I was nearly done with marriage 1st year of my marriage but my mom confused me and it hurt me till date , I didn't leave earlier

Hello Rondalen, I'm no expert on toxic or abusive behaviors however I would think that you must heal the hurt you have within before getting into another long term relationship. It is said that we cannot learn to honestly love a person untill we have forgiven the past wrongs and learned to love ourselves. It takes time, but it does work. Good luck.
P.S. getting advice online can be a quack show at times. Lots of keyboard warriors out there who really don't know you or your past to be able to recommend an action plan for you.

Are you just looking for sympathy?

Or do you need advise on something?

you can't beat yourself up over what you did or didn't do.. I was married to an abuser so I get it, everyone had opinions.. but the decision to leave has to come from within, no on can make those choices for you.. it sucks that your mom influenced you to not leave tho, that wasn't her place, even if she thought she was doing the right thing.. thankfully it's history now.. time to move forward..

you shud take time to work thru this, you survived, so that strength is already in you.. I wud suggest rediscovering yourself & heal first, before getting involved with anyone else.. best of luck to you!