Actually I do sugar coat things the vast majority of the time. I decided to not sugar coat my thoughts on this site and see how it goes. So far the reaction has been all negative.

People say they want honesty, but when it's there in front of you it sucks to deal with, and is almost always more complicated than teh white lies people tell. Once again another interesting topic.

This is a deviation from my normal shell. After working in sales for five years, I could basically make any situation soft and fuzzy with words. It is really just a silly game and inevateably you end up lying to yourself and ignoring your problems.

I don't mind you posting, I encourage all feed back with reguards to my problems. I was just inquiring about your motivation in posting. "I didn't read it, too long" is not exactly going to encite debate or discussion. The issue of life's frustration and when to enter a relationship is an interesting topic.

I mentioned this on page 1, but spelling and grammar errors are there because I like to keep the flow of my writing going, then go back and edit through. I didn't realize there wasn't an edit button on the origional post.

If you were not interested why not just keep it to yourself and move on instead of advertising about how you found me uninteresting?

Edit: reguarding the baggage. i deal with it on the internet so i don't have to dump it onto the people in my real life.

It is discussion. I am giving them more information to form better conclusions. I am glad you won't be back because I was actually starting to get some real feedback. Not trollish comments about how pathetic I am for having harships and trying to work through them online with the help of strangers. Nobody is wrong because we are discussing opnions here.

Do us both a favor and actually move on please, you comments are not helpful.

I thought this was a waste of your time, I was not talking to you, but you could not be more wrong.

I love to help people, that is what I do, it is what makes me feel good about my self. In all honesty if I was in a position to help a person as hard up as I am now, and we were compatable on an emotional and physical level i would certainly date them. Money is only worth the amount of freedom I can buy back with it.

Thanks for the thoughtful post.

I do need a muse, and I am looking for one.

I don't exactly blame the bad luck, but I have to acknowledge that it's there. It is not just "luck" it is a very very complicated problem that stemmed from family feuds and small town politics, and it has created a situation that follows me. It is just too complicated to discuss at lengh, as you can tell my post was already long enough.

I enjoy the marijuana though. It makes me feel better and look healthier. It is one of the few things I have in my life right now that I enjoy and look forward to. The cigarettes and alchol serve no purpose. The weed helps me to eat and sleep.

My mom and I are not huggers. even as a kid we didn't hug. it's simply not my thing. We have a nice distance in our relationship.

Why do people keep calling me OP?

It is simply an expression of frustration about the corelation between finantial stability and finding a partner. When times are at their hardest is when you need somebody by your side most, but a lot of people feel you have to get all the money stuff taken care of before you can love, which is unfortunate because that is not what is truely important in life.

First you find the true root of teh frustration, then you move on. That is the best way to emotionally grow as a person. If you hide the frustration it simply expresses itself in different ways.

I choose a dating site because that is one source of frustration, I felt it was better than an internet job application for expressing my thoughts.

gotta work through this, the frustration is clouding my thoughts.

Was it really a post about who I was or how I felt?

Yes, but you took it to be a synopsis for who I am, not an expression of my current frustration. that makes you quick to label me based on one page I spent about .0004228% of my life writing.

You are quick to judge and label, that is an amazingly unattractive quality.

You know nothing about me to call me similar to your ex boyfriend. You have unresolved emotional issues there and are transferring them to me. I am frustrated right now, but I am going to work through it. And I am not going to work through it by pretending everything is ok and ignoring the frustration. i am going to express the frustration until it is dealt with, then I will move forward. Everybody has to work through adversity at one time or another.

Like I said, I just want a girl to spend time with me. Nothing more nothing less, nobody should have to go through this world alone.

Because it is not who I am, it is how I feel about myself and my life at that point in time. Expressing it and talking through it can only help. I am frustrated, not chronically negative.

Like I said before, I express frustration and negative emotion by writing them down and discussing it with strangers on the internet. i don't have any close friends that are close to where I live, and I am throughly alone. Which is a shame, because even though you don't see it, i have a lot to offer. Your ex boyfriend has jeded you a little to where you put everybody with hardships who are losing hope in his "category" of people. it is what sigmund Freud called transference.

This is a very negative write up, and like I said, if you are not strong enough to deal with a little adversity and negativity then I want nothing to do with you. I never said anywhere that I hold no hope for the future, you inferred that. I am simply very frustrated, and anybody that has dealt with any extensive hardship knows what I am going through and can empathize.

If you indeed were a smelly bum with a third grade reading level then I would not want to date you, and knowing that I wanted to not date you before I wasted both of our time with messages would be benificial for both of us.

I express things by writing them down and talking about them. I found this quote interesting.



What you said (in the first quote) is just a internet sugar coated happy way of putting the same thing I said. The truth about bad situations is negative. you can only be blindly positive for so long before the repressed frustration builds up to the point you have to express it in one form or another. I express it by writing it down and sharing it with strangers on the internet. The odds of us ever meeting are slim to none, and I am actually happy about that. If I had told you 'I am in a rough patch, but I will get through it." I would not have learned about the type of person you really are.

Like I said, complete honesty, not sugar coated internet honesty. I am putting negatives first and if a woman can appreciate the straitforwardness then she will get to know the positive things about me.

I am tired of talking to women, haveing them like me, then it falling apart when they hear the negatives. This weeds out the field.

I can only work where I can walk, and there are no comission jobs within walking distance.

What was that, sorry I was too busy to read what you said?