Passion and Punishment
by Rodney B

I look and linger
my mind asunder
thoughts gone haywire
wiping beads of perspire

what hath mine eyes doth behold
what travesty doth unfold
yet i look not away
no longer in control

primal urge awakened
emotions never imagined
watching bodies intertwined
betrayal of the worst kind

once mine now callously shared
sounds of rapture assaulting mine ears
soul draining through tears
slowly clouding my stare

witness to passion once enjoyed
witness to love now being destroyed
more punishing a vision never behold
now punisher to a heart that beats so cold

trying to dismiss it
but unable, tis too explicit
brain screaming on fire
straining against dark desire

palm sweaty
against steel so clammy
grip ever tightening
devil's finger at the ready

conflicting thoughts of forgiveness or retribution
then calm, no more discussion
for alas fate has decided
blood, twas the only solution

The die is cast
They are alone at last
She has waited a long time for this
To have him all to herself, to catch up on all she has missed

It’s been a long time since he was last here
She has missed him so much, at times she thought her end was near
But he is here now and that’s all that matters
And right now to her nothing else could be better

She says hold me tight and tell me how much you missed me
And melts as he whispers in her ear ever so softly
She wishes this moment could last forever
His gentle kiss she wants to forever savour

She whispers, please stay right here don’t ever go away
Cause if you leave now I wont last another day
Just being here together
Makes my faith in true love a whole lot stronger
Baby you being here has made me see
That cupid was always there looking out for me

She opened her eyes and started crying
For once again she realized she was only dreaming
To her this is so demeaning
Its been so long yet she still cannot get over him leaving

Only in her dreams does she find peace
For in reality the pain and the longing never seems to cease
Loneliness tortures her like a cruel and uncaring beast
But in her dreams he comforts her, in his arms she finds sweet release

For in her dreams he is still with her
She is his world , he cares for no other
But happiness for her remains in the land of make believe it seems
For happily he was, but sadly now is and forever will be the man of her dreams

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An apology from the heart

How do I say this,I really don’t know where to start
All I know is whatever I say is coming straight from the heart
I am sitting here with tears in my eyes
Thinking about all I put you through,remembering all the lies

girl to think you called me a friend
But I hurt you so bad that I doubt your pain will ever end
Now its within my powers to make things right
Im not asking for forgiveness cause im not trying to feel alright

I just wanna do right by you and admit that I was very wrong
And looking back at my actions I now feel very much less than a man
But I gotta give you credit girl,no matter what you held on strong
Accepting whatever I did,never once demanding an explanation

Oh girl I shudder now thinking about the tears you must have cried
Your heart reaching out to me and forever being denied
What was I thinking, god what did I do
Sadly I was well aware of my actions oh god help me I knew

Girl I abused your kindness, mistook it for weakness
Knew that you loved me but hardly acknowledged it
I relished the attention and went along for the ride
Never once stopping to think how you must be hurting inside

I knew I could not love you the way that I should
But instead of moving along like a real man would
I stayed and took you for all you were worth
Accepting your kindness while repaying you with hurt

You might wonder why im doing this girl you may not understand
Well I want the whole world to know the kind of dog that I am
I wanna experience all the pain I’ve put you through
I want them to know I never did or ever will deserve someone like you

I wanna send a message to other girls out there
Beware for guys like me aren’t very rare
No matter how much you love them find the strength to tell them no
For when they are through you have nothing but a broken heart to show

Girl still take heart in knowing
With guys like me,our day for hurting is never far in coming
And I know I will one day experience all I’ve put you through
I just hope I will be man enough to handle it as classy as you

girl I wish you happiness,i hope you will find someone much better
and I pray I haven’t destroyed your faith in true love forever
as for me I’ve learnt a lot from you ,how to care for someone
and if nothing else I now know how to be a real man

I owe you so much girl which I ‘ll never be able to repay
Just know you can count on me anytime whether it be night or day
And if you do find someone and he dares treat you badly
just call on me and you will see i will be there in a hurry
baby... I am really truly sorry

An apology from the heart

How do I say this,I really don’t know where to start
All I know is whatever I say is coming straight from the heart
I am sitting here with tears in my eyes
Thinking about all I put you through,remembering all the lies

girl to think you called me a friend
But I hurt you so bad that I doubt your pain will ever end
Now its within my powers to make things right
Im not asking for forgiveness cause im not trying to feel alright

