first of all. i also think you are a very nice person from your post, you seem friendly and you want to make others happy so i do think you are a nice person.

if someone wanted to kill them self i think its absolutely wrong and evil and i think that people should never think of killing themselves because they were made by the hands of god.
we are god's own children and should never think of hurting ourselves or others.

i have no control whatsoever over the decison of another person but i have control of my life and i know i would never, ever dream of hurting myself because i know god made me and i did not make myself and i have absolutely no right to hurt myself.

when someone wants to kill themself its not that they really want to die but the just want the pain to end - which means that they are going thru great pain. to answer your question - first of all if they wanted to kill themselves i do not have control over their bodies so i cannot stop them, only god can but i can pray for them and encourage them to think of ways to ease their pain rather than thinking of sucide. other than prayer and encouragement i am powerless.

love you all.

how come its always about death? i don't believe you are just playing everytime. i do believe that if you continue in this fashion that you can cause harm to yourself and to others and that is not a good thing. we must love ourselves and others and try to protect eachother. this is not a perfect world and we all have our own problems, some of us have no food to eat tomorrow morning and some people sleep on mud floors and have to make one slice of bread last 3 days - these are real problems. we all have different problems but we cannot blame others for them. we must forgive others who have wronged us and try to make our lives better. i know of alot of people who have suffered tremendously but have risen to the very top today because they chose to help themselves out of their problems. you can too. don't let problems stop you from doing things you want whether its going to university or buying a computer or saving money. stop all this crap about death and smarten up yourself or you will end up in the worst place ever. just a word of advise for you as a friend. i hate to see young people like you spend time here in adult chatroom talking about death and blood and hell etc. its just totally disgusting to me. i think of you like a son and it totally disgusts me. no offense meant but just words of advise. i do encourage you to talk to some people about what is really bothering you in this life.

i am happy your are trying to help yourself by writing. writing is a great way to express yourself, i like to write too, it helps me to relax. do you think you could try writing different stuffs the next time that is not death related? it could help you a great lot to express yourself in a different way. i am always concerned when people think that its better to write about death rather than doing it because one day we will be tired of writing about it and fantasise about doing it - that is where the trouble comes. fantasing about death and sucide or things of that nature.

you mentioned not wanting to take your meds and i do not blame you because most of the people who recommend them need more help that anyone else. if you feel that you can do without them then you should find another way to help yourself, like joining a group or volunteering at a place that makes you happy or helping others in your spare time.

awwww am so sorry that they did not help you. they probably do not understand you right? well listen dear, you have to help youself at all cost and you can do this by talking to people you feel comfortable with - a good friend, a pastor or just pray to god. god is never too busy for us.

don't worry about the kids at school who do not look at you - this happens to alot of kids, infact it happens everyday to millions of people so don't feel alone. god is always with you and always looks down on you, even when you close your eyes to sleep he sends two guardian angels to watch over you every night but it is important that you begin to help yourself ok

quite frankly you scare me just they way you talk in here. i think of colombine kids who were perfectly normal kids then they went crazy after developing innocent ideas about others then BANG, they went nuts and shoot themselves up to death and others.

honestly, i would not be surprised if you have flirted witht the idea of suicide or have people you really hate. i could be totally wrong and i do apologise but what if i am right in a small way? i mean that is just my opinion.

you need some guidance and if you are not getting the right ones you can end up hurting yourself and others in the process.
again. its just my opinion.

i agree dear and i know what you are getting but i
think i want to stop talking to you about this. i
think you should really do more healthy things in life
like jogging, cooking, travelling, studying, movies,
sports, reading, going to church, praying and having
conversations that are not death related rather than
what you do at present in the forums. - just a thought.

having said all that i think you get the drift. goodluck,
good bless.

rap music? why only rap music? what about trailer park music?

i do very much, why?

ok young man. there are a million other things you can do in your young life rather come here and talk about death and being blood thirsty. this is the last time i will make a comment about these threads for your own good, as a friend to you.

personally i would be afraid to peek into your mind even though you say its just for fun you say these things.

alot of kids start out innocently with these things then they become obsessed, next thing you know they are in the deep end of the waters and can't get out and eventually waste themselves like this. i am not saying that you are or will become like this but what i am saying is this - these things start innocently then they get more serious depending on situations in life. at 21 you should be getting ready for the real world soon cause after 25 - its serious business.

goodluck with your life.

i would like to see a real photo of you please. thank you. be brave and send me one will you.

you're just a sweet, funny guy trying to make everyone happy i guess but for such a young age i think you dwell too much with
this kind of life - i mean death and stuff. we talked about this anways.

don't let me stop you. am sorry. what is your real name?

am good at shooting the black ball in first

lol, you don't know you do? ok sweetheart, you post alot of demonic posts as far as i am concerned, some might disagree but in answer to your question, yes you do post demonic threads.

lol

its true so what? am not ashamed to say it, they are men like that you know...

they say:-

you are so lovely
you are so sweet
you are such a good friend
you are what am looking for
you are so different
you are so wonderful
you are so unique
you are so special
i love you.
you are a dream come true
you make me so happy.


but they don't call
they don't write
they don't spend time with you
they don't support you in good and bad times
they don't care if you are happy or sad
they don't care about your dreams or fears
they don't care if you are sick
they don't care if they hurt you
they don't care about your family
they don't care about your friends
yet.... we believe all the good things they say.