My very healty cats, i sent there to dieto shelter
İ cant get over this guilt.

Since i realised they were ill, i am keeping away from pistachio as well to keep her safe. İts been 5 days i didnt let her near me.

Benek Cat took his stiches out. My nightmares at the moment are not ending.

This is too much. Forget about benek, my 3 babies.. they trusted me and i sent them to death myself. With my hands i put them in those boxes. Nothing can relieve this guilt..

İ dont know why God is treating me so bad while i am trying to be a good person. As if am a bad person, he is loading all the bad things on me. İ really wonder why?!!!

"İ cant think properly at the moment", is my escape sentence. because if i start judging, it will go against "that" justice. Better say i am off with my brain and sleep soon.

Try not to be sad my friend. These things happen. It is no way your fault. You are a good person with a good heart. Keep doing the good things you are doing for the other little ones.

on 3rd of Feb 2023, 2,5 days ago, Friday
we had to send our 19 year old Frisé to sleep
no words to say..

i kissed kissed kissed her, i said "goodbye, sorry. ilove you. wait for us there"
and they drove
they went 3
came back 2.

it is too much now.

anywway, life is going on
pistachio is with me
though she is sleeping all the time, thanks she is with me.

i know life is giving bads and goods
thunder and then rainbow
but some things are harder than the others
you think, it is hard
then one other comes, harder,
then one harder
but enough, isnt it??

please no more God...

So sorry to hear about Frise your furbaby was much much loved and lived such a long life . Hope pistachio is giving you lots of cuddles .

Also checking you and your family and friends are all okay .. saw on the news today the large earthquake affecting Turkey and Syria .. such devastation and loss .. so difficult being so far away. Sending my love xox

Hope you are okay my friend.

Moto have you heard from Tribu yet ??? I am worried about her .

1000KM is not far enough away from epicenter. Please give us a sign (after obvious priorities) and when you can!

Baraka Allahu Fik

Hi MOto, BLondey and Beach, sorry for writing late. We are okay but life is frozen for us. We are okay here at south -West at the moment and did not have any relatives at the eartquake area but still it is very sad, more than sad. We are stuck in front of TV to see if there are any more rescued and hoping the number of deaths is not increasing but we know that the final number will be out of beyonds. There are 2 families moved to the downstairs apartment, who survived after eartquake. They came in muddy clothes, not knowing what to do.

Our region is one the highest eartquake expected areas (dark red alert Zone)as well. Everynight we sleep planning what to do when it happens. Not if what it happens, "when" it happens. Our building is a New one and just 3 storey so we hope we are okay but we are stressed. Hard to sleep after all what we watch and hear and All thoughts.

Thank you my friends, and All helps from the other countries.

And thank you the hero mexican rescue dog "Prote" , who saved many lives from the knocked down buildings and died while trying to save an other person from the wreck. İ am so sorry for your loss. RIP Prote and thank you mexico and my condelences..

Thank you for being next to me and for your beautiful hearts. I love you all..

Happy to hear you’re okay Butribu.

And after seeing all those losses, whole family losses, now i understood that i have to grateful for what i still have. There is always a worse. Everyday is a lesson.