either have i,i know ive had crappy relationships but i dont choose not to be an agry person about it he needs prozac?

lol...

i bettcha ya ain't, lol...

bark bark bark, demand demand demand, hate hate hate, scream scream scream, lower lower lower, lower lower lower, to the portal be but a pinhole.

omg...

the compassion swells...

they loooooooooooooove me....

they are worried about me....

ah, that is sooooooooooooooooooo sweet.

how shall i ever return the favor.......

i am soooooooo touched, to be worried about?



so feeling the love...

i must thank the betrayer's, for it is surely their good wishes for me, that the gods have smiled down on me this night....

maybe with all the love, i might be able to be like them daddy?

do ya think, do ya think, do ya think?!

oh, how i wanna speak like they do....

oh how oh i long to watch the blood pour from my own head, as i stare at all that have wronged me daddy...

oh daddy, please teach me how to blame other's for all that happens to me....

it looks like so much fun.

and the sick zombies march, to the beat of the drum of their own pain, and prozac was pumped thru the brains of the bi polar, that only stared blindly at their own wants as supreme, and trod over anything that give them not the praise and adulation they craved, and the brains rotted from the heads, and the living dead walked as blind, but seeking what never even existed, a clone of themself, and the smoke of self misery rose up thru the clouds, and hate fell down and made the self perps feel smart, and they marched off cliffs, and drowned themself in their own self sorrows as divine, and they sat at the feet of their beds, and prayed for relief from the betrayers, while not once asking how they had betrayed others.

and the sad rain of unsanity engulfed

Well I know that I wasn't looking for pitty when I posted a little bit about myself. I know I put myself in it and I chose to stay until I just had enough. We had a lot of great times that went with the bad just like a lot of others. I'm not trying to blame anyone for my own stupidity and I have a beautiful daughter to share my life with and I do have some great friends and I look forward to meeting more friends.
I could of put a few other things down but there is no point because I know what I'm doing with my life and it's not a competion of who had it worse then others. I have moved on and not having the stress makes things way better. This could of turned into a well he did this, so I did this but we are aldults and the teenage years are long gone. For some it takes time and other people in order to move on and it feels great when we find these other people but just because I chose to deal with one person who was like that doesn't mean that everyone is like that and I always knew that.

then NEVER DEFEND YOURSELF.

ever.

you don't need to.

no need to explain self to anybody.

such only create most of the pain any human suffer's.

self want what it want, and it need no excuse.

then, self only has to look for what wants the same as self, and makes no excuse or defending of itself, and self will never be mistreated in a relationship, EVER.

peace

my bad

a friend that i had known all of my life started telling people where he worked that i was a worthless sob.

i stuck up for this guy for years because he has a chemical imbalance in his brain.any time some one would say i shouldn't trust him or that he was crazy,i'd stick up for him and just tell them "you don't know him like i do" and he started talking about me behind my back just because i went deer hunting and shot a deer on land that only i was allowed on


it's one reason i quit making friends

ok maybe i do like the drama thats why i tend to pick the guys i should date because for a small moment i like the drama and the crazyness..

as for a friend she asked to borrow money from me and never paid it back..

it would talk to long to cover each ex and how he did me wrong

Some people just don't know when to shut the F up!
How can you judge someone else's pain?
I haven't share the worse that happened to me here because I worked through it already, and forgave the man that violated me.
What was done to me, was awful and a betrayal beyond conception because it came from someone of my immediate family, but the love I had for the one that did that to me allowed me to grow pass it. The worse punishment for him is that he has to live with what he has done, and he will have to give account of his actions to karma, faith, his creator or just his conscience someday. I became a better person for it, and I refuse to live my life in darkness and hatred, I won't poison my heart because of it.
It's not wallowing in self pity,looking for attention or comfort from others. People here are sharing experiences, how it helped them grow and shape themselves into a better person. You cannot analyze the emotions of another person and the weight they had in their lives, everyone feels things differently. You were hurt, and in time you heal and move on, talking about it helps you to see how those events affected you in the past and where you found the strength to go though them and finally conquer them, freeing yourself, so in the future if you are ever in a position of weakness or abuse you can tap into those emotions and find the strength to help yourself. You can learn from others experiences as well. You see how some people grew and empowered themselves after going through much worse than you and the pain you feel becomes smaller and you realize you can be much more strong than you think. Human beings thrive and grow from their pain, belittling it with the use of fancy psico bauble is just the argument of those that think themselves high and mighty strong when in fact they are too weak or scared of looking inside themselves and work through their own pain. Ignoring your hurt and pretend it never happened will accomplish nothing, you will always be your weak and small self. Bring the pain baby, because I'm a strong woman that will never give up and knows exactly what she wants and where she is going. No A-hole will ever gain power or control over me again.