I just wanna do right by you and admit that I was very wrong
And looking back at my actions I now feel very much less than a man
But I gotta give you credit girl,no matter what you held on strong
Accepting whatever I did,never once demanding an explanation

Oh girl I shudder now thinking about the tears you must have cried
Your heart reaching out to me and forever being denied
What was I thinking, god what did I do
Sadly I was well aware of my actions oh god help me I knew

Girl I abused your kindness, mistook it for weakness
Knew that you loved me but hardly acknowledged it
I relished the attention and went along for the ride
Never once stopping to think how you must be hurting inside

I knew I could not love you the way that I should
But instead of moving along like a real man would
I stayed and took you for all you were worth
Accepting your kindness while repaying you with hurt

You might wonder why im doing this girl you may not understand
Well I want the whole world to know the kind of dog that I am
I wanna experience all the pain I’ve put you through
I want them to know I never did or ever will deserve someone like you

I wanna send a message to other girls out there
Beware for guys like me aren’t very rare
No matter how much you love them find the strength to tell them no
For when they are through you have nothing but a broken heart to show

Girl still take heart in knowing
With guys like me,our day for hurting is never far in coming
And I know I will one day experience all I’ve put you through
I just hope I will be man enough to handle it as classy as you

girl I wish you happiness,i hope you will find someone much better
and I pray I haven’t destroyed your faith in true love forever
as for me I’ve learnt a lot from you ,how to care for someone
and if nothing else I now know how to be a real man

I owe you so much girl which I ‘ll never be able to repay
Just know you can count on me anytime whether it be night or day
And if you do find someone and he dares treat you badly
just call on me and you will see i will be there in a hurry
baby... I am really truly sorry

For the love my daughter
By Rodney B

Now you found a chink in my armour
my daughter
I stand before you limp, face to face now with karma
trying not to flinch as you stick your vengeful dagger


stabbing over and over
each wound a reminder
of the pain which u deny but i know still lingers

girl so many years and yet
your hate remains fresh
and now smiling with ghoulish relish
you extract your pound of flesh


drunken with power intoxicated by vengeance
but for her happiness i pay whatever due penance

enduring your bitterness as you gleefully squeeze that vice
real or imagined i gladly pay the price

for the pain you claim i administered to your heart
but in thy bloodlust i pray thee please spare a thought
for the one who played no part
in your your continued distraught

blinded by spite and so called retribution
you sacrifice her happiness in search of personal restitution
I ask what kind of mother could you possibly be
that would see our daughter suffer just to get back at me

If only I could not think of her for just one day
Then I do believe I will be well on my way
On my way back to how it used to be
When we were just friends and she didn't have this
hold over me
Its crazy the way things have so suddenly changed
I never saw it coming it all seems so strange
How can I be in love with her ,this shouldn't be
Yet there is no denying it the symptoms are all too
real
For she was always just a friend to me
The times I used to think of her were few and far
between
Yes we communicated and shared sometimes
But never was I ever fascinated by her feminine wiles
This feeling just crept upon me
Now with her is where I forever wanna be
But I cant love her im not supposed to
It goes against everything decent that I have always
stood for and so fragilely held onto
For you see unfortunately she belongs to another
Someone I could easily call a brother
Therein lies my delimna
For in order to have her I must first consider where
to stick the dagger
All this is really tearing me apart
For I would do the right thing but how do I explain
this to my heart
Its already gotten used to the idea of loving her
Its never felt like this for anyone so how can I ask
it to let this go
To me she is as beautiful as the evening sky
I keep searching for flaws but there is none that I
can identify
Oh how can I ask her to love me,how can I ask her to
stay
When everytime she holds me I picture him standing
there
Oh woe is me for an eternity this guilt is much more
than I can bear
They say love is wild and unpredictable but right now
its being unfair
Oh god I think I am crying again
Still I'm not even sure my tears are for loving her or
for what I might do to a friend
You see I've not yet kissed her but I've held her and
that's all it took
For the emotions that ran through me were enough to
fill a book
Often times she would stare at me with nothing at all
to say
And im so afraid of what she would see I just have to
look away
Oh how do I get over this,how do I maintain
What happens if she searches her heart and finds she
feels the same
Then what do I do,what do I say
Oh if only I could not think of her for just one day

sadly..it was...but a long time ago

MY DEVIL IN ANGEL'S CLOTHING

by ruddy

Thou art cursed dear lillian,I am diseased by your touch
I Can never explain why I loved you so much
You have been the worst dear lillian,a pox on true love
Your soul so tainted one has to wear gloves

