Miss Tilly
this is for my bestfriend I haven't seen for a long time..


almost 17 years ago..
but feels like yesterday

the last time
i saw my bestfriend's
bespectacled eyes..


Ch?
Do you still watch the moon
when things are not right?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still listen to
Jose Mari chan, parokya ni edgar & evanescence?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still sometimes feel nostalgic
to beverly hills 90210, friends & ally mcbeal?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still have faith in
friendship & loyalty?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still believe in
what you value most in life?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still like causeways?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still love the rain?
I still do.

Ch?
Do you still miss me?
I still do.


-Jane

Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don’t say. ~Author Unknown


The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you’ve had. ~Author Unknown


She is a friend of mind. She gather me, man. The pieces I am, she gather them and give them back to me in all the right order. It’s good, you know, when you got a woman who is a friend of your mind. ~Toni Morrison, Beloved

interesting contributions. thank you.

I am posting on your rant room right now, thinking of you NOT as Ch my bestfriend,
BUT someone I just meet here in Mingle.


On good intentions: Whether it is to encourage, support, applaud or point to the right direction..
is not necessary if you will have to hurt yourself in the process..it is
not worth it.

Your posts:

Flower Thread
Emotive Pictures
Ninoy Aquino's Love Poem for Cory
Out Out Demon of Stupidity
Courage Beer
Finding courage- 'You Got 5 Minutes'
Misty Nights (I really thought the poem is for Ch's mother-
that is why I posted 'Do you still' on this rant room)

All those I listed ma'am are the reasons why I keep on
mistaking you as Ch, I haven't seen for 17 years.

Your flower thread helps me figure out things,
I always read your posts.
That being said your opinion matters to me..

That is why it is IMPORTANT to me ma'am that you will know
that ever since I came here in Mingle July 25, 2015:

I ONLY POSTED here in the Mingle forum as Chronicliar75.
I NEVER have another account in mingle since July 25, 2015 until now.
I ONLY HAVE ONE ACCOUNT HERE IN MINGLE MA'AM THAT I PERSONALLY REGISTERED.

Not that I'm not tempted. Yes I was very tempted on 2 occasions

1. when I followed your post and i read some shapely woman looking for a nice irishman.
I rationalize, maybe that is the faster & easier way than to wear my heart on my sleeves, everytime I post.
BUT it is the idea of the 'trial & error' that discouraged me. SO I DID NOT REGISTER UNDER A DIFFERENT USER NAME
EVEN IF I AM TEMPTED.

2. I have a hard time posting pictures in Mingle. I rationalize, that it may be much better for me to practice on my own
by registering under another name and practice via instant messaged to myself ..so I can see and test, if it works. Without me being a pain in the neck to other people. But Mightymoe's suggestion works.. SO I DO NOT SEE THE NEED FOR ANOTHER USERNAME.



Basing on your posts I see you as someone with:

-discernment

-exceptionally good with technology


IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN LEARNING THE TRUTH THEN FEEL FREE TO USE WHAT YOU HAVE.

While it is okay for me to try hard to keep up and learn at the same time.

while it is okay for me to try hard to keep up and figure out at the same time,

i just find it unfair that people judged someone based on other's post, other's assumptions and other's unfair speculation..

...and dragging other people down because of it.



Please be assured that this will be the last time I will be posting on your rantroom.
I FEEL THE NEED TO APOLOGIZE TO YOU..
I AM VERY SORRY.
I will try to keep out of your way.

you do wear your heart on your sleeve...

i will take this opportunity to address you in a like manner, out of respect for your obvious intelligence and honesty.

while i do not know or can even come close to presuming your relationship with Ch, i can clearly see that she is a large part of who you are. i will reiterate what i've said before, she does deserve to know how you feel about her, and you deserve to have the chance to tell her yourself.

my take on good intentions...it is a double-edged sword, just like many things in life.

it is inevitable for pain and disappointment to occur when you open yourself to many expectations, real or otherwise. the question of worthiness, is something you must discern for yourself. the experience along the way, gives you the wisdom to move beyond the hurt and to experience the many faces of love.

i do not doubt that you are who you claim to be, without an alternate account. i see no issue in this.

how my posts or anyone else's for that matter, affect you is entirely up to you. you are imbibed with a mind and a heart to know which ones are meant well, which ones are for humor, and which ones are intended with malice.

i have found that many here are helpful. we are all human and we all have our own strengths and weaknesses. what we do to others (good, bad or otherwise), and what we do to ourselves(good, bad or otherwise), is entirely what we choose to do. that's what makes the world both interesting and cruel at the same time.

for you to say that my posts and opinions matter to you (and i hope in a generally positive manner), is heartfelt. please pay it forward and inspire others as well.

i am not quite certain what you are driving at with some of the statements you released. so i will not address them.

am i discerning? maybe. tho, i have had some say i am stupid, naive and gullible. perhaps i am all these things rolled into one.
am i tech savvy? i know i am not...lol...tho i try to learn "OJT" style.

you do not seem much older or much younger than i am. we still have a long way to go. you are here for your reasons, i am here for mine. what are you apologizing for? be considerate of others, be the best version of yourself, and let that shine for everyone to appreciate.

be of good cheer and God bless.

regards,
mgsmd "PT"

---Love Never Ends---

Sometimes i wish
I could feel
Nothing at all
And return
To the innocence
Of not knowing
Anything
Beyond what is
Expected of me
By myself
To learn
Of this life
Anew
And never to have to
Return to the pain
Or wanting
Of something
Beyond what i can have.

That longing
I tried
To kill
From my heart
And end
From my thinkings
Only serves
To make it cling
Tighter in my chest
Squeezing out
My very breath
A sigh of no relief
But a pursed-lipped exhale
To exhume
What should've been buried.

I can no more fathom
What i aim to achieve
By my tryings
Then failings
To let you see
And feel
The same as i do
As it serves you not
I make it serve
Myself instead
To rise
From the ashes
Of my mistaken ideas
And grasp
The meaning
Of fate's purpose
Of the chance
Given then taken
Prematurely from me
To end
The subject and object
Of my musings
And for once
Overcome
What i never had before.

Walk away
My heart
And leave
My mind
To mend
And strengthen
And harden
And be
In stillness
Understand it all
And move forth
In love
Without
The grip
Of unwantedness
Of unfulfillment
And open
A door
A window
To let another destiny
Begin anew.

My cycle begins
In the ending of you.

My chapter begins
In the last of yours.

My life becomes
When yours is no more.

Until then
We will meet again
Because
Love never ends.

--mgsmd "PT" 9/2015

http://mingle2.com/topic/reply/445505

Thank you Pansytilly

A wonderful free-flowing record
That I feel to be like a slice
through human experience
Laying bare a vivid & livid
cross-section
in the wake of a blade running
rings and rings around telltale signs
that life was here & it was lived
in all its' facets: Good, Bad, Ugly.
And yet still the bleeding heart
Beats on & on & on & on
Marking out time
from NOW
till THEN
ends in a new FOREVER

That was awesome pt!!!

And the Lord said, ''Let there be Light"

and there was light...and he separated light from the darkness...and there was evening, and there was morning...

And there was us. Let us party!!!