Actually, I'm certain that finding a husband or boyfriend is not what's important. I'm certain that I've been searching for someone in vain. I'm certain that as long as I'm chasing this idea and letting my pions for anything but God drive me, I'm idolizing something. God's brought to my attention many of my sins and He's spoken truth to me. I have great desires to be with someone, and it might happen for me some day, but if it's going to happen the right way, it will be able to happen only because I have put my attention on Christs kingdom and the holiness of God. My desires will no longer be focussed on myself and my loneliness, but instead Gods desires will become my hearts desire, and I'll be walking in the spirit. However, I'm not all the way there yet.. So, keep this in mind and feel free to message me as my brother in Christ.