Sheer panic trickles down the length of me
Weeks have gone by without a single word
Stomach churing palms sweaty each day becomes longer than the last
Why did I have to get so angry?
I brushed him off as if he were nothing more than a fly
My heart races nervously
Oh god please don’t call him home
Not now
Not this way
He must come home to those who love him
Standing tall and proud
Not in a flag draped coffin
If only I would have know
What may lie ahead
I would have told him how sorry I am
For all the heated words I swore were the truth
My belief is weak but I need you now
Lord please keep him safe
Give me a second chance
To set things straight
To lose him would be
Losing what’s left of sanity
Many a soldier have rightfully returned to you
Since this all began
But please spare the heartache
Just this once

beautiful shadow...

By the way I haven't forgot about u...

Just struggling myself...trying to keep the mind busy...

I talked to my marine today....he is well...

so much uncertainty of were what when...it's sometimes going slow..but realistically..its like a huge tornado..

he may get deployed between June-Aug..but he says things change constanly....

Hope u r ok..

Write me any time..I am so bad at that...so any time u need to talk..I will make u my priority...

will be in touch about ur other situation..I have been thinking about it...just haven't quite come up with what to say ...but ya never know ..I shut down then all of a sudden I am going 100mph...

xoxoxox to u

Very heartfelt shadow_princess. Nice write.