i was sick at work today. i got myself so nervous about this new adventure that my stomach felt like it was going thru a rinnger.. i just worry about all the stuff i cant affect and don't know what is comming that i get myslef worked up.. i used to get chest pains cause of it (and im only 28). god i just want some confidence and epace of mind right now so i dont blow this oppertunity

i like the ability to have someone around though
i dont like feeling alone
thanks for everyones encoruagment
i just know its put up or shut up time and i gotta risk it all now

well id ont want to live alone that scares me..
i just want to know what to do with my life
i wnated the job at the schools that i didnt get cuase i was helping kids in a way
but this is just a job
and i dont want to be owwned by them and not get weekends etc

I know and i was nervous at the store before i started
I just am scared to fail...
its been a year and a half since i graduated college and besides the gas station this is the first job that gave me a chance
though im not sure how 'well' im being paid but i don't know.. for now ill make it work i hope

i think god likes to joke with me.
i got a job offered today.
im happy but nervous cause i worry about how i will do
but i know i can always go back to my store

FF12
FF10
FF 2

I am just so tired. I have no friends here. no one understand why im so depressed, they think i should just suck it up and keep going.. but its ****ing hard. i went thru all my costly schoolc ause of my hand disability and now it seams that i just cant seam to find anything.. im 28 and still living at home for farks sake.. how am i ever gonna meet anyone and start a life if i cant even find a decent job

Well i just got a call from the job i really wanted.. they decided to go with someone else.. im tired of fighting and losing.. i did so good at this interview and everything..i worked so hard to fight against my disabilities and general distrust for people.. and it leads me nowhere. im 70k in debt and alone and i just wish my dying heart would give out before i do it to myslef

Ended up hanging out with some people i knew and had a few beers. it helped.. I will be honeset i am very lonley right now. Im almost 30 and it feesl like my life is playd like a sad game.. Dull and unmotivated.. I see stoners and losers that come into my store and hae more. Friends to hang with.. a social live. maybe evne some romance.. I long for these things. I am so tired of being alone. Comming home from work to play ps2 or watch tv til i cry/daydream myself to sleep. I wanna remeber what its like to have fun.. to drink a few with the guys and play cards.. To look into a womans eyes and see hope.. or love... I just dont know how to do this on my own.. I can't see someone and say hi my names jeff I am worth being your friend/lover..

I just dont want my life to pass me by.. without something to remeber it for...

its fun but the expansions are costly

tatics is fun
7 was good but my ps1 blew up before i finished it

hows pvp for it...
is it as fun as cs source

im fond of ff12 but thats cuase im playing it now

anyone know if this includes the pizza bites

well i probably did something stupid at work today and will get fired.. a girl that works with me came in and started auguring with my pizza staff about what time she came in tomorrow and in front of customers none less.. so once the customers left i tried to get her to leave and when she didn't i blew up at her and told her to get out..since i was young ive always kept my anger in check but i just let go and yelled at her.. i will admit she is incompetent but still i shouldn't of done it and now im probably gonna get fired for it.. the thing that makes me angry at myself is that 2 of my 3 interviews were good and im most likely gonna have a new job in 3 weeks but i had to fark this all up and now i might be putting my future at risk...

ok im just venting but ya.. i just got called by a girl at my gas station where i work cause she was stressed and wanted me to close for her.. after 8 the place is basically dead for the rest of the night... so she wanted me to come in and clean for her.. im sorry but geeze man.... im sorry but if u can work cause your stressed.. when all your basically doing is moping and sweeping.. come on... im tired of peoples crappy work ethic.. and sadly i now have to screen my calls for the rest of the night

interview went good. tad nervous cause im the first person interviewing for it and i want ti bad. but it now just falls on the grace of god and those who interviewed me

WWE died after they bought WCW and ECW. Competition drives better story lines, and the sad thing is there is no competition...

could use some prayer tonight
i got a job interview tomorrow and its the job i really really want... which is making me nervous

everyone is in my prayers tonight
kinda down
see a lot of girls at work and its like how can i get them to see me when im behind this register