I see the evil that envelops you
Surrounds you, embraces you
Much like a typhoid mary
With a kiss oh so deadly

Who are you woman , I have asked so many times
Each and every time I unravel your web of lies
Born of deception, our love, as fake as can be
I fell for your act, believed in your sensitivity

Caught off guard by lust and animal attraction
A she devil's kiss worse than any addiction
A freak in so many ways, hell downright nasty
At times I had to gasp at the things you wanted to do to me

But being with you it seems
Unlocked the very worst in my being
Enjoying the pleasures you brought me
Taking advantage of my naivety

Freaking me, leading me beyond the borders of sanity
Promising forever and all that appeals to me
Knowing what I crave and dangling it teasingly
The thing that real lovers crave, what true romantics desire
The chance to love and be loved, giving of themselves entire
But you were a Liar
Wanted nothing more than someone to stoke your freaky fire

The internet your playground, you could not get enough
Caught you mailing freaks like you, saying how you like it rough
Like a fool I hung on every word
From the fantastic to the absurd
Broken promises here and there
But was too in love to care

You had me so convinced that you were so true
I wanted so very much to believe in you
I was so blind ,ignoring all the signs
Thinking I was being paranoid it was all in my mind

How could someone talk so much of love but have not a single clue
As to what it means to love someone and caring for them too
It seems giving your heart to just one man is something you just cant do
And to think when we first met I was so sorry for you boo
I heard your tales of betrayal and loss and my heart went out to you

Yes you reeled me in ,hook line and sinker
Made me feel like I was your knight in foolish shining armour
Took my trust and my love so true
Promising me forever, oh if only I knew

lillian, my dear lillian
Who art thou dear woman
Where is your heart,does it not know compassion

A lovely thing, so sweet at times
but then becomes this ugly thing that I fear looking in your eyes
for that's when the darkness emerges from its hiding place
and shows its presence upon your tortured face
an image of age and misery ,abandonment and decay
reaching out to swallow me whole, I have to look away

so many times you showed real change
an attempt on your part to turn over a new page
so many times I gave you a chance
your tears and cries of forgiveness registered on my heart

to once again be suckered in by deceit and lies so foul
well im afraid its over now, your lies have taken its toll
and quite frankly I see no hope for your act has gotten old
but with three failed marriages I feel a tale is easily told
that you could never know true love, not with a heart that beats so cold

I shall leave you here but I fear there is lots more I find disturbing
And as you read this I picture that darkness on your face emerging
For the fact that someone knows you so well is not very appealing
You are not the kind to read these lines and feel something needs changing
I fear you are quite content being yourself , a devil in angels clothing

I met a woman
Phenomenal in looks and disposition
Classy and true to her ambitions
Oh but what passion
I have often enjoyed kissing her
Slowly gently caressing her
She gently moans in my ear as I feel for her
Wanting me, needing me
Rodney, she whispers breathlessly
Please tell me that you love me
‘I love you ‘ I groaned weakly
And felt her body reach for me
Exhaling as she lets herself go
And I knew that she was letting me know
That she was mine to do whatever I please
As if those words put her mind at ease
Releasing herself unto me
Her treasure so long desired by many
Yet twas me she looked on favourably
Handing me the keys
Though the natural urge
Is to ravage her so
Something tells me she wanted to go slow
So I relaxed a little slowed my pace
Put an arm upon her hip then gently about her waist
Looked deep in her eyes as I gently caressed her face
Allowing my eyes to tell her what she already knew
That she means the world to me, that this love was
true
She caught my gaze but slowly looked away
And the heave of her chest told me all she needed to
say
I kissed her ever so softly
She breathed me in deeply
swung her arms around me tightly
enjoying our unity
I felt her warm tears as it trickled down her face
Wetting my lips as I become drunk by the taste
for all that I have been through this was something
new tonight
never thought I would know what true love taste like
with all the wrong ive done did I really deserve this
right
as the thought lingers I panicked and woke up in a
fright
my heart sinking as the image of her vanishes from my
sight
but then smiled as a sleepy voice whispers “baby you
alright”
I turned and hugged her , squeezed her with all my
might
And whisper yes baby everything is right with my world

As long as I have you here, forever my dream girl.