Love to all here and congrats on your courage to share.
Compassion, honey is what will change the world. Lend a hand, your heart and your ears to another and you might learn something as much as you'll help.
Many kisses

That is wise. And sad.

Yes, I do know this. If others want to hold onto feelings of resentments, there is nothing that I can do about it. One does have to defend themselves or others will think that they can be pushed around and it's not ok to do something to someone because of what's been done to us. Many think that time is all it takes but don't realize that it also takes people too. Finding who we can share ourselves with and who will not just take advantage of our good nature. Mistakes have happened for whatever reason and it's up to us if we want them to continue or not. It's not hard to find the one who can make us laugh when we are feeling down or make us happy. When things feel right then they do and both will know that. If some take time to think when they really enjoyed someone elses company maybe then they will realize what they really let slip away instead of holding onto. They themselves can only realize that, not anyone else. But if they are stopping themselves from being happy then that is their choice to make.

"ditto"...

well, that about sums that up!

$.02

Ex-best friend and Ex-boyfriend were sleeping together pretty much the entire time he and I were together.

Another ex-friend put merchandise in my purse at a store (I didn't know) and I had to take the blame for it.

OMG, OMG...bless ur heart. You certainly put things into perspective with that story. You deserve the best from now on -

davidben1 youd make a hell of an al-anon sponsor, not a drop of empathy in you..

good point Ruth. I don't laugh - don't know that I'll ever be able to go there, but I have used the outcomes to make a better life now than the one I had with him in it. I am so much better off with out him and that is my victory, my strength

lol...

guess too many were looking for sympathy so hard, that it can't be seen even when it is actually given...

below are the words in the first post, that caused the manic meltdown in self sympathiser heaven, and the wrath of hell straight from the dungeon of the purple dragons...

""""""easy to do, and hard NOT to do, redily admitted, and not underestimated, but this is but a self downward spiral, turning self into some or all that itself despised in other's...

those that comfort because they wish for comfort themself, simply create "misery love's company", so, self will but MAGNETIZE ITSELF, TO THE SAME TYPE ENERGY, SAME TYPE PEOPLE, OVER AND OVER, until...

(notice paragraph below)

against the grain, against the inclination, against the will, against the natrual, against the mass, against the blame, but the more blame self take, the more itself see's, the more self see, the more self GETS WHAT IT WANTS.""""""

wow, so ****ing harsh, lol...

only to that which thinks getting self sympathy be as getting love.

it indeed is the OPPOSITE of LOVE.

i like the last paragraph above the best, as there is no way this could be read, by any human with even a sliver of observation of other's left, and it be missed that such is spoken with empathy and understanding for the natural inclination to blame...

but, such is the sorrow filled way of that which but long most for self sympathy and praise, as it's only human brian food in life.

no wonder the world is so ****ed up, lol...

i feel ya, totally...

i understand what you are saying, and your words tell exactely how you feel.

however, as you write, seeing into yourself, you write "its nice to feel, like you are a part of the human experience, and not some "oddity"...

it is totally understood, that such feelings exist within mankind, but that feeling actually """increases""", the more self wishes or tries to make it go away?

why?

because, self then "connect", to that which see's itself as an "oddity" as well, based upon what for such "point of reference"?

why would one feel like an oddity to begin with?s

it's own pain seen most?

betrayal of self most?

and so, the more emotional self pain is seen and fed, the larger it become's.

do as you wish, these are just another insight, different than yours.

is that not what a diverse culture is all about?

this insight, affirms that self is creating itself it's own self fulfilled prophecy in itself, IF IT EMBRACE AT ALL, ANY FEELINGS OF "SELF AS BETRAYED".

