What is the sweetest thing one has ever told you? In my lifetime, I have heard quite a few of them. Some were empty words of promises others were a promise of a lifetime… I often say, I can better express myself through my words, through my writings. When, I am happy, sad, frustrated, random thoughts, my feelings for the one I love, and just about everything in between – I am either texting them to myself, composing an email about it, or just typing it on Word document – but the bottom line is, it will be shared for others to read.

I like posting my writings – I said, so for others to read and perhaps they could pick up a lesson or two from them… but I am at the same time obsessed with my writings, it’s like I have this feeling – well, it happened just few weeks ago, a friend copied it, sent it to her boyfriend, and claimed it her own. I felt bad because they are mine – they are my thoughts, they are my feelings, they are my emotions, they are my experiences, they are my words – words that came from my heart, processed through my mind, and typed or written by my hands – so it’s me, all of me – my mind, heart, body, and soul.

So copying them, sharing them without my consent is like giving me away – my feelings, my totality to a stranger. Those thoughts, those words, those feelings are meant for a specific person – they were written to capture my emotions and express my feelings through my simple words for him, so he can picture the feelings I was trying to convey but I could not find the rights words to say so I describe them in more ways than one if only I can justify the feelings.

I would write paragraphs after paragraphs of describing my feelings for him but no matter how long, or how often, they still not seem to be enough to capture it – to paint a picture of my feelings but only few words from him – it moves me, it touches me in ways I could not possibly describe. Each time, it melts my heart and I would always come down to the realization that loving him, falling in love with him, risking my heart again was never a bad decision – something I will never, ever regret… that of all the mistakes I have done in my whole life – this is the one right thing I have ever done as a favor or reward for myself…

He told me yesterday, “I cannot possibly complete with this level of articulating your love for me…but I will only say one thing. I love you equally and I will let my deeds show you where words fail me” just like that – just those words, I died and came back to life again… I had to put my hands just where my heart is, felt the sound of its beating – oh love, the overflowing love – I fell in love all over again… all over again…

How can I not fall in love with my perfect one? He is all and everything that I ever wanted in this lifetime and in all my lifetime… that dashing, amazing, venerous, intelligent, delicious, and handsome man – oh God, I am young again… falling in love for the first time in her life… this much and so much more, I love you my sexy gorgeous!

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