I also feel that Love is the greatest curse ever put upon this earth.

I say it way to quick. I guess it depends on how receptive the person you are saying to is.

Damn near cried when I heard.

I couldn't sleep last night when I wrote it, I may have been delirious.

I am in a very good mood. I am meeting such great people, supportive people, people who don't judge me by my bull****. People who understand. If only i could sleep, I would be in good shape.

So, nothing to ***** about at the moment, what to talk about?

I guess I'll use this forum to mention a few things I believe strongly in. I am very passionate about my opinions, so I might as well vent some of them now.

VOTE!!! Please vote. Get informed. Get an opinion. Vote your needs, your beliefs, your heart. Find out what these politicians believe in. Check online. Don't listen to the media. In Nov. anyone who lives in reasonable distance and needs a ride to a voting center, I will give you a ride. I don't care who you vote for, I won't even lecture politics, I just want this country that I love to be back in the hands of the people, and the only way to start change is to make politicians fear the people. Voting gives the people power. Unless you live in Florida.

Pray in one corner of your room, **** in the other. Which is more helpful? Sorry, couldn't resist that one.

Global Warming won't kill you tomorrow. It isn't as bad as Al Gore says. It isn't as good as the oil companies (Bush) say. It's in the middle. Not everything has to be a disaster. There are very specific climate changes which can be recorded through the geological records. But we are accelerationg it. But it can be stopped. But it doesn't have to be everything is off of the gas. A one mile square of solar panels in the Arizona desert could power this whole country. We just need the wasted money to be diverted into conservation We need to get off of the gas for national security reasons. Not violent terrorism, but financial terrorism. Last I saw, and I am too lazy to look up the new numbers, 12% of our economy is owned by Saudi Arabia. If they pull out their banks and businesses, there will be a depression that would tear this country apart.

Stop *****ing about the price of gas. It's not the oil companies, it's this country. Try traveling out of the country. Gas prices have stayed the same every else in the world. We all get our oil from the same place. The value of the dollar has been plummeting. Mainly due to the increasing deficit. Less value to the dollar, less oil per dollar. Besides, if you buy the little bottles of water, you are paying more for water than gas.

Back to the environment. How silly is it that you see these big SUV's with the I LOVE USA stickers. Yet those same SUV's are increasing the strangle hold that the "oil bearing" countries have over our country.

Did you know it takes 10 gallons of oil energy to burn a 60 watt bulb for one year? Christmas lights are bad for America.

Scientology Sucks...nuff said. see also Dianetics

If anyone has made to the end, don't be pissed at me for my opinions. That is what makes this one of the greatest countries in the world. I can have my own opinion. It doesn't have to all be life and death. Debate someone!! Not fight.

What's your ideal mate's qualities?

That got to me too.

Didn't care for it too much.

I consider myself one of those proverbial nice guys

You can talk to me anytime. I am a nice honest person. Of course, if I was a liar, I guess I would lie about that. LOL

Seriously, if you need a shoulder, or a friend, get in touch.

Because women always say they want a good guy, but they always end up with the jerk. Thnik they can change them. Then men like me, gentlemen, intelligent, caring, faithful, are left to sit alone.

I'm glad you both find my inner turmoil and personal problems so entertaining. I was looking for help to work things out. Thank you so much. I liked this site for not bing judged, and being able to talk for real. Thanks for taking away this last bastion for hope.

I don't know what I need. I don't know what will even make me happy. I had a particular bad visit with my psychologist yesterday. He blames my whole life on my addictive personality. He says that I went from being addicted to drugs and alcohol, to being addicted to my ex. He tells me that I will never have any meaningful relationships. I am tired of being alone. I liked being married. I liked having someone to come home to. I liked having someone to take care of. I really miss it. I get confused about what I miss though. I get in a mind set where I think I miss my ex, but I figure I just miss being married.

The problem with me and my ex was that we were too similar in so many ways. We both have this depression problem, and I have an obsessive compulsive problem, which simply means we were horrible for each other. We fed each others worst parts. When she was down, I would take it personally, and think she wasn't happy, then I would get down, and it would affect her in different ways.

That asshole psychologist actually said that I drove my ex to cheat on me just to get away from me because I was suffocating her. That would mean that all my problems, my wasted years in a marriage, my divorce, everything, is really my fault. Because I am an asshole. If all this is true, I don't deserve to be happy. If i cause this much unhappiness, maybe I deserve to be miserable.

I just don't get me. One of my ex's complaint about me is that I caused her to have a negative view of the world. That I affected her ability to have any relationships with people because she couldn't trust anyone because of me. That may be true. But whats wrong with that? Every time she didn't listen to me, she got ****ed over by someone. I was trying to protect her from going through the hard life lesson's that I had to go through. I wanted to save her the pain of betrayals. I have a very strong and accurate intuition. I always have. I am usually right. Why is it so bad to care about people and try to save them pain? Why does that make me hard to live with? Of all the faults a husband could have, why is that the one that can't be glossed over? I have seen it so many times. Some woman who gets beaten by her significant other, only to be head over heels in love with him. I have never hit a woman in my life, I would never hurt someone I love. I went to prison once for beating the living hell out of a man who was beating his girlfriend. I get a lot of time and a permanent record for that. As soon as I got out, within a few days, I saw that they were still together. I went to jail for that. I am not jail material. I am not built for that ****. I am too sensitive and intelligent.

Why are the qualities that I have that women say they want, turns out to repel them. Why is it bad to care? At what point am I addicted to being with someone and being in love, and at what point am I actually in love? How do I know the difference.

This is my main problem: I just can't get my brain to just shut the **** up and leave me alone. I just want some time to relax without my mind and thoughts spinning out of control and sending my into a depressive state. I want to be happy without my brain digging and prying until it finds something to be unhappy about. I just want to be numb. I just want to be that average asshole walking around, only caring about himself. Not feeling anything, not hurting anymore. I'm tired of feelings. I'm tired of being me.

Not really interesting, kind of creepy though.

She's responding to your scent. When you sleep you roll around, and sweat. They can smell you through laundering your sheets. Try putting a perfume that you don't normally use on your sheets.

I cheat on my taxes.

The IRS doesn't read these though? Right?

AAAAAAAAAMEN!!!!!!!!

Someone lost in the moment can be forgiven. Good people can lose their heads.

Finding out that the one you love isn't emotionally faithful can be devastating.

AND, they all hurt a relationship. I actually think physically cheating isn't the worst.