whatever happened to my streams of consciousness?
oh right;
people didn't like my disturbing thoughts.
o.O
they're actually really fun to write.
you should try it.
[as soon as you get that stick out of your ***.]
the beatles make me want to create messes.
i think i'm going to draw a monster today.
or a creepy old lady?
i dunno.
where the **** is joshua?!
D:
he better show up soon.
or else!
i'm out of paint.
again.
/:
hmph.
i miss being surrounded by artsy things and artsy people.
no matter how intimidated i might get,
i enjoy being surrounded by all that nonsense.
my brother is going on a random trip to nowhere.
i kinda want to go with him.
he always meets other artsy people.
he goes to artsy places
he does artsy things.
i don't talk to people.
i don't go places.
i kinda do artsy things.
o.O
bleh.
shut up!
whatever happened to andres?
am i andres?
oh wait.
yes i am.
i want to go get my paintbrush on my shoulder.
where to?
san fran?
fingers crossed.
here comes the sun.
some people say that the sun is necessary to get in a better mood.
the sun is suppose to help with serotonin levels.
it doesn't work for me at all.
i get extremely depressed and physically ill when i'm out in the sun for hours upon hours.
give me clouds and rain and i'm happy,
well as close as i can get.
perfect circles on pyramids?
that might look sweet.
scribble scribble.
pixelated light?
maybe.
should this go in my blog?
maybe.
probably.
ah ****.
i need tampons.
a male needs tampons?
for getting drunk obviously.
it'd burn like a mother ****er.
bleh.
get the **** offline and go draw.
some artists clock in and out when drawing to know how long they work on pieces.
perhaps i should try it.
not on drawings though.
on paintings.
my drawings are ****.
i also want to take pictures of the process.
if i ever decide to actually document a process hell might freeze over.
today my niece told me heaven was a beautiful place.
i told her hell has unicorns.
you're missing out!
can you please tell my brother to return my printer/scanner?
thanks.
buenas noches.
¿y por qué leíste todo esto?
idiota.

Up the meds and shut the hell up!

Y no , no lei todo pare at whatever , too boring!

shut your mouth.

bahahaha.

Yes please do

It's both slightly annoying and slightly funny to me when people perceive something I say as negative and attempt to cheer me up. I'm not one to sugar coat things, and I'll express the negative as I see it, just as blunt as the positive. I don't see a need in avoiding sadness and darkness, it's just as normal and healthy as light and happiness. Some times it just is what it is.

I am thinking that my life is odd...

I was thinking about getting a goldfish. I was thinking I would name him Bubbles. I could take him to the park and chit. On the holidays I could dress him up in little goldfish costumes. That would be kinda cool......

I suddenly have a craving for something that goes good with tartar sauce.

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this is not good.
O.O
i'm going to have a ****ing panic attack.

Oh no B :(

I hope not.

To hell with that loser Joshua...

I like the f**kin in the fort idea!

I mean seriously!!! Even pilgrims and religious people would love that one!!!!

:)

don't talk crap about joshua.

I'm thinking perhaps my biggest accomplishment was just a mistake.

ive nvr told you how truely sorry i am tha pain i caused u becoz i am truely sorry..
even thought am strugling i wont give up..itz worth it..

I am thinking about eating!

hahaha... loved this...cool beans (((b)))

I'm thinking that sometimes the doors that open when you slam and lock another one behind you are some pretty fantastic doors.

All I can do is thank God for giving me the keys.

Thinking it is nice to have some rain.