An apology from the heart

How do I say this,I really don’t know where to start
All I know is whatever I say is coming straight from the heart
I am sitting here with tears in my eyes
Thinking about all I put you through,remembering all the lies

girl to think you called me a friend
But I hurt you so bad that I doubt your pain will ever end
Now its within my powers to make things right
Im not asking for forgiveness cause im not trying to feel alright

I just wanna do right by you and admit that I was very wrong
And looking back at my actions I now feel very much less than a man
But I gotta give you credit girl,no matter what you held on strong
Accepting whatever I did,never once demanding an explanation

Oh girl I shudder now thinking about the tears you must have cried
Your heart reaching out to me and forever being denied
What was I thinking, god what did I do
Sadly I was well aware of my actions oh god help me I knew

Girl I abused your kindness, mistook it for weakness
Knew that you loved me but hardly acknowledged it
I relished the attention and went along for the ride
Never once stopping to think how you must be hurting inside

I knew I could not love you the way that I should
But instead of moving along like a real man would
I stayed and took you for all you were worth
Accepting your kindness while repaying you with hurt

You might wonder why im doing this girl you may not understand
Well I want the whole world to know the kind of dog that I am
I wanna experience all the pain I’ve put you through
I want them to know I never did or ever will deserve someone like you

I wanna send a message to other girls out there
Beware for guys like me aren’t very rare
No matter how much you love them find the strength to tell them no
For when they are through you have nothing but a broken heart to show

Girl still take heart in knowing
With guys like me,our day for hurting is never far in coming
And I know I will one day experience all I’ve put you through
I just hope I will be man enough to handle it as classy as you

girl I wish you happiness,i hope you will find someone much better
and I pray I haven’t destroyed your faith in true love forever
as for me I’ve learnt a lot from you ,how to care for someone
and if nothing else I now know how to be a real man

I owe you so much girl which I ‘ll never be able to repay
Just know you can count on me anytime whether it be night or day
And if you do find someone and he dares treat you badly
just call on me and you will see i will be there in a hurry
baby... I am really truly sorry

Bravo!

heartfelt write-good for you