new pic and changed info....good or no?

well i just haven't been on a lot lately, due to packing my things and going through them

wow three days no posting.....hmmmmm

it's bittersweet tho....i'm glad to go back to johnston county, but NOT happy bout going to the rescue mission there.....lol

awww i miss karen!!!!!!!!!!



but it looks like i'll be leaving here around the first of the month....if i can't come up with the money myself, my dad offered to pay my bus fare and give me a little cash so i don't starve to death

waking up to hear dad and stepmom figure out how much they owe out (they're filing bankruptcy)....and they're fighting over amounts (stepmom says it's wrong when my dad printed this stuff out)....and she thinks i don't take responsibility for my actions....jesus

i'm gonna post the link up here anyway


http://singleandstressed.blogspot.com


comments are welcome!!!!

lol one of my ex boyfriends was like that....his best friend and i were ALWAYS having to correct him.....

i've started a blog on blogspot.....if you the link, email me for it y'all


just my life and my quirks

most def roy....i'm doing some research for job opportunities in that area and i just found out that the community college there offers a degree in spanish interpretation (now if i combine that and office systems tech......:D) my passion is spanish

well.....yet again i will be leaving the state of sc soon....going back to my hometown (after leaving it 10 years ago)

it's bittersweet

hey you guys.....i guess i better break the news now.....

i don't know when (but will be within the next 3-4) but i will be moving YET again....going back to my hometown.....parents are going bankrupt down here and will be going up north after everything is done......

so after i leave...i don't know when i'll be able to post on here.....as soon as i find out when all this is happenin i'll post

i'll keep that in mind...(gonna print that...)

and i've just started out making a list of what to do to get my life back in order (as if it ever was in the first place....lmfao)

thanks y'all......for the advice and criticism......i just have to learn a new way to cope around here at home

ok, you gotta have your speakers on for this one it's soooooo funny

http://www.illwillpress.com/peeps22.html

been in a mood for the past few days........drama going on here at home, plus i'm still trying to figure out my feelings about my ex's mom passing away......terrified that my ex is gonna use that to try to get me to go back to him (which ain't gonna happen)

i agree wholeheartedly.....i grew up watching horror movies (mom's addicted to them....)....i tried watching this with my mom two christmases ago (i bought it for her as a gift).......i got to where the baby got hit by the truck......my ex had to give me a valium.........



that and Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning........now i've seen all four (yes there are four) of them before this came out and it didn't affect me.....but Beginning left me with nightmares for a WEEK.

hey karen check this out.....i got this mood chart from a thread out of sparkpeople.com (weightloss support group site) out of the bipolar team.......you can tailor it to suit your self.....pretty neat.

it's a one to ten scale, ranging from severely depressed to severe rage
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1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

1 Severely depressed: need major help, do not leave alone: Crisis life line. (found in phone book for local hospital)

2 Depressed: I just need to cry it out hard. Feel free to leave with the kids, but call to check on me & remind me how much you love me & our beautiful kids I can usually pull myself out of this one, but it has to be me.

3. Some depression; mostly tired & exhausted. I need you to take over the kids. I may require at least an hour of alone time.

4. Discombobulated: Not depressed, but not happy. Mostly confusion & emotionless I may not know what’s bothering me so don’t force it out of me. Do not take anything personal, just let me be.

5. Content. I’m just here in the moment. I may not appear happy, but just be glad I’m not upset. Ok to make jokes. I may laugh a little, but don’t get mad if I don’t.

6. Happy & Content: Feel free to relax & get crazy. I will make jokes here & there myself or just be calm. I’m not too serious or too silly.

7. so HAPPY. I love me & I love you. Life is wonderful. These days are rare so take advantage.

8 Assertive: Happy, but bored. I may look for trouble & have a mean streak . I am irresponsible. Do not trust me, especially with money or fire, but do love me!

9 B!tch! There’s no winning. I’m sorry, but I cannot be reasoned with. Just be the better person & walk away, possibly with kids. But check in on me & don’t stay away all day. The more you try to reason with me or defend yourself, the harder I fight. I'm sorry, that's why I said *****.

10. Crazy Psycho. Scary anger. I will hurt you on purpose because I have so much anger for myself. Do not leave me alone. Call Neva ( my BF) or the hospital because your wife is bipolar & tempting to hurt herself

my immortal....evanescence
falling away from me.....korn
thug luv......bone thugz n harmony

not seeking a damn thing.......

no, it's only my stepmother......but you're right i'll just start bottling all this sh!t up again....

man i'm so godd@mned, ****ING tired of this ****....




is it right for my stepmother to blame ME for they're going into bankruptcy because she went out and bought a car she knew they COULD BY NO MEANS AFFORD........


she went to a car dealership and bought a van knowing there was no way in hell they could afford it......and a month later they surrendered (after my stepmother blamed me and my father for her buying it because we weren't there to stop her from signing the papers......)......now the bank that financed the van is suing her and my dad for the balance after it was auctioned off.....and the lawyer that is representing the bank is suing for attorney fees.....

but there is something i learned in group therapy as a child, you're responsible for your own actions......

and it's not like i held a gun to her head and made her sign those papers. she's done more financial damage to my dad than my mother did (and that's saying soemthing)









i started a thread in misc......just to vent and they think they know what goes on in my house.....f*ck it i knew letting things out only causes trouble...............some sh!t is better bottled until i explode.