thanks Dakota
I'm not there yet, still in "give up" mode and don't know how long it'll
last or if it will ever end but I'm dealing with the pain the best I
know how.

Millsdd....Please, don't give up. You look and seem like such a nice
guy with a GREAT attitude!! Any girl should keep someone like you, you
know why? Because I'm the same way!! This girl I was with was engaged
and she left him because he was a drunk and abusive. She went to
therapy and was down to 92lbs. She was a WRECK!! Then, she met me!!
This is what her mother told me. In 3 weeks, she was smiling more, she
was eating more and gaining a little bit of weight back. Her mom said
when I wasn't there I would be ALL she talked about and how happy I made
her. Then.....the ex starts back into the picture. He was starting to
call her and saying how he loves her so much and would do anything for
her and wants her back. He told her that he admitted himself in rehab
and was going to quit drinking!! Well, this guy KNEW how to mind fuck
her....he was a slick mother fucker!! She was getting confussed and
depressed again and very upset. I told her to just let him go because
look what he did to you!! Therapy, 92lbs, you're a WRECK but, you're
getting better? Yet, she was still confused. She said she was SO in
love with me but, still had feelings for him because he came back into
the picture. Sometimes it doesn't matter what girl you are with
millsdd. There will ALWAYS try to be a "COCK BLOCK"!! If a guy sees a
girl and KNOWS she is with someone else....he won't give a fuck and try
to impress her, show off and then take her. BUT, you know what? It
takes TWO millsdd!!! TWO!! If she LOVES you enough and another guy
comes along and tries to, like I said, "COCK BLOCK" you and steal her,
if she truly loves you, she will tell him to get lost, fuck off, kick
him in the jimmy....whatever. She'll tell him to back off. You're just
with the WRONG girls millsdd!! Trust me I KNOW from experience. I've
been with NOTHING but the wrong girls. Don't worry man, seriously!!
You'll be okay!! I got your back millsdd!!!!