it up when i get my own place......

"for any person that's ever
betrayed me, intentionally hurt me or two-timed me
I'm not going to dwell on trying to
make your life miserable
and tell you i'm going to fight you
BETTER YET,
i'm going to sit here & tell you

KARMA'S A MOTHER F***ER

and you'll get yours."

better yet.....i might actually take the time to cross stitch it....


That a cool idea, Amber. Life is just too short to be pissed off all the time. Once you get your own place it will be yours and nobody else's. Make your place into a sanctuary or atleast one room in it once you get it. I am converting my place from a mausoleum into a sanctuary because like you say Karma is like that. I really like ocean pictures and that is going to be the theme of my home. I am looking for more paintings of beaches with oceans. Some people do angels and some do unicorns but I am into oceans.:smile:


yeah i like ocean pictures and LOVE the underwater scenes....looks like i'm gonna have to haul a$$ outta here sooner than i wanted to.....ppl are pulling out the sh!t pile and slinging...my nerves can't take this crap.

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Sat 07/26/08 09:52 AM
Edited by Amberdee29045 on Sat 07/26/08 09:53 AM
I was going through the bumper stickers (myspace app) and i came across this.....i'll have to "censor" it though..........i printed it out and might frame it and put it up when i get my own place......

"for any person that's ever
betrayed me, intentionally hurt me or two-timed me
I'm not going to dwell on trying to
make your life miserable
and tell you i'm going to fight you
BETTER YET,
i'm going to sit here & tell you

KARMA'S A MOTHER F***ER

and you'll get yours."

better yet.....i might actually take the time to cross stitch it....

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Sat 07/26/08 09:35 AM


(((amber))) sorry you are going though all this sh!t Hon. I know what it is like to leave in a hurry with only what you can carry

it sucks but try to stay positive. they may not be thinking of money at all. try not to be so negative about that until you really know. dont set yourself up for a self fufilling prophecy.......

HUGS!!!!!!!



well, i have already put in a couple of job applications up there, and both are 30 miles from my mom's....meanin if i get a job at either of those two places i'll be paying out the a$$ for gas money (unless the shelter gives me a ride.)



yeah i'm already having a panic attack.....over the damn mail (stepmom tries to sound smart and yet she's so damn stupid)

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Sat 07/26/08 09:30 AM

(((amber))) sorry you are going though all this sh!t Hon. I know what it is like to leave in a hurry with only what you can carry

it sucks but try to stay positive. they may not be thinking of money at all. try not to be so negative about that until you really know. dont set yourself up for a self fufilling prophecy.......

HUGS!!!!!!!



well, i have already put in a couple of job applications up there, and both are 30 miles from my mom's....meanin if i get a job at either of those two places i'll be paying out the a$$ for gas money (unless the shelter gives me a ride.)

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Sat 07/26/08 09:07 AM
what a f***in idiot!

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Sat 07/26/08 08:36 AM
Glad e1's doing okay.....feeling, how did my 16 year old neice say it?, emo......i wouldn't say emo, i just say there things i feel like doing, but i won't....i got too much sh!t on my plate as it is.....try to go through my things just like i did when i left my ex and see what i'm going to take with me.....and leave behind.....i'm only gonna be able to take a carry-on, and two checked bags.....i already have one of those great big trash bags (the "yard bags") full of clothes to take to the Salvation Army.....can't take my comforter or the blanket i've been working on for my brother.........i'm having to go back up there with LESS than i came down here with.....and all i had when i came down here were my daughter's pictures and art stuff, and some clothes.....i did call my mom last night and i asked her what would happen if after the two weeks came up (aunt said i could only stay for two weeks) there wasn't any room at the rescue mission.....

thankfully momma said this (margie is my aunt), "margie's just gonna have to get to the idea".......

what's even worse.....i think my stepma tried to imply that i'm the reason they are going bankrupt.

yeah right

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Fri 07/25/08 07:10 PM
i'm bipolar, my oldest brother and his kids are bipolar, my mom is bipolar, my stepmom is bipolar, my stepsister and her youngest daughter are bipolar.........


i was diagnosed before anyone else in my family was.....15 years ago

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Fri 07/25/08 12:16 PM
uh oh.........here it goes.....(does the Night at the Roxbury head bop...)........biggrin

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Fri 07/25/08 12:09 PM

chirp chirp chirp

Im back form the hospital. DUnno really if it did much good. I thought at first it was but then as I was leaveing they pulled a bunch if crap with my meds and sh!t. Oh well at leadt Im not a zombie anymore.

Hi everyone! Where is everybody!?



hey hey hey karen!!!!!

i think i might headed there myself after the big move

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Fri 07/25/08 12:08 PM

Real nice pic:smile: flowers


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