To be able to fix the mistakes I have made in my life. To say sorry to everyone I have ever hurt. Especially to the ones that are gone.

That's especially hard since you can't speak to them anymore .. there has got to be other ways to fill that void

Yes it is. I guess I always try to put a little more effort into my daily activities or spend more time with the kids. I try to give a little more love and smile more at people. I have more patience also.

good karma works like that .. you may not give back to those who gave to you, but to someone else

What I hunger for in my soul is truly to have a family again even if that is just two people. Due to circumstances beyond my control I can no longer be with my own. And after raising 6 children to successful adulthood, being isolated like I am is the hardest thing to cope with. You never know what lonely is untill you are completely alone and cut off from everyone and everything you have ever loved.

OMG ... Destiny that's horrible. I honestly do not know what I would do if that happened to me with my kids. they are everything to me.

I hope you find someone with kids that you can love on. Anyway you can be reunited with yours?

Not unless something happens and my ex dies. Untill then it isn't safe for any of us to be together.

uhhhhhhhhh did ya need help with that? him dyin' and all?

no one on the face of this earth will EVER keep my from my babies ..

I'm sorry sweets.

Ah another day .. another chance to listen to the call of your soul ........

any takers?

First is to be able to see my kids more often.

Second is to speed up the next five weeks so I can finally the meet the woman that occupies so much of my thoughts and dreams

((( mitch )))

there ya go .. two very worthy longings .. *sigh*

may all go well my dear friend

Thank you

I need to sit down and talk to my mom about the course of my life as it stands. I have recently made some changes, and she was always first to know when I did things like this. However, when I made all these recent changes, I held back due to circumstances that were happening at the time. Now, she feels like she has been left out cause of my decision, and I don't want her to feel like that. She is the one person in my life who has always been there for me. I know she will understand things once we talk, but I have wanted to talk to her face to face.

I do miss the California weather. It is so humid here in Florida, and while I love being here, the humidity sucks. I went to California for the first time last year and the weather there just blew me away. It was freaking great!

I can understand the mom thing. My oldest son kinda left me out of stuff for a bit as he was spreading his wings (21) and it kinda sucked.

Ya .. we moms are like that .. explain and she'll be right there as always.

Love life still good handsome?

I have no shortage of friends that love going on my boat but being alone on my boat right at dusk with some good tunes playing is the best. I never lose the love on doing that and I do it quite often.

It sure is Fade. We had our first disagreement the other day...and it was kind of refreshing. I mean, relationships take work and all, and that moment just reminded me of that. But it is just weird how small stuff can turn into a disagreement. Always silly crap like that that we allow to become so major. Then, when it is over, you sit back and laugh about it. Oh well.....that's just the way it is.

My sister and brotherinlaw have a yacht in Cali .. I want a trip soooooo bad. It must be amazing .. *sigh*

A good day to all on this barge of tranquility

what a nice way to refer to this thread .. I LIKE!!