LOL Cy ya dont change much do ya

how goes it these days?

just thought i'd say good mornin' real quick so nobody can say im never around anymore you guys have a good day!

I'm soooo excited!!! today my dad and i went to get my medicad taken care of and as were were walkin out i heard my name and there in the corner stood my best friend bambie whom i have been lookin for since 2005!!!! sooo now she has my number and my myspace url i havent been this happy in a really longgg time

mornin coco

im so bored if bordem were fatal i'd so be dead lol

I am the poet whose words bring tears to your eyes
I am the daughter who struggled to understand life
Wished the world was different more often than not
And dared to dream bigger than my parents ever would have at my age
I am the friend whose shoulder has been needed
Break-ups and death fear and loneliness has plagued the lives of those I hold dear
I am the older sibling whose examples are always being watched
So I must do right
And when mistakes are made I must correct them
I am the miracle brought unto this world to
Live, laugh love
And make a mistake or two
I am the one and only
Tater
Living through the tough times
Laughing even when I need to cry
And loving the friends who helped get me where I am today

Because more than a few of you have wondered where i went LOL well hmmm something amazing happened... i found i do in fact have a life and the weather has been too dang nice to be indoors plus my dad and i hang out a lot so im not a part of the JSH world so much but all is well for the most part there now nobody has to ask where i've been ohh but dont get me wrong i love you guys

Nope its not you i dont want to say any names but think about it for a minute you'll know...There's only one person i get really upset missin well no i take that back now there's two but one of them will come back and when he does hes in SERIOUS poo with me lol as for the other one well i had a feeling one of these days i wouldn't mean much to them so i'm just not around much

fine i guess havent been around much because a few people have kind of made me feel like im not needed anymore sooo yea i've been hangin out with rosie and shannon
if adam does in fact turn up n im not around will you tell him to e-mail me since ya have my yahoo address

yup thats why :) things are much better now cept i cant find adam :(

Was friends with adamisarockstar666? he was here for awhile but by the time i moved in with my dad and got the internet he deactivated ii was pretty bummed so i thought maybe he gave one of yall another way to get a hold of him

Eh i've been ok things are gettin a little rougher but it'll pass

Forever a Shadow

The moment he took that last breath
I felt my heart give way
My soul shriveled to nothing
It turned the darkest shade of grey
Fire burned within these eyes
Tears that pooled on the floor were filled with anger
Damn this war!
Many searched for words of comfort
Trying to revive this shadow
Restore it to the woman it once had been
Soon they found nothing could be said
Day after day a little voice of hope would whisper
Maybe there was a mistake
The more time that passed
I realized it must be true
Very slowly the sadness begins to recede
With the help of friends life has started moving again
But the anger may never fully lessen
Others have floated into my life
The emptiness however still remains
It’s him I need
The nightly news does nothing to cool the fire
All too often it’s the wood feeding it
Helping it grow and burn brighter
Oh how I loved him
Such an amazing courageous man
Alone in the inky silent darkness of night
I often awaken to the sound of his voice
For a moment I search for him
Elated that he has at last come home to me
And then the cold reality hits
Tears sting my eyes
I hadn’t heard him at all it was only a dream
No longer able to hold it back
A river of tears soaks my pillow
Lord how I need him
Until the day we meet again
I am destined to be nothing more
Than a shadow in the moonlight
Perfectly visible
But never really there

Stars twinkle in a moon-lit sky
In the distance an engine roars to life
Yes the world still spins round
It just feels as though I’m stuck in a tiny steel box
Mere inches from a wall no matter which direction I run
A frigid blast of air seems to constantly swirl around me
Tears well up and soon there will be a flood
WHY?
Why does it have to hurt?
Oh how I wish it was me he was holding tonight
But wishes are of no importance
The truth cannot be made a lie
He was not the man I thought
God how this hurts
Even so
He will never see me cry.
Stars twinkle in a moon-lit velvety black sky
Somewhere a dog barks its disapproval of a noisy passing car
Ah yes it’s true there is still life
Even after he desecrated this already fragile heart,
The sad thing is I don’t think he really ever cared
When his nights are darker and lonelier than they’ve ever been
I hope the thoughts of her keep him going strong
After this is all said and done
Maybe he will realize his mistake
But by then
Chances are I’ll be too many months gone
Stars twinkle in the pale milky moonlight
A crisp breeze gently sways the bare tree branches
Yes life does still exist without him by my side
I really hope he enjoys his emotionless frolic in the sheets
Because as of tonight I’ll be too many months gone

I'm SO ready to be a friggin nun!! men just aren't worth it SERIOUSLY!!! :(

Strong and steady he stood by my side
Life’s turbulence kept tossing me to and fro
More than once after getting up,
For a moment or two I wondered just who would care
If my life came to a screeching grinding halt
Then in the seemingly endless empty space
His face came into view, at the time the reason was far from clear
But today at the mere mention of his name my heart begins to soar
My pulse flutters as if it had turned to a butterfly
Oh if he only knew what he has given me
Now as he slips into his uniform
Preparing to head to a world where love does not exist
Hatred hanging so thick in the air one could almost taste it
Tears cannot be kept from sliding down these cheeks
Fear that just kept building up can no longer be held at bay
Those who don’t understand just shoot me a quizzical glance
If it’s too much why stay?
Those words turn my stomach as much as this war
I stay because…
He has restored the woman I once was
Disability or not that man loves me
Those who choose to turn their backs
Tired of reassuring and drying tears
That’s fine
I WILL stand strong behind him
Until this hellish nightmare has ended
And why?
It’s just what we do

Frankly i'm not the least bit suprised the man is nothing but a moron all he did by doing the shuffle was prove it to those who disagreed

thanks

okay i need some help i dont know the name of the song or who sings it but my brother asked me to find out the lyrics go somethin like

it starts in my toes and i crinkle my nose...or somethin LOL as i said i have no idea but he wants it on his ipod