thank you.

This Image of Mine

by "way2confident"



This image of myself that i see is a reflection of the only perfection that I have ever known.

A man raised by peers awaiting guidence from a father that was never there,

sleep walking

my life is my dream and i am so afraid to wake up.

is there life after death?

nobody ever came back from dying to tell me so why wouldn’t I live my life and collect what is mine from the jump?

if there is indeed only one trip then I prefer to buckle in to this life of mine and ride it till my face cramps up from the ever-lasting smile that I share with those that walk without one.

I am a poster child of hardship turned straight

remember me?

how could you

you have never really seen me because I have never met myself until recently

hello you

hello me

how are we doing?

I can see things now and control my life better now that I know how things work

manipulating

changing the flow

making the pieces fit to satisfy my hunger for better days

you’ve given me another door

you’ve shown me the meaning of hustle

but my rainy days are nothing compared to your war stories

i can see the flood of tears in my dreams as i think of you while I sleep

while you sleep...

...if you sleep

being a friend

my friendship is questionable

searching

turnin page after page in the big yellow book for a plumber that can turn off the fountain of pain that you hide inside so nicely

im here

it was ordained

doing what has always been asked of me by my greater power

walking blind-folded into land so unfamiliar

walking

into situatiions tha aren’t my own to make living life more benefital for whom

not myself

my days have gotten so much brighter since the sun was last eclipsed in my life

figurativly speaking

the road before me is smoother but i have always chosen the unfinished path

i prefer the struggle because nothig comes easy.

This image is mine

this image I paint is a picture of reflection

believing in reasoning and questioning everything

i am 100 watts of pure light lost in the dark

painting pictures of the rain that taps songs i sing to

on the stained glass windows of my soul.

I know me neter then I know anybody

heartless

cold

caring

loving

misunderstood

hello you

hello me

how are we?

so very

Illuminated

We all have made friends and throught this life of ours some are closer then others. what qualities makes your friend the BEST in your circle?

now a days with webbing being all too common its ok in my opinon to say that you have a webcam bc everyone has one. I mean that are even starting to become common in the work place, in schools, and on cell phones themselves.

thank you red_lace for taking time out to check my flaws. I always pride myself on becoming a better person in all aspects and sometimes getting that extra feedback helps a lot. I try it and see where it gets me. At this rate you ladies are going to have all the women on here waiting in line with numbers numbers in hand. Thanks again.

im just saying.

But seriously. I really love music from the 80's.
If i had to pick a recent artist. humm.. Id go with Neyo.

lol.. red_lace I love the photo of you and Fabio..lol Very creative.

Helllllo josie68, well I AM sure of myself..lol But you really like that one huh? It's one of my favs too. Well, I think I'll take your advise and post it. Can't hurt right? Thanks for your input.

nah, has nothing to do with that. Just taking advantage of what the site has to offer. oh, and ego strokes do nothing for me. I'd much rather prefer someone with a good convo.

thanks 4 the reply ladies. :)

yes she did. I wrote it for a co-worker a few years back. She was going through some things. She really liked it as well. I have a ton of good stuff. I'll share them in time.

I like that. Skype has made things a ton easier then the used to be. I DOES let u into somenes world before u decide to even leave ur couch.

Something Special

By "way2confident"



I see you smile

Well,

all the times I’ve seen you ..your smiling

But at times I see the hazy discomfort behind your pearly white smile and your olive shaped eyes.

That is no surprise to me

I hear the sadness in your stories and know that you wish for a better way

You wish for brighter days

Damn it

Stella got her groove back

Why can’t I .. you ask time and time again

Your not asking for the whole experience out front, but at least you want to know what it really feels like.. as do many other woman.



How many nights have passed since you were really happy?

Working days and nights when your not in school

to get your life right for the sake of the family

Making the little bit when you do work …to keep off the line of not having.

Just to invest your time spent into keeping a smile on the only one that truly loves you unconditionally looking into the eyes birthed from your loins as he stands clueless in this heavily jacked up situation



But keep your head high goddess

There’s something special waiting for you just beyond the horizon.

Your strong will and drive won’t go unrewarded

Distorted thoughts only come from the devil

But you already know that don’t you?



It hadn’t been about you in a while

Your style and grace reflect the modern way woman

Strong and independent

Go ahead Sista’ Soldier

Show everyone that you are capable for changing your destiny with the help of no man

You just need a push



A push



Please

Someone.. Anybody?



I’m not doing this for me

My son needs this

I can play the role of both parents but I don’t want to because I don’t have to.

I am tired of holding the dreams of us both in my head

So many things that I want to accomplish for myself had been put on the back burner just because I was blinded by loneliness

I wanted to feel complete

now that I am ..

Why doesn’t it feel that way at times?



I am tired of crying

I am.. Really

I’m so much stronger now because of you.. So thank you



Thank you for giving me something even if you thought by not giving me made you feel like the man you are… thank you.



I have something special waiting for me and it has been for a while now.



It just needs time to mature..

It just needs time and nourishment

It just needs time to learn and to comprehend

And when it does.. the hazy discomfort that I hid

all the pain that cocooned me from your cruelty will finally shed and fade away

The smile I smiled then will shine like precious stones

And my eyes will brighten like the sun shining down on mother earth



So she keeps her head high

Knowing there is something special waiting for her just beyond the horizon.

Her strong will and drive won’t go unrewarded

Distorted thoughts only come from the devil

And no matter what anybody says you can’t change her

You won’t break her

She is my Sista’ Soldier

But you know that already

don’t you

ok, so I just started my profile today and it looks like I might need me a pic rating. Not too sure why but I'd like to see what you all think.

RATE My PROFILE!

Has anyone actually met anyone offline? I have a few war stories I could share alone. How about you?

Helllo singmesweet! Its bc i feel that everything happens for a reason. I am content in knowing that. Therefore, I am confident in knowing what I do has purpose. Deep huh? *wink!

well that shouldnt be to hard!

thx

whos willing to show me around? Anything I need to know before I dive head first?