OR SELF AS NEEDY?

OR SELF NEEDING TO FIND SOME VALUE, IN ITSELF, FROM ANY OUTSIDE SOURCE?

the "emotions" of the self, are determined by which "feelings" self ENDORSES AS GOOD ONES?

always have been.

ARE ALL HUMAN "FEELINGS" GOOD ONES?

will some feelings DESTROY SELF IF VALIDATED?

of course, has always been so in humanity?

but, it has come to be thought, even by a large mass of society, that ALL FEELINGS IN SELF ARE SUPREME, OR ALL GOOD ONE'S, so much so, there is no insight of how self be harming itself?

do human's have control over their "own feelings"?

yes.

if not, we would have to conclude NO HUMAN HATH CONTROL OVER IT'S FEELINGS?

if this be so, then one would have to conclude, HUMANS HAVE NO CONTROL OVER THEMSELF?

AH, BUT WE CAN'T GO THAT WAY, AS THAT WAY IS TOWARD HUMAN MENTAL BREAKDOWN, AND INDEED TRUE LOSS OF RATIONAL THOUGHT PROCESS AND CONTROL OF SELF?

ah, but indeed, such is BECOMING NORM AND MORE THE NORM IN SOCIETY MORE EACH DAY?

more eratic, irrational behaviour, BASED UPON THE "FEELINGS" of self as all good one's, and as SUMPREME?

well, not quite ALL of them as supreme, as any would indeed get a huge doubt when embracing such feelings within themself, and for damn good reason, but these 'doubts' of embracing such feelings, ARE MORE EASILY IGNORED, IF ONE CAN FIND ANOTHER HUMAN THAT DOES THE SAME...

this in essence, is why doing such is so ****ing self destructive.

after sometime of doing this, it become as an emotional drug, self needing some self pain emotional balm, and the need increases, not decreases.

and self will need it more each day, as time progresses, following this inclination.

the "feelings", that self gets in it's OWN BODY, itself gets to DECIDE, simply by way of choosing WHICH ONE'S SELF VALIDATES?

WHATEVER FEELING SELF "VALIDATES" AS GOOD, SHALL INCREASE?

if one embraces "self lonliness", then feelings of lonliness shall increase...

if one embraces "self was betrayed" feelings, then such feelings SHALL INCREASE, and create the past again, since doing such to START WITH, WAS WHAT MADE IT ATTRACTED TO WHAT "WOULD BETRAY SELF"!

perhaps not knowing such, is why nothing changes day after day, as self can change ANYTHING AT ANYTIME, if it actually faces what ITSELF IS DOING TO CREATE IT.

no human have need to have such feelings of "needing to connect", if itself know's what is keeping itself, FROM CONNECTING TO MORE AND BETTER.

without knowing such things, feelings of emotional self pain, have no other choice, but to stay and increase, as self is "keeping" these feelings trapped in it's own body, by holding onto them, and holding them is "feeding them", and they cannot pass, just as one passes a ****, but they are left to circulate thru the body over and over and over...

damn, what a miserbale place...

of course, nothing sane would want another to get trapped in that place.

but, anything that "feeds" off of you, for it's comfort for it's less than good feelings, shall want you to "stay the same", or it's pill for itself goes away...

a cycle of abuse indeed.

and, if self feed these feelings, they become more engrained in the actual fiber's of the body, each day making ir harder and harder to NOT EMBRACE THEM.

a cycle of self abuse.

that few know how to extricate themself from.

just one cent

We dont have one cent pieces here in Australia anymore.....


I can see why!