Turn me inside out
Can't you see i'm filled with doubt
See inside of me
The deepest part of me only i can see
What will you do with what you learn
How will you react to what you see
Now that you really see me
See the worry that boils underneath
The self doubt of me
Will i ever really be good enough
Am i really the one you want
Do you really truely love me
Am i pretty enough
Am i skinny enough
Am i really the one you want
What will you do now that you know
Now that you've seen the deepest part of me

I've lost 20 lbs since sept, still want to lose 20 more.
If i do then great,if i don't whatever.
I'm just trying to eat healthy and get alot of exercise.

The night is hot with fever'd sin
The night is whispering within
Your touch so slight upon my skin
Your touch so hot burns from within
Your lips so warm and inviting
Your kiss so intense,itoxicating
Hold me close.....skin on skin
Don't let me go...drink you in
Tangled up in love
All wrapped up in lust
Take me to the bed now baby
Make a mess of me
The night is burning with sin
The night is screaming within
Your touch so rough upon my skin
Your touch so intense burns from within
Your lips so soft and wanting
Your kiss so wet and inviting
Hold me close.....skin on skin
Wont let you go...drink me in
Tangled up in love
All wrapped up in lust
Take me to the bed now baby
Make a mess of me
Take me to the edge now baby
Hold me there for eternity
Take me to the edge now baby
Hold me there dangerously.....
Till we explode with wicked intensity
Still tangled up in love
All wrappd up in lust

I'm standing here looking at yesterday
It keeps creeping up on me today
Staring at the sky wondering why i feel this way
Mad,sad,angry and scared
In love,in lust, i'm turning to dust
These haunting thoughts and messed up memories
Keep on creeping up on me...breaking me
What was never really was....love
What i've found is love as sweet as the softest sound
Yet i can't believe he really loves me
Afraid he'll cheat,afraid he'll lie and say goodbye
All the while really knowing he never would
His heart is honest pure and good
And yet it keeps creeping up on me
Those haunting hurtful memories......
Of past pain and lies,left alone to cry

Yes!

I love you mike! Thank you for being the sweet caring wonderful man that you are!

I'm thinking about how much i love my sweetie mike, and how thankful i am to have him in my life!

thank you both for reading

The silence is violent
Tearing at my mind
Sad thoughts turning corners
Afraid at every find
defining silence
So terribly violent
So quiet,no noise not a word
Yet so loud and clear...
You are heard
A hammer to the heart
Shattering my soul
The silence has taken it's toll
So quiet,so violent,erily still
Chocking back tears
Holding onto my will
Waiting for words
That will never be heard
The silence is violent

I'm thinking about my sweetie!

So happily taken.......(((Mike)) hugs and kisses

Could this be true
Could you be true
Will you be true
Or will you undo
The beauty within
Why do i question you
And your intentions
You have showed me
Only true honesty
You have showed me
Only a loyal love
So then why do i question
Why do i wait for the end
Of my happiness
Is it that i am just
Used to being hurt
Is it that i feel unworthy
Of your sweet honest love
Is it that i am just
Used to being used
And then tossed aside
Is it that i am NOT used
To someone like you
You are one of a kind
You are so sweet, a hard find
I know its just my mind....
Playing tricks on me
Only in my mind

The silence is defening
The emptiness confineing
What do you hide inside your nothingness
What do you fear will come of this
Speak the truth....what will you do
Walk the line in time
The truth will come....are you the one
This emptines still confineing me
Your silence speks loudly yet defining
I hear nothing....loud and clear
Means more to me than deadly lies
Whispered in my ear
Confine me no more your silence is welcome
Confuse me no more your fear has found you
The truth has come ....it's time it's done
No more games
No more shame
No more hiding in your nothingness
You now see what has come of this

Take a look inside ....
A look inside my broken heart
See the pieces you've torn apart
All the pieces of forever
Have now become never
How will i ever go on
Will the pieces ever mend
Will i ever love again
I could never be whole
Without the pieces you stolen
Take a look inside.....
A look inside my broken heart
Do you feel sad or even care at all
Am i just a bruised and beaten soul
Left to lay ...broken...forgoten
Will i ever be whole....
To love and live again

So happilly taken!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So fragile the heart
So tender the soul
So quick to grab on
So hard to let go
So saddened the eyes
As tears start to flow
So soft the words
Wispered low
To a fragile heart
Afraid to let go

My heart aches
Oh how my heart breaks
I try so hard to protect you
You just don't seem to understand
Yes i am hard on you
There are rules you must follow
Oh how i love you
More than you could possibly understand
I just want whats best for you
I wish you could understand
One day you will be in my shoes
You will be a mother too
One day you will see....
My rules and strictness
Is all for your own good
One day you will understand
My darling daughter
I love you so much
I will fight for you with all that i am
My sweet baby girl
I love you so much

I allready have who i want....my sweetie mike!

Thank you for reading and you kind words.

Dare i say i love you
Whether drunk or sober
Dare i say i love you
And lose you when it's over
Dare i say i love you
In the heat of passion
Dare i say i love you
Afraid of your reaction
Tripping on my tongue
Too late the words are formed
It has begun......
Will this be the beginning
Or will it be the end
Will my words fall
As i do into your arms
Or will they hit the ground
Never heard never found
Dare i say i love you