Except you.

and therein lies the problem - you are looking for someone to heal your heart. rather, you must give your heart and beauty follows. don't change who you are, be true to yourself always. i will come, when you're least expecting it.

Me bad. I didn't see your post. The credit for such sound advice is yours.

yeah, what she said

ive been like this for the past 6 years ever since my best freind killed himself right in front of me
and that day i cant erase it, plus we made a promise to eachother

I understand your job darlin,

i will never change the way i am for anyone thats the promise i made to my freind

YOUR WELLCOME THE WAY I SEE IT THERE IS ABSOLUTLY NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU AND I THINK YOU ARE BEING WAY TO HARD ON YOUR SELF LIKE I SAID PICK YOUR HEAD UP AND START ALL OVER AGAIN GOOD LUCK

nobody wants a needy person who isn't whole. you cant be happy with someone until your happy with yourself. otherwise things will never work. the emo act wont get you anywhere, buck up and heal yourself first before anything else.

jeremy there are many many still there for you
beautiful women who have been through similar
experiences and can relate as well

you will know her because she will not need for
you to change she will understand and have the
capacity to grow with you and will only desire
to stay with you and to have you stay with her

so remain open and you will find each other....

its not an emo thing
i hate them and i have moved on and i am happy with myself just no one else is happy with me thats my problem

that's really tragic, not something anyone should have to go through. but, i lost a best friend to leukemia, she didn't have a choice, and it made me stronger. it made me value life, family and friendships all the more. unless your promise was to be miserable forever, you need to take something from his death, and find peace. otherwise your heart will never be capable of loving another.

Simple really, you asked the question. If your yourself there is absolutely nothing wrong with, but with them. If you change yourself in order to accomidate another person, therein lies your fault.

no the promise we made was never to change for anyone
(and wearing black is what ive been doing for many many years now)
and to care for everyone and evrything

I see nothing wrong with anything in your appearance. I mean its not a carbon copy of anyone else ... your unique as we all are in our own ways. If it makes you happy thats all that matters.

Your emotional demeanor however is focusing on the negative instead of the positive. Believe me I am guilty of doing this myself. Ask yourself how you can change the negative into a positive in this situation.

Go out somewhere new where you dont know anyone and force yourself to meet at least 3 new people and hold a conversation about a general topic.

Go see a live band ...

Just generally change your habits temporarily to see things in a different perspective out of your normal comfort zone or something you wouldnt normally do.

Jeremy,
I had a lot of friends die when I was younger, it is painful and thankfully none in front of my eyes. You may need to seek counseling. That is not intended to belittle you, if I could I would, to get over some bad , my ex put me thru. Whatever the promise you made to your friend IF it is not in your best interest, today, he or she would not want that for you. Time changes people.

Sounds like you need some good friends to first help you feel better about you, then you can be the best you for somebody. My daughter is going to be have some post op. serious pain , but I'll be glad to be your friend if you feel like venting. If you write I'll be off and on here and will write you back.

well i dont have any freinds i can rely on they have all betrayed me in thier own way
like i said ive been a messed up person since i was a baby ive always been this way
like i said there is no way for me to change and i dont want to
i know he would be kind of pissed at me but ive done everything that i can to be the person i am now
one who like's to write poetry,draw, i love my family(even though they get on my nerves but who's doesnt sometimes)
im a good person i just like the way i dress and the way i am

At least you get relationships some of us aren't that lucky

Are u sure ur not friends with "theels?"

yeah but they dont last long
my longest relationship is 2 days
"theels" WTF