I don't really blame men but the natural feeling comes to me when this happens to me to resent them i can't help it. I don't consider myself a whore. I don't take my pants off for anyone. I get trapped in the smooth talk sometimes when they say they could see me with them in the future. I don't like to think all men are liars. Thats how it works though sometimes, but i felt like you were being a little rude so if you could please not come off to me like that no disrespect.

yeah but theres a limit on the hurt. I don't look for the hurt i accept it but thats not what makes life fun. Ill agree sex is fun and sometimes its ok to have fun. I just want something for once that wont hurt me? Is that too much to ask?

Yeah and the sad thing is i know this, but im vulnerable. sometimes i wish a guy would take that into consideration instead of acting like a hungry wolf .

I know and ive known a lot of them im tired of knowing them i wish there was someone who knew they liked me for me before we had sex but i know if i like the person i have cloudy judgement i know i need to wait and not give it up so soon but sometimes i get tricked

Dont guys think that maybe just maybe a girl isnt a slut just because they ****ing gave in on having sex because they feel like they are attracted to the person and they want to show it? Im just tired of feeling alone

Everytime this happens to me it makes me resent guys or want to change every quality possible you saw in that guy to look for in another guy its painful to go through that and some guys may call girls a slut for even saying this but i bet anything that if an attractive girl walked in to your house and jumped on top of you and said "lets go" you would be led by the nose am i right? of course i am.

Some girls like myself like sex????? just maybe. and thats how they show you they are connecting with you if thats not what you want then say NO for **** SAKE dont just let it happen then fake the mutual feeling and let the girl get hurt because she was only trying to like you or connect with you or give you something special like that

sex to me is almost a joke now and i like sex very very much
im learning to be a cold heartless ***** because of dick heads like this i dont know what to do anymore :(

well hello there

Thanks Kc very much and yes I loved the ending as well

I appreciate it AZ!!
Very much.

I adore this very much!
You are good!

Thank you Jimz!

Lol you make me smile Dhalian

and thank you very much Kalunda

It's a bit wild maybe I could translate.
It's a view of my own hell.

Feathers fly all around
I never wanted this
Shaggy waves on the ground
Lilac scented piss

Red pillows mangled strange
Green diamonds scream
I wouldn't dare make a change
It's in my head it seems

Glorious denial takes my enemy
It's my other side
You will never understand me!!
Oh! the smiles I hide

Sun leaks through white metal
Industrial gardens roar
Yellow fake sun flower pedal
Growing on the door

Fun house mirrors take my sight
warming up my head
This is crazy am I RIGHT?!
laughter fills my bed

Fiber glass fills my lungs
Where are my pills?!
Little holes restrain my tongue
The thrill oh the thrill of kills!

A chapter coming true
It's all in my head
I cannot stay blue
I would rather be red.

Thank you everyone!!!

It's almost relaxing to read
Wonderful poem

Thank you Kalunda

Wonderful
You are good
Sorry to hear about your brother.

Thank you too Gossip and Mig!!

Thank you very much Miss Kim and Aingel

My heart is waiting your beginning
My other half screams
I see her face cringing
You can tell what this means

A new life is arriving
release of the eyes
you can see him striving
with air filled cries

hour after hour
she anticipates his love
i give her a flower
she gives me a hug

I ask if shes happy
shes says that she is
though the pain was crappy
it's worth while for him

they bring him in uncover his eyes
blue is the days
the days will go by
and so softly he lays

An angel in disguise
and then he smiled
just look at those eyes
what a beautiful child