Do you really want to stay with someone because they guilted you into it? Seriously, I know you feel bad, compassionate people do. So, call one of his friends or relatives, explain the situation and let them help him. His mental health isn't your problem. If he you truly believe he's serious, call 911 and tell them he's threatening to hurt himself and why. They will take him into a hospital for evaluation and treatment. If he's this broken up over a break-up, he more than likely has lots more issues that need addressing.

Mine too

Questions to ask yourself: would you still love it if you were doing it day in/day out, because you had to, not because you wanted to? Can you afford to live without benefits? If something happens, health-wise, are you prepared? Other options, is the massage thing something you can do part-time? Doing both jobs, if possible, might give you the best of both worlds, keeping your benefits with the one job, but giving you something you enjoy with more money as the 2nd? Which is more important to you, stability or enjoyment of your job? (Yes, that's a legitimate question, ultimately everyone would like both but in many cases, it's simply not possible) You mentioned arthritis in your hands, is giving massages full-time something that would aggravate your own arthritis and potentially make it worse?

Just some suggestions of things to think about.

I'm ok, just bored out of my mind. Can you put something behind your neck to help cushion it?

(((((((Eileen))))))))

How are ya today?

Who knows, hopefully it won't happen. Or maybe someone else will volunteer cause I just want to go home and go to sleep

Figures, I sit here all day with nothing to do and it looks like I might have to work til 10. Gotta love it

True

Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, think I'll eat a worm

Well, I need to do something. I could go whine about how my life sucks, except it doesn't and whining, even my own, gets on my nerves

Hiya ((Kevin)))

How's it going? As you can see, I'm just talking to myself. Scarily enough, I'm answering as well

Or I can dance

or I could blow kisses to myself

Or maybe I should just go rant and rave about some random topic?

Or maybe put my profile in the "rate me" section. Except I don't particularly care what anyone thinks.

Lord I'm bored. Maybe I need to post an "I'm bored, entertain me" thread?

I didn't say you had to forgive, that's a whole other issue. There are some things I can't forgive either. But, I have learned to make peace with them and I have learned to forgive myself for not being forgiving. I have learned that it's ok not to forgive but that doesn't mean I have to carry it around with me forever.

No, they didn't make you bitter, you made yourself bitter. There's a distinction. If you allow yourself to become bitter (which is a result of unresolved regret, anger and fear), then it's really your responsibility to find a way to change that. The incidents, whatever they were, are simply incidents. It's how you react to them that makes you bitter. You can choose to wallow in the bitterness, or you can choose to let it go. It's not easy, it might take a lot of work and more pain before you can do that, but it IS possible. And you won't ever regret it.