i am just at the last bits of my patience for the last couple of days
i dont want to talk, and i dont talk
i just feed my cats, ducks
i am about to explode,i am squeezing my teeth

wednesday we trapped 4 cats here, at my garden to neuter
actuallyi 2 of them i held and put in the boxes
the other 2 took time
we drove to shelter, they will be back tomorrow or the other day

Whitney Houston - Run To You
really, i needed this, thank you youtube
i am very tense, aggressive and speakeable at the moment

this may help

i asked for a "proper" trap cage for the cat with intestines out
i said, i fear, time is running to end
and it came
for god's sake, it's been a month
neverthless, i have it now

i just want to save that cat
God help me

this was not necessary

i am now positive that w. houston voice calms me down..

my mood is like scrambled egge now

scrambled egg wouldnt lile to talk, me neither.

writing doesnt count.

this an other one eases me down Sugababes - Shape

i need to calm down
i am very tense from tthe moment i wake up
there are reasons
and i just shut up
and wait..

Moto, tell me wat to do please.
but dont say say thhose ordinary things

I am very sad to hear how you are feeling these days my friend.

There is not much I can tell you what to do. The only things I can say would probably sound trite and over used.

But I can tell you that at seventy years old, and closer to the end than the beginning, I have myself gone through times when my brain felt like scrambled eggs, and I thought there would be no relief. But time passes and the sun will shine again. Trust me on this.

Breath, sit in the sunshine, take a long walk, go to the market and buy yourself some Turkish delights ,smell the flowers, and watch the little ones play in your garden, have a beer or three. And talk, talk to your friends, talk to your parents, especially your parents. Tell them how you are feeling. Cry a bit. Cry a lot if you feel like it. Howl at the moon if the mood strikes you. Sing in the shower. Show some love to little pistachio, and talk to her. Write in your mono. Life is life.. it is not always easy, but it is good to be alive. Take care my friend.

İ did many of your things you adviced
And i let a 2 days sleep help me as well
Walked
Fed my ducks
Spoke to my brother
Cried
Made shopping for my babies
Fed them
Visited my Benek Cat whom i was after to catch
Spoke to kids around me
Had some beer and talked to my pistachio
And really those all helped me
And starting from yesterday but definitely today morning, i was happy and well.

Today midday, eventually after a month work, at least 1 hour work everyday, feeding, waiting.. i was able to trap him! Mum helped me too. We made it!! And i made 4 great "oleyyyy!!!" After i made it.

Today midday, eventually after a month work, at least 1 hour work everyday, feeding, waiting.. i was able to trap him! Mum helped me too. We made it!! And i made 4 great "oleyyyy!!!" After i made it.

We took him to VEt directly. İ was on the clouds and before i got back on the ground, shelter brought me back my 4 babies after neutering and recovery of 1 week. İ cried of happiness. İ misses my stray ones so much and so did them

Cooked chicken liver for them to get strength back.

Now i am waiting for Benek Cat to have operation and spend 1 week of recovery at the vet and then come back to my garden.

I'm glad you have unscrambled your mind my green haired friend.

And I'm sure the little ones will be happy in your garden .

3 of my 4 stray cats i sent to shelter, back from there died because they caught fip virus there. Thanks, after all what i am doing about cats, ducks, others.. that must be what i deserved!!!!

My 3 days time is blank. Crying. Not knowing what to do. Loosing temper and nerve. Crying.