MY HAPPY ENDING
by Rodney Brown

Slowly smoothly she stalks me
I see the look in her eyes and know she wants me
She is wearing my shirt this morning
A style of dressing
She knows I find so appealing
She thinks I don’t see her as she sneaks up from
behind
I turn in time to grab her as she screams and goes
wild
Struggles and kicks like a restless child
Then relaxes suddenly and looks at me and smiles
Slowly seduces me with those angelic eyes
I lift her in my arms and take her to my lair
The radiance of her face is more than I can bare
I cannot look away, im transfixed by her stare
I gently lay her down , her arm lingers about my chest
Two undone buttons exposes the firmest of breasts
Chest already heaving as she knows what comes next
Im unable to stay calm though I try my very best
Intense would be how I describe what happens next
I thought I would be in control as that’s usually the
case
But she flips me over and straddles me about my waist
You are mine she whispers with that devilish grin
As she pinned my arms above my head and moved in for
the kill
She lowered herself upon me and kissed me gently upon
my lips
Caressing my mouth with hers as gentle as a willow in
the wisp
I would think that I was imagining her but for the
movements of her hips
Never met another woman who could move like this
A catlike grace as she contorts her body so
Her lips on my neck sends chills down to my toes
As somewhere down below something silently grows
She feels this, her sudden moan lets me know
A familiar hint to me that its time to take it slow
I raise up gently as our faces become level
Pulls her towards me as she pierces me with her
nipples
Then I kiss her..and it was like my dream from the
night before
All the emotions I felt came rushing to the fore
Mi amor
My love, my dream girl, my world
But this was no fantasy this was the real thing
But I swear that I hear humming, harmonious singing
Ringing, echoing a song of good cheer
my heart drumming to the rythym that only I could hear
I snap back to reality
As I feel her reach for me
She reaches down with one hand searching for my love
Finds it and gasps, amazed at my arouse
No doubts now that I want her for it clearly shows
She caresses it,fondles it strokes it oh hell
I doubt that even I have ever done it so well
My tongue searches her neck as my fingers finds her
spine
Featherlike motions that I know blows her mind
Licking her lips as we sit there conjoined
She decides then and there she will wait no longer
With a gasp and a moan she envelops my member
I had entered
Oh my what sweet surrender
I close my eyes wanting that first sensation to linger
She inhales sharply, as she gently lowers her hips
She grabs me by my cheeks as her mouth searches for my
lips
Kissing passionately
she rocks me back and forth gently
our lips parting briefly as she whispers she loves me
she hugs me, pulling me closer to her chest
as I feel her getting excited, her movements much more
in ernest
she shudders as I feel her love coming down
my tongue finds a nipple as she releases a moan
grabbing her legs in my biceps I spin her around
she has reached her climax, now its time to get my
own
I lay her on her back , with her legs open wide
Looking down at her, my heart swells with pride
This vision of beauty that is mine all mine
She smiles at me as if reading my mind
And says yes my love until the end of all time
I reach forward and kiss her as I once again take her
And love her
For what seems like forever
Our juices flowing freely till our moans reaches a
crescendo
Together, we escape in each other
Positions that surpasses the highest levels of kama
sutra
Cause when u r as one, love has no borders
No unsafe harbours
Untainted by the biases of different cultures
Free to express and to release that hunger
Feeding on the moment,relishing in each other
This is what love is, this is how it should be
No reservations when one’s love says.baby Take ME
Have me, drown me in your kiss
As long as they are the one you will feel like this
The same way I feel now with my baby in my arms
Catching our breath ,reminiscing on our lovestorm
She is the one , I know this I think to myself
This is the real thing, there cant be much else
Here is my happy ending I never thought I would find
I drift off to sleep with thoughts of loving her on
my mind