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Tue 12/25/07 09:46 AM
There are many different types of cheating. Physical, emotional, psychological. Believe me, they all happen.

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Tue 12/25/07 07:39 AM
I am a photographer. I will have my bachelor's in photography in the summer '09.

My specialty is black and white. I can get lost in the darkroom alone with my photos.:heart:

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Tue 12/25/07 06:40 AM

Man, I feel you pain. I was married for 13 years and my x cheated 2 times on me. Ater a long period I found what I thought was my soulmate we were together for around 3 years this past summer. Found out she opened credit cards in my name.....she lied to me, stole from me, then to top it off found out she had been cheating on me also. So believe me I feel your pain....why do nice guys finish last?


Man, that does suck. I have no idea why nice guys have such a hard time. I think being nice is a sign of weakness, so it opens you to cunning people. I don't want to change though. Caring about others and being sensitive to others feelings is part of my soul. I have lost everything. I won't lose my soul.

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Tue 12/25/07 06:37 AM

yo dude.... It happens to the best of us... After 18 years of marraige , 8 years ago dec 18th my beautiful wife who i loved with all my heart told me she didn't "LIKE" me anymore....i would have rather her say she didn't love me... She had a younger "boy" friend.... well she is alone now he got what he wanted..... I say Merry Christmas ... Life goes on...




Does your heart ever stop hurting?

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Tue 12/25/07 06:29 AM

wow vikings. sorry to hear you have no friends or family inwhich to share the season. I trust that your pain is true and that you feel as though you are somehow neglected by others of your positive attributes. One thing that I have learned as I have crashed and burned from a marriage and a 2 year relationship is that you may possess those qualities that you see in yourself, but your not allowing others to see them as you may mask them by having a long face or such. We have all been there and doubted ourselves, but one thing is for sure, you need to pick up yourself and find the truth in yourself that you have good qualities first because no one will see them unless you see them first. I wish you a happy christmas day and a happy new year, but thats all we can do is wish for you, you have to do the rest. Take care and smile. You will feel better if you change the face.:smile:


Thankyou, and I do agree with everything you said, but even my wife has said, and I quote, "I have the greatest husband anyone could want. Many women would be lucky to have a husband like mine, but I don't want him."

I have never had a problem with self perception before. I can do anything I put my mind to. Except read people's true intentions.

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Tue 12/25/07 06:26 AM
You are all VERY sweet. It is really helping.

Thank You.

I will check this several times for a pick me up.

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Tue 12/25/07 06:24 AM
It's been months of me trying not to be angry. You know, I always thought that money would bring me happiness. Now that I am comfortable, it just gives more reasons for people to lie to you.

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Tue 12/25/07 06:15 AM
Edited by Vikingsfreak on Tue 12/25/07 06:16 AM
I AM UGLY!! I AM FAT!!

These are the terms used to make people feel bad about themselves for being who they are and not falling into a mold. This consumer society ruins peoples lives and their perceptions of themselves. I have tried no to believe these things about myself, but I have to face the facts: In a society where people are told how the feel and what they are attracted to by the television and magazines, I AM UGLY AND I AM FAT. Why fight it anymore.

I AM INTELLIGENT!! I AM SWEET!! I AM A GENTLEMAN!! I AM CARING!!

Why don't these things matter. Why doesn't anyone give a f**k about these attributes.

My ex-wife gained a lot of weight and had skin problems because of a medication that she was on. I truly loved her. I swear, I didn't even notice the weight. She was always the most beautiful person to me. Well, I supported her through college, paid for her to go to graduate school, paid for her apartment in England. paid for her utilities, food etc..

Well, she lost her weight, her skin cleared up, and she cheated on me with some "cool" college guy she met at a party. A man that could "turn her on in ways that I never could". AFTER SIX YEARS OF MARRIAGE!!

People are S**T!!!!!!!!!! There is no loyalty. I hate this life. I need to get away from everything for good.

Sorry for the rant, I have no family or friends to talk to. I gave everything up for my "happy" marriage.

I hope everyone has a Merry Tuesday.

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Sun 12/23/07 05:11 PM

Sure Vikings......pick on my reply. Thanks alot. LOL!


Believe me, I wish someone would have warned me!!!happy happy happy LOL

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Sun 12/23/07 05:08 PM

That is not as huge an age difference as you may think. What I would make sure of is.....is she on the right track for her future-is she going to school and planning a direction in life or is she just looking for someone to take care of her. Be careful-and good luck.


My ex is extremely intelligent, had a Bachelors degree by the time she was 21, and she still needed time to "grow up".

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Sun 12/23/07 05:05 PM
My ex wife was 19 when we met, 21 when we married, and I am 7 years older than her. In my situation exactly what you said happened. She needed more life experience. One of the toughest lessons of my life. We divorced after 4 years of marriage.

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Sun 12/23/07 05:02 PM
Once a cheater, always a cheater. Leopard doesn't change their spots etc...

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Sun 12/23/07 03:40 PM
Thank you all for being so nice already. I'm already feeling all warm and tingly.blushing

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Sun 12/23/07 03:30 PM
Well, I am new here, but I hope to be an active member. I am newly single after four years of marriage, and am finishing work on my bachelors degree, so I spend a lot of time alone in my house on the computer.

I don't enjoy drinking, and I am not very good in person, so I figured this would be a good way to meet new friends.

I look forward to meeting some people.

Go Vikings.

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Sat 12/22/07 08:03 PM
I have a major scar across my face. It goes all the way from my right ear, down my jaw line, and to the corner of my mouth. I TRIED not to let it affect me, but you perceive that you can see it in people's eyes, the direction of their eyes. Before long, I couldn't even make eye contact anymore.

I have a high IQ, a great sense of humor, I am great at communicating, and most importantly, I am loyal and faithful. Nothing but the facade of relationships because of the comforts I could offer.

Then I woke up one morning and looked at myself in a whole new way. My scars are a story line of my life. As Doug Stanhope says, "I was a player in this life, not a spectator".

The sad part is that I still don't have a relationship, and I may well die alone, but I am going to die alone with my head held high.

I guess what I'm trying to say is do you want to be intimate with someone who would reject you for the trials and tribulations of life.

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